What Will I Be At The End?

A personal blog where I try to make confetti paper out of myself and shoot it at a glue-covered wall until I find the me that I like the best. I’ll also be posting my art here, too sometimes. +18 blog, no minors!

[ratfuck]

horny

[lucyafterall]

Aaa la la la, happy day, happy day, BLEHH!! Big explosion plus two more explosions, big goo bomb that’s all blue and stuff, gets everywhere, real fun time, everyone having fun and just having so much fun and cool good stuff. Yeahg!!

And there you are again, cool rain, eyes closed, breathe deep.

Focus on the sound, the rain- imagine it was raining on *you.*

Cool waters flow down the back, feel reformed and relieved, for it comes.

It can’t be THAT bad, can it, Lucy? Really, it’s okay. It might not be THAT, but who needs THAT? This is good too, and “this” is enough. Happiness *is* the aim, of course. And that, that ‘this’, that is, IS happy. That will come to hurt no doubt, but that flay, god is it ever good. And it will be quite alright, I hope the terms of that aren’t so bad

[lucyafterall]

It’s not, like, I can’t get you *out* of there- I wish you WERE. Or like, i wish someone was. Honestly, fuck, I wish.

Am I distracting myself? I probably am. Maybe I just wish it was you. Not, you, her. Ughhhh. Fuck, man, I kinda do.

Its weird not feeling good at something I’d feel as though I’ve been conditioned for a million years to BE good at. Always have been. Maybe I am, just, not at this? Maybe I’m too close to the problem, maybe it’s too easy.

Either you fall at my feet or you’re a million miles away and fuck me do I wish there was a middle ground. God I want to work for it, and I want to win. All I’ve ever wanted and I have it and it irritates me because of how easy it feels.

Because I’m a girl? Is that it? That’s the significance of the criteria? Because I said something that WASNT scathingly abusive? It’s what I was like, I guess.

I’d take it, at any chance, any opportunity, any slight sliver or morsel of it, I’d hold it like it was my mother, and I a child. But now I don’t.

I don’t feel /$-&!?3, I feel remorse. How fucking abysmal. And really, the hubris of it, from me?

I HAVE what I want, and I’m not even satisfied with it. Cant I just - s- for -me?

Do I want it because I want - or do I want it because I *want* -, and I just WANT to want -.

[themysteriousmurasamecastle]

hey.. two people were asking about you… so i gave them your address and phone number… their names were Skeletal Warrior and Skeletal Ice Mage

[lucyafterall]

Pathe of exile…

[dragongirlbunny]

no i did not "stab" her its called dubcon knifeplay

[cnmcn]

[dogpuppy]

[mandywondering]

I mean, in some very interesting Technically Correct ways, they didn't actually die? Now, they're very much no longer alive. But the forces involved are such that they didn't get any of the usual cellular processes of death, they simply went from biology to physics in less time than it takes a signal to travel down your optic nerve.

[reallyseally]

girlrotting is only one letter away from girlfrotting which needless to say is very good great improvement but consider it's also only one letter away from girlrotating which could give her swirly eyes and make her go awawwa from the dizzyness. who's to say which is better ?

[cicada667]

this fanfic shit easy

[kuropin]

Dont lock me up for this one

[vvnill4]

2026 vs 2024 art redraw

[lucyafterall]

I hope you’re as proud of yourself as I am, look how much progress, In just two years!!!!

[endermanalbino]

Monster Hunter icon - garuda

[parkchanwoohoo]

I beg my kidnappers for a phone, swearing not to make any calls or texts, and they stare over my shoulder, holding a gun to my head as I use my newly-freed hand to post, "So do like, dudes just buy ropes and baklavas from the same store or what lmfao like a specialty Crime Store"

One of the kidnappers says "balaclavas" but it's muffled under the fabric. I ask them to repeat and they do, their voice raspy from disuse. "You wrote baklava, that's a pastry." The other kidnapper goes "stfu" and then after a pause goes "Why would you buy from a crime store"

[godisafujoshi]

Then they spit roast me

[parkchanwoohoo]

I didn't wanna say this but now that someone's left this kind of comment I have to be honest: Everyone else's tags are funny but this is the only person who understood my vision for this scenario

[ieatratsyummy]

They could never make me hate you, complex female character whose reaction to trauma was not pretty and digestible like how people think it should be.

[lucyafterall]

Personal art here. Miss you Michigan

[lucyafterall]

It got me really god. Not ashamed to admit I cried.

[lucyafterall]

GAMAGORI and Nonon were highlights of the show for me