untitled, indeed

what could have beens

[lovulu]

i love the way females exist. so softly. so gracefully. she was graceful, that sunny day. she opened a world to me. the happiness in the valley of her dimples filled with flowers and the promise of something better

i wanted to ask you, you know. my lips tingled at the idea. my heart felt a small glow of joy i could barely meet your eyes a rarity for me.

thanks to you, i was jealous of the sun kissing every inch of your face i wish i could.

[oribiys-remade-deactivated20200]

everytime i move i crunch like popcorn

[skinnylottie]

Why can’t my weight drop as fast as James Charles’s sub count

[chocolatey-umbreon]

Me: *sees pikachu*

Me: A PIKACHU?

Pikachu: *puts on hat*

Me: DETECTIVE PIKACHU??

[depressedanxietydeath]

Me: I’m sorry.

Someone: Stop apologizing!!!

Me: I can’t.

Me: I feel so guilty for being the awful person I am.

Me: Sorry

[vent-art-af]

d e t a c h m e n t 

[25lbs25inches]

What do u mean reblogging thinspo doesn’t make me lose weight

[lovulu]

my fluctuating moods

my constant state of wonder

incessant hope plagues me

as disappointment bites at my heels

its teeth gripping my achilles

i know not of whether or not i can continue this journey

the only knowledge i bear is pain assured.

[trytobelittle]

lets get this bread rice cake (35)

[lovulu]

o4.21.19

Everything is getting bland again. There’s nothing really to look forward to. Perhaps I’m being too quick to jump to this conclusion, but I’d rather prepare for the worst. 

He pissed me off last night. Of course, I was drunk and have been pmsing, but still. Come on man. Why bring that up? My feelings for you aren’t completely gone and it hurts when you ask me about those things. When you feign even the slightest bit of interest in my romantic endeavors. As much as I hate to admit it, I am fragile. Please take that into consideration. 

God, I’m craving conversation so badly. Real conversation. I want to hear the fluctuations in a person’s voice as they speak about their hopes, fears, whatever. I just want to hear someone talk to me. Directly to me.

[canadad-deactivated20171111]

being romantically frustrated is so much worse than being sexually frustrated like how can i jack my emotions off

[lovulu]

my heart is riddled with envy.

[goodnightsorry]

i feel like i’m so stupid bc i can’t do any of my schoolwork bc i’m so fucking sad and i’m not doing well and everyone’s doing better than me and i’m so sad and so dumb

[lovulu]

o4.17.19

I’m so tired. So fucking tired of being this isolated. No one gets it. No one in my life FUCKING gets it. How lucky they are to have friends, people that will be there for them. They cry, “Oh, I’m lonely, I’m lonely!” ...to their friends. To their many friends. What I wouldn’t do to have a few more. I just want people to talk to. I don’t want to feel like a nuisance anymore. 

They have so many people that they can lean back on. They’re so lucky and they don’t realize it.

[bodegaowner-deactivated20190930]

my kink is when people tell me they were thinking about me

[lovulu]

o4.14.19

      I feel numb. 

      I had a terrible dream, a terribly vivid dream that he was going to leave. He was finally sick of me. And so he left. And to be quite frank, that dream is likely to be reality. 

     A sad truth. I just want to be told outright that’s how it’s gonna be. Stop pussyfooting around. Your pity is suffocating me. 

    i’m so tired. i don’t know what i want anymore. 

[sentada]

who else is stupid and eats bread

[strawbery-delight]

who else is stupid and eats everything

[until-it-killss]

Who else is stupid and eats