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still donāt really feel like being here, but whatever, i guess
inlapida.
āHm⦠Youāre not wrong, dear.ā A low chuckle accentuates her words. She holds him up, rubbing her cheek against his - or rather, the entire side of his head. āBut Iād be lying if I said you werenāt cute all the time. I can just assert myself better like this.ā
Ā Well, she certainly had a point there - such a difference in size could definitely make things like that a whole lot easier. But the moment that Carmilla nuzzles the side of his head, Sabata couldnāt help but let out a grumble ( more from embarrassment than anything else ). Yet in response, he tries to give her a kiss on her cheek in return.
Ā He just bit down on a slice of ginger and he can feel his already pretty much nonexistent soul leave his body.
inlapida.
She tilts her head down to nuzzle the top of his, and ends it with a quick little kiss to his forehead. The serpents thatāve replaced her hair weave around to get a good look at him, but in the end, they donāt touch him
āSabata, youāre so cute. ā¤ā
Ā Ā And as much as he enjoys this sudden affection ( from his so much bigger girlfriend ), heās certainly still flustered about it. Still, he gives a soft hum in response as he gently and carefully pets one of Carmilaās snakes - theyāre cute, but not as much as her. When he talks, itās nothing more than a mumble.
Ā āProbably only because Iām so much smaller than you now.. But..thank you, I guess..?ā
inlapida.
@luhdian
Picks him up and cradles him like a little baby.
Ā Ā Letās out a squeak of surprise only to quickly try to cover it up with a cough. Well, he was certainly embarrassedĀ ( as much as he liked this ).
Ā Ā At this point, heās been coughing and wheezing since morning - his throat so raw and hurting so much that both talking and swallowing even hurts. That, along with the fact his nose is so clogged he can barely breathe, make it tough and aggravating to try to do anything at all.
Ā Ā Really, if there was anything Lucian hated, it was being sick for no damn reason.
Ā Ā Ā āI..did not think this through.ā Heās staring at a whole glass jar full of both fruit punch and vodka, having immensely miscalculated how much he exactly put in the whole thing.
hurt meme.
ā i got you. itās gonna be okay, youāre going to be okay.ā
āi feel like everyoneās miles away from me.ā
āmy mind is a dark place. you donāt want to be there.ā
āi know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.ā
ādonāt close your eyes, please donāt close your eyes!ā
āi just want to be numb, i donāt want to feel anything.ā
āplease donāt do this, donāt act like you care.ā
āyou donāt care, nobody cares, just leave.ā
āyouāre my friend, of course i fucking care.ā
āi canāt give up on you, so please donāt give up on yourself.ā
āi love you so much, i forgot what hating myself felt like.ā
āi fucked up, why do you not care?ā
āi canāt walk, just go on without me.ā
āyou have broken ribs, take it easy.ā
āi have no idea how to do cpr.ā
āwhose blood is that?ā
āapply pressure to the wound, donāt let go.ā
ādonāt you dare fucking let go!āĀ
āwhat the hell happened to you?āĀ
āare they dead? did you kill them?āĀ
ādo you know what youāve done?āĀ
āyouāre either with me or against me.āĀ
āwho the hell did this to you?āĀ
āare you alright? you hit your head pretty hardā¦āĀ
āi canāt see!! whatās happening to me?āĀ
āwhen was the last time you ate?āĀ
āwhat do you mean youāre fine? you are not fine!āĀ
Ā āiām fine, itās just a flesh wound, iāll be okay.āĀ
āfor how long? how long were you bottling this up?āĀ
āthereās so much blood, you wonāt last.āĀ
āare you⦠throwing up in there?āĀ
āwhy arenāt you eating?āĀ
ājust breathe⦠youāre okay, i promise, just breathe.āĀ
āi canāt breathe, i canāt āāĀ
āi woke up, & you were gone.āĀ
ājust tell me something, was it really worth it?āĀ
āitās okay to hurt & breakdown. you donāt have to be strong all the time.ā
Ā Ā āWhat kind of fuckshit..ā
Ā Ā Ā āZazie once got mad at me for putting stickers all over Nero.ā
Ā Ā Ā āI told her theyāre animal friendly, but she still kicked my ass for it.ā
Ā Ā Speaks in a very soft, rather panicked tone of voice.
Ā Ā Ā āYee..yee haw..ā
Ā Ā Truthfully, he feels like complaining for an hour and a half because of something outrageously dumb that happened, but he doesnāt wanna bother anyone with it. He isnāt well-liked enough for that.
Ā Heād been staring at his hands in his lap for who knows how long now, not making a single sound or even moving an inch. Perhaps, it was plausible to say that due to lack of activities to occupy his thoughts, Sabata had been dissociatingĀ for over an hour by now.
robursono.
āOoh, okay. That makes a bit more sense. So itās more foreign, less old manā¦ā The last sentence was mumbled. That said, they seemed to cut back on the condescending tone right off.
āIām of more advanced tech than you know, I believe, then. Iām not sure how yours is, but where Iām from, they can most certainly program something like me. Given the fact that I only woke up here as of recent, it may be in accident of transportation. But Iām also not sure where I came fromā¦.ā
A nod ā glancing at the other to signify an understanding. At this point Vee is simply rambling off what he currently knows.Ā āSo you are human-looking but not human? Lunar child⦠Got it. Iāll make a note in my database so I can remember. You are from the moon?ā
Blink ā Ah. The explanation. āThe best I can explain myself is ā I am essentially a computer ā a highly advanced processing device. I can think like anyone who can understand language can ā but am artificial, and made of things like wires. So I was not born, I was created, much like ā perhaps like a gun. For an explicit purpose. Although I am not sure what I was a tool for. I do not remember.ā
Ā Still, even if it was mumbled, Sabata still heardĀ it. Yet, he decides to take a deep breath instead of acting out on his aggravation, his fingers cracking from the tension in them. Really, he was never good at dealing with people in the first place, let alone something so - otherworldlyĀ - like Vee. For now he could at least just try his best to understand the concepts the other was talking about ( despite not really understanding them ).Ā
Ā Ā Now, finally, he sort-of got what Veeās talking about aside from theĀ ācomputerā part, but it was a good start at least. Still, the fact that the other didnāt know the exact purpose what he was build for made Sabata give a little huff.
Ā Ā āWhat kind of absolutely uselessĀ creator doesnāt tell their own creation what itās purpose is. Thatās just plain stupid.ā Yet, heād been in a somewhat similar situation himself.Ā āI suppose youāre sort of like me, then. Humanoid, but not human, only youāre artificial while Iām somewhat organic.ā Finally raising his gaze from the ground, Sabata now glaredĀ at the other again, obviously so.
Ā Ā Ā āAnd I am notĀ an old man. Iām neither old nor a man so call me either of that again and I think Iāll try to see how well my gun works on a ghostĀ like you.ā
inlapida.
Now that catches her off-guard. The kiss is over before she realizes it. She finds herself leaning forward as he pulls away, chasing affection that always seems to end too soon.
āItās just⦠Itās a bit⦠embarrassingā¦ā
And yet sheās running her hands up his chest, stopping only at his shoulders. She doesnāt want to be apart from him right now. She canāt bear it. To pull away is tantamount to tearing out her heart, some dear and precious part of her that only Sabata can lay claim to.
The space between them is only a hairās breadth yet it feels like a lifetimeĀ away - and how quick she is to close that distance! Eagerness begets clumsiness; she accidentally bumps her nose into his with as rushed as she is to kiss him, though the only indication sheās even acknowledged it is the soft whimper that leaves her.
He tastes so bitter, like dried meat and dark matter, but she doesnāt care. To her his lips are sweeter than any nectar, and surely more intoxicating. Nothing else could fog her mind quite like this.
Ā Strangely enough, as her hands traveled up his chest to rest on his shoulders, Sabata couldnāt help but let out a shaky breath at the strange and foreign feeling of physical intimacy. Not only was it new to him, it was odd to him that anyone would freely be physically this close to him and mean him no harm. Surely, with how close Carmilla was to him now, the Dark Boy was more than certain she could not only hear but now also feel his heartbeat ( oh, how it hurt delightfully so just for her ).
Ā Yet, how quickly his train of thought was cut off the second she kissed him - look of pure surprise clear in his eyes.
Ā Despite it being as desperate and clumsy as it was, the kiss left Sabata breathless as if the air in his lungs had been knocked out of him in a non-painful way, forcing him to pull away for just a moment only to return the kiss the best he could. With no idea where to leave his hands, they simply roamed aimlessly before he pulled the maiden closer to him into a one-armed embrace as the other hand now rests on the back of her head.
Ā Ā Surely, he must taste more disgusting - more bitter - than anything else to her.
Ā Even still, even despite his teeth being in the way more than heād like, this was nicer than Sabata would ever had thought it to be. And unfortunately, his already aching lungs wouldnāt allow him to keep this up any longer - forcing him to pull away. Now surely panting and flustered, the Dark Boy rests his forehead on Carmillaās and let out a small breathless laugh. Not to laugh at the maiden, but rather the situation.
Ā Ā Ā āReally now, what was that suddenly all about..that was, totally not like you at all..ā
ā„ its just how she is
TENDER INTIMACY || @inlapida
Ā It was often that he stumbled upon Carmilla crying - often about seemingly nothing, a painful memory, perhaps when she thought too much, or when someone had hurt her. In the beginning when he just barely knew the maiden and was but a child himself, he would make the silliest yet best attempts in getting her to smile and laugh again, whenever he found her upset like this. And even if he was older and a bit too busy now, he would still try the same ( make funny faces, tell dumb jokes, or bring her trinkets or dresses he thought would suit her ).
Ā He loved it when she smiled, hated it when she cried - hated to see her in any kind of pain she did not deserve. Rather, it made him angry. Angry at the person that made her upset - angry at himself for not being able to make her as happy as she deserves.
Ā Sabata was, always has been, bad with comforting people. But with Carmilla, heās more than willing to try.
Ā So, the second he hears her soft sobs coming from her chambers as he walked by, it took him zero hesitation to peek inside before walking in with his usual quiet steps. Carmilla had been sitting on the edge of her canopy bed ( her back towards him ), her shoulders trembling with every sob while just a few cockatrices had huddled up to her by her feet in an attempt of comfort.
Ā Silently walking over to the bed, the Dark Boy took off his boots as quietly as he could before climbing ontop of the soft blankets to carefully settle himself just behind Carmilla - wrapping not one, but two arms around her waist gently yet tight enough ( hiding his face in her shoulder and gently nuzzling her there ). He took utmost care not to startle her.
Ā Ā Not really knowing what to say to help cheer the maiden up, Sabata merely let out a soft sigh instead, hoping that his presence alone could help her feel better.
Nonsexual acts of Intimacy - Select from the following for my muse to respond to...
ā : Finding your muse wearing their clothes
ā: Holding hands
ā: Having their hair washed by your muse
ā: Your muse falling asleep with their head in my muse's lap.
ā: Cuddling in a blanket fort
ā: Sharing a bed
ā: Head scratches
ā: Sharing a dessert
ā: Shoulder rubs
ā: Reading a book together
ā: Caring for each other while ill (specify which party is which)
ā: Patching up a wound
ā¤: Taking a bath together
ā§: Your muse playing with their hair
ā”: Accidentally falling asleep together
ā¢: Forehead or cheek kisses
ā : Your muse adjusting their jewelry/neck tie/ etc.
ā£: Back scratches
ā„: Your muse crying about something
ā¦: Slow dancing