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Haiiiii :3 this is the alt of @lumialt which is the alt of @lumilamp . Lumilamp is for art/important, lumialt was for other shit until I kept getting freaked out by my brother having notifications on and seeing every. single. post.

ANYWAY !

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Tags if use frequently:

"#very pretty art": any cool art I reblog, even if it is not necessary "pretty" it was cool enough to reblog so it gets the tag anyway.

"#yaoi slop": any of my fujoshi bs I find, not necessarily slop

"#lampposting": for yapping.. because moth lamp yeah. My cool friend @mayayayayayaya came up with it so yeah

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If you are my brother and reading this please get the fuck out or PLEASE just dont put on notifications.

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I just need to get this out of my head because it's driving me insane and I don't have anywhere else I feel ok venting so lets just put it somewhere where the entire world can see if they want to!

I just got called antisemitic and yelled at by one of my friends I hold closest to me. This is the second time it has happened and I don't know if that says more about me or the friend. I left the discord server this happened on so which has been pretty much my only form of communication with my friends over the past several months.

Both times this has happened it was in relation to talking about Epstein and the Epstein Files and both were off handed comments that weren't intended to have such an impact. The first one involved me saying something along the lines of "going after all the Epstein buddies", referring to his co-conspirators and people who he had relationships with that participated in despicable acts on his island. My friend pointed out that this could be interpreted as "going after Jewish people" which was not the intent at all. I think that at the time I didn't even know that Epstein was Jewish, it just wasn't something that is important in relation to all of his crimes and horrific acts. At first I did react in a way that seems dismissive or discriminatory but I did not realize that my friend was being serious and would continue on this topic. Sometimes she would exaggerate things or play up certain interactions to rage bait people and I just thought that that was the case here. That incident hurt and I was left feeling like I am a bad person but it was resolved a couple hours later.

The second incident happened maybe 30 minutes ago and the wound is still fresh, whether it be on me or her. I made a comment about how I don't have much going on so I will either try to connect anything in Deltarune to Gaster or everything in politics/real life to Epstein. The point being that I partake in over analyzing media regarding figures that seem to be connected to everything behind the scenes, be it in fictional media or real life. I understand that equating a video game character and a sex trafficker has many problems in itself but it was not intended to be taken that way. My friend then pointed out that connecting Epstein to everything is strongly based in stereotypes of Jewish people controlling the world. I argued in defense saying that I was not saying that he had influence over many politically and economically powerful people because he was Jewish but rather that there are documented accounts of him communicating with powerful people who seemed to be in debt to him in some form or fashion. I tried explaining this but it was very hard to get her to listen and hear me out. She kept saying that all of this and all the attention directed to Epstein was from him happening to be Jewish despite that not being an important detail in relation to what is talked about regarding his life and crimes. I tried to admit that there are parts of this that are fueled by the wrong things and that there are people who jump on this bandwagon because they believe in conspiracies that say that Jewish people control the entire world. I tried to say that even though stereotypes are often incorrect and harmful there are times where they can have some kind of accuracy but that comes from those traits being possible in any human of any race, gender, religion, etc.

I just had to get this out and type it so I could think a bit clearer, if anyone who knows me sees this or if this gets dug up years in the future please do not put too much value in it as a reflection of who I am as a person. I am currently in a bad mental state and am not clear of mind, so this may not represent who I am as a whole.

#vent

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I've been hyperfixating on Nilfruits so bad for the past couple monthsss

I love his music so muchhhh

#vocaloid #nilfruits #niru kajitsu #he better not turn out to be a bad person

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deltarune? i barely knowa rune!

#meeee #i think i overdosed on yaoi just now #because of trans spamton #rb #utdr

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(PT. 3) of my Trans-Spamton "Red Suit" comics

[PT. 0] [PT. 1] [PT. 2]

Hello! I hope you all enjoyed the chapter and thank you all for your patience :3 as you can see, it's MUCH longer than the previous parts, but I gave myself the deadline of the end of this month, and thankfully I was able to hit it (phew! although it did take a few dozen late nights and one all-nighter). The idea of this part spawned with the line that Spamton NEO has at the end of his pacifist boss fight when he says, "I'M FINALLY GONNA BE A BIG SHOT!!! HERE I GO!!!! WATCH ME FLY, [MAMA]!!!!" and that spawned a lot of questions for me. like does he have a mom? does he have a family?? In the previous comic chapter, Spamton mentions that the "people back home aren't really keen on change," so it felt only natural to explore what that might look like "domestically". I was a little hesitant to give the comic a "dead mom" figure, but then I considered how Chapter 2's dark world is intrinsically tied to the Holidays and how Carol and Rudy might've influenced Spamton's own parental figures (i.e. Carol's pressure to succeed due to a strong family image and Rudy's sickness) Ultimately although I feared it'd be cliche, I think I tried my best lol and I think it's pretty good! And! On the topic of quality, I wanted to thank my good friend Nix (sharpie.dust on Insta) who helped with the background flats for the comic. It allowed me to focus a lot more on the character acting and background lineart, which was absolutely instrumental to enhancing the quality of the piece (and likewise, the audience immersion). Give them some love if you've got Instagram, I deadass don't think I could've done it without them. Also shoutout to Canele, 3musketears, funtergeist, kiwipineappleparasol, mickeycfs, mountainyeti, and gabberdraw for being my emotional support on various streams and calls as I finished this chapter. You da best <3 and deadass kept me from spiraling into madness Next part will likely be the last part of this series. I am a bit burnt out and I do have to focus on some other projects and zines for a hot second, so I might give it a few weeks before I work on the finale. Still, I hope I gave you some nice TransSpamton/Spamtenna food to chew on <3