Sexuality & gender: genderfluid + most of us are in the aroace spectrum.
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Important stuff
You can call us Loz collectively when we don’t know who’s fronting or when you have to refer to us collectively.
We’re a traumagenic system that’s still figuring things out so please be patient! We’re not going to partake is syscourse I fear we have better things to worry about irl than engage in it.. if that bothers anyone, you are free to block ofc!
Also be aware that !!!THIS IS A VENT BLOG!! ⚠️
our social blog is @luffyuu which is Luffy’s account but most social alters drop by there more and is for our more lighthearted posts
The information on this post will be edited, check when the last edit was at the end of the post.
Interaction Boundaries (mainly for our @luffyuu side blog but it stays true for this blog too)
Though questions are heavily encouraged, we don’t owe anyone any information on ourselves or our alters if we choose not to answer. But also don’t be afraid to interact! If any boundaries are crossed we’ll just let you know. We also expect the same in return, if any boundaries are crossed without us realizing, feel free to tell us! And yes.. we practice system accountability and expect the same if we interact.
Feel free to let us know if you’d like to be friends! We’re always open to new people even if some of us are more shy than others!
Sorry in advance if we respond extremely late/ disappear for days. We’re quite busy irl and it’s quite difficult to get every one of our headmates to log in here and make a post.. not to mention if one of us is having a conversation about a topic and switches, a bunch of us will just leave the conversation alone till the other comes back.
We don’t have much figured out yet but there’ll be brief intros of the alters below.
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Alter intros
Aether💫
Pronouns/gender: Cis male, he/him but doesn’t mind any pronouns
Sexuality: aroace, gay
Likes: drawing (only one in our system that likes coloring), being clean, being active, genshin,
Anything you need to know about this alter: basically the one that started this blog.
PB🌺 (full name is problematic, she didn’t have a name so we just gave her one😭 PB is just a shortened version)
Pronouns/gender: cis female, she/her but doesn’t mind other pronouns
Sexuality: bisexual
Likes: Loud music, TBHK, manga, popping up and making weird ass comments…, feminine clothing, crop tops
Anything you need to know about this alter: interact with caution.. The definition of gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss except she actually gatekeeps and gaslights…
Leo🌆
Pronouns/gender: male, any pronouns
Sexuality: cupioromanric, hopeless romantic without the romantic ahhhhh
Likes: romance music, rhythm games, Sims 4 (the only one that plays that game in this system ngl..), making gifts/ planning gifts for people
Anything you need to know about this alter: mood swings..(?)
Ermy🦜
Prnouns/ gender: he/they, trans demiboy. The only one in our system that DO care about pronouns and terms. Please refer to this alter with masc/neutral terms only
Likes: animals, socializing (duh), being awake and playing video games at ungodly hours, researching about animals for hours, yapping, playing games with friends, Roblox ghost games!
Anything you need to know about this alter: dude really likes people.. play Roblox or any game w him and he’d jump with joy. Yaps A LOT don’t even need to worry about the convo going silent dude gets distracted and starts yapping about some random shi 24/7.
Luffy/ Lufu👒
Pronouns/ gender: he/him cis male, doesn’t mind other prns/terms
Likes: Meat, one piece, KOOOOBYYY, kobylu,
Anything you need to know about this alter: n/a
Side blog: @luffyuu
X🌠
Call them whatever, doesn’t want their name out there. You can just call them X
I call them Logan the third! Could just call them anything tho-👒
Talking to a therapist except they look at you like you’re fucking mental when you bring up an actual serious issue you need help with instead of playing pretend and being the day to day “I’m bad at making conversations with people :(“ patients they get.
Seeing a therapist in a country where mental health is looked down upon sucks so bad. Watching our own therapist go quiet and awkward when we try to bring up anything serious. Us thinking it’s a one time thing but seeing FOUR different therapists in a row and none of them taking us seriously/just looking at us like we’re insane when we bring stuff up is actually INSANE.
I’m not paying you to talk to me about the weather Jesus fucking Christ if you’re not qualified to deal with me then transfer me to someone who can instead of not taking me seriously cause GOD IM FUCKING EXHAUSTED
Than GOD for Luffy cause we wouldn’t be functioning rn if he wasn’t here. I’m not gonna fucking lie. Made self help templates for us and everything.
Being a system is so mentally debilitating for us how do I un system myself 🥹 guys..🥹 one second one of us is all excited about talking to their friends, the next second other alters that have absolutely no will to live starts fronting and cooking us with a forkful of system denial and a side course of denying we even HAVE trauma or even a reason to be crashing out so bad
Cooking me so bad I don’t know who’s front. I know K is here. Luffy’s here.. Is that it?? Who am I then…🥹wth🥹🥹 vents after vents bro we need to just make another side blog for ts… clogging all the posts
Vent cuz im tweaked out and would probably explode if i let it out to ppl ik.
Lowkey how it feels waiting for ur antidepressants to kick in but it’s not working so you’re just laid there tweaking the helly out abt the dumbest stuff ever. Hkey how it feels wanting to block everyone and delete ur accounts and it’s taking way too much effort just not do that.
Lowkey how it feels to want to be normal for once.. lowwjjkkk wondering if you’re going to be like this forever….! Lowkey wishing you were born normal in a different life. Lowkey watching people live their day to day life normally and wishing to god somehow you’d be reborn with that privilege.
Lowkey how it feels having the most violent fucking fantasies of just ripping yourself apart just to cope but then realizing why this is even a coping mechanism in the first place makes you want to vomit ur guts out.
Highkey how do u function normally. Highkey why am I like this. Highhkey I could’ve been a better mom than my parents.. I say to myself as if I don’t exhibit the same behaviors as both of them. Highkey how it feels to not be the perfect victim. Highkey how it feels having people think you’re fine just because you’re hyper independent and fixed your own shit yourself but there’s a fucking reason why I’m like this?? Highkey how it feels when people think you’re lazy just because your independent act is slipping. Highkey how it feels when you just want everything to go away. Highkey I wish everything and everyone left me alone but at the same time it’s so fucking quiet I feel insane I want people but not the pressure of being sane. Not the pressure of ppl expecting me to be stable. Not the pressure of having to cater to other people constantly. It’s so outrageously tiring. I want people, I hate people, I love people, I wish no one existed I wish i didn’t have feelings I wish nothing existed.
How it feels knowing people see you as normal. So there’s just the constant pressure to keep things that way. “Heh! Yeah! I’m perfectly fine and dont get fucked up thoughts about gutting myself up from the inside out just to feel something!” Fucking hate that people assume I have the resources for help because I’m privileged as if i didn’t work for that shit. As if i didn’t spent weeks and months just begging, finding and even making my own appointments cause some incompetent fuck wouldn’t help me after years straight of begging.
And I just never get that help ever. I didn’t get that help when I was 8, begging god to either make me normal or just straight up kill me. Neither did I get that help when i was 15 trying to kill myself over and over again myself.
Highkey how it feels knowing I’m actually seconds away from deleting this account too. Idfc about the other alters I don’t care I want this feeling gone. I know I can’t but it’s so fucking tiring. Just the constant need to disappear and not exist.
So many people talk about romantic psys I feel like platonic system friends aren’t talked about enough.
I love my brothers, we’re not biologically related nor are we even half siblings, we just one day decided to be brothers.
Since all of us are systems, I’ve always found it kind of.. heartwarming how we care about each other even as different alters
I care about them no matter which alter fronts and I know they care about us no matter who’s in front, even alters that don’t know them. And it’s nice seeing alters that haven’t even spoken to our brothers know they’re loved the way they are.
It’s like being cared about by people you feel like you barely know (even if you KNOW you do) and they don’t mind one bit that you don’t feel like you know them and don’t return the affection. Neither do they force or expect anything of you.
They’re not forcing how much they care about you onto you, it’s just a quiet thing none of you acknowledge but you know is there. Just simple acceptance.
That’s how it is for the old alters that resurface and meet our current brothers I feel like.
I hope we’re able to find more people like this in the future. Genuinely don’t know how we even found these awesome two system friends.. they suckass but they’re my family and i wouldn’t have it any other way.🥹
If they ever find this acc im deleting everything tho. LMAOKKKLLLO my dumbass brothers..
Currently going thru a huge system rework again because I’m actually so fucking tired. I can’t be host anymore everything’s just been so bad and I hate it here. I’m not even needed here as much anymore clearly. Literally feels like I’m wasting everyone’s time and not doing us any good being here. Maybe it’s because I worked better being fully unaware we’re a system? Idkidk everything is so disorientating and confusing. I hate coming back and feeling sm things different because my headmates are actually forming their own lives and doing things that aren’t limited to how we’re supposed to act and it freaks me out I’m scared I’m tired but I have friends and family I still want to be here for and I’m scared the others won’t keep them around as much because they’re not as familiar to them as I am and I don’t want that I’m scared I don’t want to drift apart from people so I need to stay here and make sure we don’t but also I’m so insanely tired uhshdhdhdbgghh watching the others try to integrate me back into being host but I can’t bring myself to want to be host. Yes I want to be here but also I don’t..? Just existing feels exhausting I don’t understand how the others do it.
Guys find me on @luffyuu I CANT STAND LOOKING AT THIS TUMBLR PAGE BRo!!! I DONT want to change anything either tho cause I don’t want anyone to come for me
IM FRYING??? I DIDNT KNOW WE ALREADY HAVE A TUMBLR ACCOUNT. Was registering for an account to find some friends just to realize our gmail is already registered to an account. HELLLOO?? HI??? I YELLS INTO THE VOID??? Why is are name Loz that’s so lame 😿😿-Lu uhhmmm idk how this thing works I’ll figure it outthh
Looking at our past after a few old alters resurfaced and wondering if there’s any other old alters we weren’t aware of.. then immediately shutting down that thought because registering any more alters would probably bring one of if not all of us into a crisis. -Lo
Always wondered if this was a system issue or a genderfluid issue but everytime we start a game where you can select the character’s pronouns and gender, we always sit and think about it too long. Like.. some of us are genderfluid while others are male/female but still don’t know which to pick since they want other alters of the opposite gender to have a go at the game too later down the line when they’re not in front. Always thought it was a genderfluid thing like I’d go “but I don’t want to pick male cause what if tomorrow I don’t feel like a guy and female/non binary me will get crazy dysphoria and uncomfortable” sometimes I mean it in a genderfluid way and other times I mean it as a system way.. if anyone understands..
We cater to using he/him and male prns more in games though since it’s the pronouns people use the least irl. Plus only Ermy really cares about being referred correctly. God does he get so physically uncomfortable.. I can literally feel this guy seething at the sight of me thinking about picking she/her.. so much for being the mood booster 😭😭
-Loz. not an alter btw idk who I am rn so just read this as us speaking collectively.
