Luffxeni

Him | Writer and Lyricist. Will write daily poems or literature to free myself from Writer's block.

[luffxeni]

⠀⠀Where has my mind gone?* ˚ ✦

Welcome to my blog. . .

This is my first time on Tumblr, like actually. Lately, I've been losing the motivation to write. As a writer, well, it sucks more than anything to lose motivation to do your favorite thing. So, I decided to create a Tumblr and make daily blogs about my work to overcome my writer's block. Don't worry, though, if you, by any chance, have taken an interest in my blogs, I'll still remain active on Tumblr.

꒰ Thing's to Note...

This blog will have posts mixed with old writing and the usual daily, new posts. Old pieces of writing will have something to indicate it's an old piece, and that I just wanted to share it because it was made at a time when I was enjoying my hobby, and felt a bit of confidence in it. I'll have some tag or indicator to specify whether it's a new or old piece.

For my daily posts, I can't promise it'll be of high quality. Again, this is to overcome my crippling Writer's block.

Blog posts may include NSFW topics. I will chose to not list any for future reference but there will be disclaimers at the start of any nsfw or triggering posts. (And Minors be warned. Whatever you find on here isn't my responsibility.)

What to know about me?

I'm a Dude (He/Him) .

I enjoy consuming most visual media like anime, shows, movies, and even short films. But that doesn't exclude other entertainment mediums like books and fanfiction. I tend to consume these in a way where I gain inspiration. If anyone has suggestions, please suggest me some shows or something to watch for Inspo.

I touch grass.

Hope I can regain my spark again. . .

- Xeni

[kyathedino]

i do not 'write outlines', i do not have a 'beta reader', i do not 'plan an ending'. i sit down and rawdog that googles docs like god intended. and if it doesnt get any comments on ao3?

I SINK INTO DESPAIR.

[sky-chau]

You should get an AO3 account

With the rise of AI and the well known epidemic of AI companies scraping Ao3 for training data most authors on Ao3 have locked down their fics to logged in users only. This is unfortunate for authors and readers. As an author I've noticed a steep drop in readership on fics restricted to logged in users and when recommending fics to my friends I've noticed that the folks without an account can't find the fics. The logged in users only toggle, not only keeps people without an account from reading a fic, but also from seeing its listing at all. More than 50% of fics I come across have this setting turned on. So, you should get an AO3 account. I know this seems daunting and unfair because it's an invite only system but, you can invite yourself through the homepage if you don't already have one, and in the past few years I've never heard of someone who requested an invitation through this method, not getting one. And for those of you who are hesitant because you don't write, that's okay. It's not weird at all to click on a commenter username and find that they have 0 works and 10,000 bookmarks. It might take a week for the invitation to actually show up, but I can almost guarantee you will get one, just keep an eye on your email. It's free to join and donations are optional. You'll have more to read if you have an account and maybe give your favorite author the chance to protect their work from AI without a loss of readership and feedback.

[luffxeni]

Miss Tulner,

The bells rung their usual repetitive tune throughout the streets of Niryros. You know, the ones built upon a mountain of bricks and hardened material made to keep it sticking. There was once a time when the safety of our advancing land had met ruin and many more inconvenient tragedies to our development. At the time, you were a hero amongst the wealthy. Convincing us that even commoners and beast men of the backstreets were worthy of care and respect. I was one of the thousands who religiously held onto that belief. That you would reshape the foundation of this land, and rebuild it to be suitable for all living organisms— and damn was a I naive.

At the bell tower of Niryros, I alone stood at the ledge of the platform.

"Damian."

The mistress uttered my name once more.

— no matter how many times I attempt to relief myself from her existence.

She always finds the words to tug at my heartstrings.

Until they're swallowed by liquid ink.

[luffxeni]

I can't write bro.

No literally.

I can't.

[luffxeni]

Remember,

It's not about writing a lot of words, but how you use them. A good story ≠ a lot of writing. Remember to keep it engaging, instead of adding on too much filler and dialogue drought.

But don't be afraid about writing too much either, because it comes with being passionate, and can even be enjoyable.

-Xeni

[luffxeni]

Do you ever want to write something for a close friend as a way to express your appreciation of their existence and all they've done to make you feel loved?

I've always wanted to write a song or poem for that special person.

But I can't just give them any type of writing y'know? I want them to have something that comes from the heart, while also not sounding shitty and cheesey. 🤒

- Xeni

[luffxeni]

Do people still.. pay and actually commission writers these days with the whole character ai and chat gpt bs? I feel like the one thing I'm even decent at is in jeopardy at this point.

- Xeni

[luffxeni]

I wanna be consistent for this blog but my ADHD ass can't write shit rn for the blog I'm sorry y'all I really am.

[luffxeni]

Finalize

Days shall pass

The hour awaits

Perhaps for next time

While it isn't late

It's already noon?

Sleep flew by so soon

Hadn't you counted

When it'd come through?

It's that time again

When the days may not pass

That day has arrived

The day you'll finalize

Until you realize, my inconsistent mind

That it's already too late

Too late to finalize

- Xeni

[luffxeni]

Are writers just automatically infected with the process of maladaptive daydreaming or what's going on here?

-Xeni

[luffxeni]

Speak

May you grace me love

Devoting my love and admiration to thy name

My love, acknowledge my word

My soul

My undying loyalty

Speak

Speak to me

Share your word

Allow me to be graced by your presence

Oh god

My precious

O' one I mustn't seek

Grant me this wish just once

Speak to me

Speak, you fucking coward

-Xeni

[luffxeni]

Oh shit. I'm supposed to write something for today before 12am hits...

FUCK I WAS OCCUPIED THE WHOLE DAY THIS IS MY PROBLEM BEING INCONSISTENT AS FUCK !!! STAY CONSISTENT!!! I GOT THIS AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

- Xeni

[luffxeni]

Very off topic from my blog.

But I decided to make an ASMR channel. So uh, yeah. I was already very into the genre so I thought, "why not?" Y'know? It even helped me in my process of writing through my life. So why not try something similar for others?

https://youtube.com/@luffxeniasmr - Feel free to subscribe, or not.

- Xeni

[luffxeni]

Should I start an AO3 account and post the stuff I post on my blog onto there as well? It's been a really Iong time since I've written actual fanfiction. But I know original work, poems, and stories tend to show up there as well.

- Xeni

[novlr]

Just show up

Some days the words will flow, and other days they’ll fight you, but that’s all part of the process.

Don’t wait to feel ready. Write anyway, even if it’s just project-adjacent. Write a character bio. Write a background scene that you know will never be in the story. Inspiration comes in many forms, and sometimes all you need to do is show up.

[luffxeni]

Escape

At my feet

It stands beneath me

Night falls as the sun may rise

I'm uncertain of when it'll be time

When my time shall come

When I may be at peace before a day's dawn

Will you care to see how it ends

When the bricks are no longer beneath my feet again

- Xeni