Sol Invictus

I Dream of the Sun

[luaryamada]

Basically life

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[luaryamada]

As vezes é sobre sofrer o suficiente para que você viva feliz.

I'm sorry for existing in your mind

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Tenho pensado sobre a possibilidade de eu ter perdido parte de minha mente por causa do preenchimento com outras vidas, eu me alimento tanto da vida dos outros que perdi a habilidade de determinar quem sou, ter vida é um privilégio cujo eu não mereço a posse.

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Desde os meus primeiros anos nessa terra eu experenciei ódio e dor, sendo punido e espancado por causa da minha indiferença sobre suas vidas, talvez não seja algo ruim pois me deu uma certa visão sobre a vida e entendimento maior do que é viver, quem sentiu nada pode experimentar por completo tudo.

As vezes acho que nasci pra viver assim, sempre sendo testado ao máximo sem ultrapassar um limite onde não haja volta, sempre há uma saída para que eu continue nesse caminho planejado por seja lá quem for.

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Forever seeking forgiveness for who I am, even if not knowing myself what I've become after many years of nothing.

I hope they forgive me for my mind is pure and my heart pumps hope and love, but my body is corrupted by the material world, I'm not as clear as I was but I know my wrongdoing.

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Drunk with love I breath only pain but see perfection

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Drunk with love, I breath only pain but see perfection.

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Everything is so beautiful and magical to me, things are so perfect but they bring me only sorrow and hatred.

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Fran thought me a lot, I was childish of thinking I could live a normal life, that I could love and be loved, god said to me years ago I couldn't. I tried change again and again, I was blinded from hope, I can't change I must remain faithful for my cause is pure.

I don't have the strength anymore, I can't BEAR it...

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I'm not strong enough, I don't know if I can do it, it's to late now.

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I guess alan was right, we are sick, that's why the kids beat us up so much when we were younger, a creature not deserved to be tamed.

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Raul once tried to kill me, I guess he was afraid of death as much as I am, cowards that fear the great judgement that await us.

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As I said to God once, I deserve all Pain and Punishment he throws at me, his wrath is not close to the hate I feel towards Raul.

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I loved you so much it made you suffer

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I will never be better than the next person, to live as an option and not a choice.