lucinull

[lucinull]

hey I'm lucina, she/they, 27, transfem & sapphic aroace

I got a gender nullification surgery with Dr. Del Corral on March 19th, 2026

I'm keeping this blog specifically to document and journal my experiences with this surgery. information about bottom surgery tends to be pretty obfuscated and "nonbinary" surgeries like nulloplasty and penis-preserving vaginoplasty are even harder to properly research. I'm hoping to mitigate this as much as possible so please feel free to ask me anything! my asks and DMs are always open! i don't know everything but I'll answer to the best of my ability🩷🩵

Your Smooth Bottom Line: Nulloplasty/Nullification/Nullectomy - QueerDoc • Trans Online Doctors Office - Curing LGBTQ+ Healthcare Discrimina

Nullification surgery (nullectomy, nullo) is the removal of internal and external genital structures to create a smooth appearance to the gr

[yuribomber]

week 8 of nullo recovery: i haven't done one of these in a while because honestly not much has been happening. 4 weeks was around the point i could get back to normal activities, and since then I've been gradually building up more stamina. I'm not at 100% yet but I'm getting close. i get winded pretty easily but stairs and busses aren't an issue anymore. couple days ago i even ran a short distance.

in terms of physical appearance, recovery has been even more gradual. swelling has been going down extremely slowly. there's still that tight feeling but it isn't enough to really bother me anymore. bleeding has also stopped almost completely. there's still a couple drops of blood every now and then, but about a week ago i got to the point where i don't need to wear pads anymore.

almost all my sutures are gone too, most of them fell out during week 6. the only ones that are still there are the ones right in the middle, near the bottom of the V shape scars. they feel like they're made out of a different material too.

A little after the 4 week mark, i bought myself a hitachi magic wand. I've tried it out a couple times but honestly, the sensation is underwhelming. vibration is a nice feeling and there's a ton of euphoria in not having those parts anymore. nerves still haven't recovered so I'm not as sensitive as i should be, and definitely not sensitive enough to orgasm. it's impossible to say when that'll happen, it's different for everyone. could be just a few weeks or over a year. One thing i did get to confirm 2 days ago is that i still get wet, precum definitely still happens💦

Overall I'd say that the biggest surprise is just how normal this feels. i don't mean that in a "this is how my body was always supposed to be" way, it's more like sometimes I actually forget that I have different parts now. How often do you actively consider your genitals during the day? How often do you feel the sensation of having particular body parts? it's the same thing. but at the same time I'm so happy with it!

I also had my 3rd post-op appointment today. it was extremely fast, i didn't even have to get changed into a hospital gown this time. everything's going normally, but there was a little bit of leftover hypergranulation so i got another dose of silver nitrate. I've got one more post-op on June 25th and then I'm pretty much officially done with recovery and I'll be released from all the restrictions on sex and physical activity🎉

[ifeelsck]

My zine in the lineage of Fucking Trans Women by Mira Bellwether, about my anatomy as a trans woman who's had nullification surgery. It started as a user manual for a partner but I believe it has value beyond that.

Doll-Parts/Doll Parts.pdf at main · Crythedral/Doll-Parts

NeogenitalsEvangelion. Contribute to Crythedral/Doll-Parts development by creating an account on GitHub.

[ifeelsck]

A weirdo's weirdo.

DOLL PARTS or NEOGENITALS EVANGELION has received a website renovation!

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

My next biggest goal in life once college is done, is getting a nulloplasty so I never have to look at my genetals again.

I hate them.

[symphony-of-gaia]

a short list of nulloplasty resources for anyone curious:

https://github.com/Nullodyke/Let-s-Touch-Scars/tree/main (contains photos of healing scars and resulting null patch)

https://vvn.dev/nullification (CAUTION: graphic! the first photos are of the surgery site and resultant null patch, the remainder is …let's say, an exercise in bodily autonomy involving the removed organs)

https://beesbuzz.biz/articles/5195-nullification-surgery (long description; has diagrams but no photos)

https://neogenitals-evangelion.neocities.org/ (contains artfully grainy photos of resultant null patch, plus annotated anatomical diagrams)

fwiw we're not pursuing nullo, but we intimately know the frustration of wanting an uncommon surgery and struggling to find information on it.

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

THANK YOU!!!!!!

[yuribomber]

And this website has a list of surgeons who provide nullification:

Your Smooth Bottom Line: Nulloplasty/Nullification/Nullectomy - QueerDoc • Trans Online Doctors Office - Curing LGBTQ+ Healthcare Discrimina

Nullification surgery (nullectomy, nullo) is the removal of internal and external genital structures to create a smooth appearance to the gr

It isn't an exhaustive list, I had mine done with Dr. Del Corral in Baltimore MD, but it's a good starting point

I recommend setting up multiple consultations if you can. that way if a surgeon doesn't work out for you, you won't have to wait so long to see another

[the-transgenda-agenda]

added links that were not already on the nullification page to the nullification page

[lucinull]

YES! thank you so much!!

[yuribomber]

week 4 of nullo recovery:

so I'm pretty much done with the hard part- pain has gone down enough for me to stop taking oxycodone, I've gone out with friends, i can move around without hurting myself, it feels like things are starting to return to normal. there's barely any blood in my maxi pads anymore. my wounds are almost completely healed now so over the next week or two, 8my sutures are gonna dissolve and fall out- I'm really looking forward to them being gone because they're kinda really annoying. i can feel the tips of them stabbing into my skin sometimes. I'm allowed to cut them off now (but not pull them out) but I'm not gonna do that unless they really start to bother me.

Today I had my second post-op appointment. check the fit~

i also squeezed a boob and found a free stool

The appointment itself went really fast, basically everything is healing perfectly, apart from some slight hypergranulation. when a wound is healing it forms granulation tissue, but sometimes it forms too much and that impacts the healing process. it's pretty common with these types of surgeries. they treated this with silver nitrate which came in the form of these big matchstick-type things. The doctor said it might burn but i didn't feel anything. that part of the wound will have some extra bleeding for a few days, but it basically has a second chance to heal normally now.

i asked about sexual activity and the answer is that i still have to wait another 2 months before sex. BUT I'm allowed to start slowly experimenting with clitoral stimulation!

this week I'm also gonna try riding the bus again- I think I'm ready for it. and my next follow up is in another month, on May 14th.

[lucinull]

very long color of the sky post below, this is my entire diary from the first 3 weeks of recovering from nullification surgery.

(something i forgot to mention, gabapentin makes me absolutely STUPID. not the fun kind of stupid like with marijuana or ketamine. it's a boring stupid. your thoughts are just slow. but it did help a lot with nerve pain)

Also I'm gonna add that nerves are reconnecting. I'm feeling jolts of pleasure when im rinsing off with the showerhead and when im in a car that goes over a bump.

when i kiss girls I feel a ??? between my legs but i don't have the words to describe it yet. it's different from getting hard but honestly, not as different as you'd think. it's all the same stuff down there but in different locations. as much as i really wanted to keep exploring that feeling, it's definitely too early for it.

I'm getting really pent up. this is medically enforced chastity

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

My next biggest goal in life once college is done, is getting a nulloplasty so I never have to look at my genetals again.

I hate them.

[symphony-of-gaia]

a short list of nulloplasty resources for anyone curious:

https://github.com/Nullodyke/Let-s-Touch-Scars/tree/main (contains photos of healing scars and resulting null patch)

https://vvn.dev/nullification (CAUTION: graphic! the first photos are of the surgery site and resultant null patch, the remainder is …let's say, an exercise in bodily autonomy involving the removed organs)

https://beesbuzz.biz/articles/5195-nullification-surgery (long description; has diagrams but no photos)

https://neogenitals-evangelion.neocities.org/ (contains artfully grainy photos of resultant null patch, plus annotated anatomical diagrams)

fwiw we're not pursuing nullo, but we intimately know the frustration of wanting an uncommon surgery and struggling to find information on it.

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

THANK YOU!!!!!!

[lucinull]

some general advice for starting out with gender affirming surgery:

• do as much research as you can on your own. r/TransSurgeriesWiki is an excellent starting point.

• the first step is figuring out what you want. it's ok if all you have is a rough idea at first, you'll have plenty of time to figure out the specifics and plenty of chances to change your mind.

• the second step is figuring out who you want to do it. If you live in America, this is unfortunately dictated by which surgeons are in network with your insurance and which procedures your insurance covers.

• don't wait to make a consultation, even if you're still figuring things out. depending on who you go with, you could be waiting months or years for your consultation- that gives you plenty of time to do your research. and there's no shame in canceling your consultation if you find out it won't work out.

• schedule multiple consultations with a few different surgeons. this keeps your options open and could save you a lot of time- I made the mistake of waiting 18 months for a surgeon who ended up not working out for me.

• start thinking about accommodations and caretaking. surgery will put you out of commission for weeks or months and you'll need to find someone who's able to help you during that time. having this figured out will help out during your consultation.

• rely on your community. Discord is surprisingly useful for this- if you're on one of your local queer/trans servers, you should ask for advice. there are also servers dedicated exclusively to bottom surgery or to specific surgeons. these servers are typically set up to help you along every step of the process. (i'm in a few of these, DM me if you want an invite)

• some procedures require hair removal and some have BMI requirements. this is something to ask your surgeon about as early as possible because these things take time. the BMI requirement is unscientific and fatphobic, but doctors still use it anyway. if your BMI is above 35, you'll need to either lose weight or go out of your way to find a doctor who will accommodate that.

[lucinull]

Your Smooth Bottom Line: Nulloplasty/Nullification/Nullectomy - QueerDoc • Trans Online Doctors Office - Curing LGBTQ+ Healthcare Discrimina

Nullification surgery (nullectomy, nullo) is the removal of internal and external genital structures to create a smooth appearance to the gr

[lucinull]

this website is an ok starting point but two big reasons I wanted to make this blog was that

1) my surgeon, Dr. Gabriel Alfonso Del Corral (Baltimore, MD, USA) isn't listed as someone who provides nullification here or in the very extensive trans surgery wiki on reddit

2) the process he uses for amab nullification is different from anything else I've seen online. usually, there is a single vertical scar going up and down the center of the groin, but Del Corral's method results in a V shaped scar going along the sides of the groin. this would be the same kind of scar used with vaginoplasty and vulvaplasty, which makes this operation very similar to a zero-depth vaginoplasty.

He drew me a picture of what it'll look like:

but to this day, I've never seen any actual photos of this, meaning that i kinda had to jump into this blind. i still only have a rough idea of what it's going to look like once it finishes healing.

[windwardstar]

Stop calling meta and phallo transmasculine. Stop calling vaginoplasty transfeminine. Stopcalling nullification transneutral. Stop calling having both a penis and vagina nonbinary.

It's all gendering genitals. It's penis is boy and vagina is girl, neither is genderless, and both is something else.

Specific surgeries might be more common to people with specific gender identities but gender does not equal genitals. Gendering the surgeries is misgendering those who don't have said identity. Stop misgendering other trans people.

[lucinull]

i tried going for vaginoplasty first, but after i learned nullo was an option i realized i didn't actually want a vagina. the only thing i wanted out of bottom surgery was for my penis to be gone.

the thing that really convinced me was that with nullo, you have the option to keep that bundle of nerves that's used to form a clitorus- so there's still sensitivity.

and the real advantage is that recovery is easier than vaginoplasty, complications are less likely, and there's no need to dilate.

[lucinull]

if i change my mind later on, it's still possible to get a neovagina. I won't be able to get penile inversion, but there are other types of vaginoplasty.

there's peritoneal pull through, which uses abdominal tissue, and intestinal vaginoplasty, which uses part of the colon. the only thing that's not an option anymore is exposing the clitorus- it's surrounded by scar tissue so it'll remain buried under the skin.

[lucinull]

i tried going for vaginoplasty first, but after i learned nullo was an option i realized i didn't actually want a vagina. the only thing i wanted out of bottom surgery was for my penis to be gone.

the thing that really convinced me was that with nullo, you have the option to keep that bundle of nerves that's used to form a clitorus- so there's still sensitivity.

and the real advantage is that recovery is easier than vaginoplasty, complications are less likely, and there's no need to dilate.

[lucinull]

Your Smooth Bottom Line: Nulloplasty/Nullification/Nullectomy - QueerDoc • Trans Online Doctors Office - Curing LGBTQ+ Healthcare Discrimina

Nullification surgery (nullectomy, nullo) is the removal of internal and external genital structures to create a smooth appearance to the gr