❝ ... she'd be perfectly content with a chorus role, warning that fate is coming to make havoc of all things. ❞
― Helen Oyeyemi, Mr. Fox
An 18+ blog written by someone who is well over the age of 25.
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Keep in mind that I am an adult person, and I cater my blog to myself, and that I have every right to freely use the block button, and I do. You can call me Lunar or you can call me Chorus, since it’s the theme of the blog. I am Latine, nonbinary, queer, they/them pronouns.
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You are becoming the deity of a body of water (a specific area, if you choose an ocean). You can live as long as it has life and water in it, and you will have divine powers (water based and minor unless you are at that place, in which case you have full control of it and all that lives in or is part of it).
Does a place come to mind?
[Image Description: A plushie of Uma Musume’s Oguri Cap sits next to a watercolor painting page of the head of Meisho Doto, holding up the bottom of her Legacy Race Trophy from the game with her shoes. One of the shoes has the date of “11/24/2025” on the top. The placard on the trophy reads “Lunar”, with her hair ahoge holding a red heart. End Description.]
I’m not all here, I’m 3 days late with another friend’s birthday present running a week late as I post this on 11/27/2025, but…
With SNAP and WIC programs being paused until further notice, I wanted to share that TooGoodToGo is a great way to get bread, bakery items and even prepared foods for cheap. It was created to reduce food waste. As it’s grown, restaurants and stores continue to be added.
Florence Welch will literally write albums upon albums of music about how she's always felt ostracised from femininity, that it feels for her like a performance she can't escape, and even give a whole interview about her upcoming album being inspired by how a pregnancy almost killed her and how coming to terms with this made her feel alienated from her body and gender..... And STILL the majority of her mainstream fans will still talk about her work like "omg yes divine feminine womanhood queen of fairy girls uwu". I really hate how so many ppl just don't actually listen to music or care about what it's about. The "fairy-ification" of artists like Florence Welch, Hoizer, Fiona Apple, Mitski, Tamino, Kate Bush, etc, all of whom create music that's rooted in specific social and cultural themes, but the complexity and artistic intention is often totally flattened into !!uwu fairy girlhood in the woods vibes!!! Truly hate this brain switched off vibes based era of music engagement.
"In the instance an employer makes an illegal request for a photograph as part of a job application, you may submit a complaint to the United States Equal Employment Opportunity Commission." Successful violation fee collections are paid partially to the one who suffered the violation, which in many cases exceeds a year of work at these shit jobs. There's only two weak points to a corporation, and those are in the budget and in the supply chain. Hit them where it hurts.
Alice/P fic - finish editing (I'm so sorry Freya)
Alice/P/Eve fic - yall have no idea how soft i want to make this, and i probably wont succeed
an explorative fic around Lorelei - don't worry about it. just know that she's my baby.
an exploitive fic surrounding Yeying - she is also my baby.
return to old Pan comm - listen I want to clean something up so badly. don't worry about it
will these appear on ao3? who knows. I mean the Alice/P fic is up to Freya, not me.
i just need to get out of my head a little. so I'm going to poorly write my thoughts down and - most likely - never speak of it again
i am ever and always two steps away from deleting Suffering is Nigh, bc i fear i did not give it enough time to bake in the oven (read: it's a measly 4k and doesn't prepare the reader at all for the direction the story is meant to go. and i may have lost the plot) - and if you've read it already, just know I'm going to spoil the entire plot
it began, as all things do, a what if. we were presented with demonic deities in bits and pieces within the canon. seen in 1 by Mundus, a demonic god in his own right. king and god feel interchangeable, with a reliance on might. in 2 we have Argosax/The Chaos/Despair Embodied. 3 returns with hints of Mundus' deification. 4 presents the idolized version of Sparda. 5 offers a partially deified form with Urizen/Vergil. and builds up the lore with a poison apple. and with PoC, even if it isn't canonical, it still gave us Pluto, another deific king. this idea split into two different directions, one aimed around turning a slightly old OC, Lorelei, into a powerless deified king (read: demon god) and Sydney (real name Simone) & Beatrice, as deified kings whose power lies in spoken word, the words on the tongue, and the sound of one's voice, respectively.
there is meant to be a mirroring of Dante's history and Sydney's present - with Syd focusing on his twin sister Beatrice - who was to make her appearance in chp2. there's also a heavy focus on religious imagery, used as the token cult creates god in their image by forcing woman-child to bear the children of sacred-father, and have children feast on flesh of mother in a grotesque display of Mother's Role.
Mother is the vessel for life and death simultaneously; Mother is god in the eyes of a child.
to set things in motion:
Mother reaches out to Dante as savior, though her flesh is no more.
Dante, as savior, arrives at the completion of the ritual - without knowledge of completion.
kill cult - a baptism of blood for newborn gods.
push this memory so deep in the subconscious that it cannot even haunt him in alcohol fueled dreams - you cannot run forever, darling.
Sydney appears, grown now, and is akin to Eros, or an angel, impossible not to look upon, but too much to witness. it's madness-inducing.
makes up bullshit excuse to get savior to return to their side and finish what he started - an offering of flesh and blood to the new gods.
Beatrice, to make her appearance, practically a mirror to Sydney, terribly beautiful. a disguise which ought not to work on Dante - but her voice is her draw, and when she speaks, all of reality seems to crumble to pieces.
you. cannot. run. forever. darling.
and this is to span something like probably 7 chps, and ends in a nasty, blunt, sickening scene of flesh given to new gods against one's will. bc gods are unkind. godhood is monstrous.
then again god is merely a weightless title in this piece - they're the equivalent of nephilim at best. and everything circles back to Ptolemaea, the 3rd region of the 9th circle of Hell - here lie traitors. Sydney and Beatrice invited Dante in (to their circle, their home, their bed, etc etc) only to "kill" him (to kill his trust in them, in himself, his past, etc etc).
to be frank, I was using Suffering is Nigh as a harmless channeling of my own trauma surrounding religion and the emotionally incestuous abuse I suffered at the hands of my maternal grandmother. however, for Syd and Beato, it's not just emotional incest, but it does take a hard right turn into full-on incest. there is also, of course, a focus on the emotional incest between Dante and Vergil... but I don't want to talk about that right now, as it was background noise for the course of the fic.
nothing which is written is supposed to be perceived with any light. in fact, what i wished to write was uncomfortable. it was the choked cries of someone as their lover/partner crushed their throat.
i probably will pull Suffering is Nigh and toss it back into the oven to bake for another year or two.
first i'd like to finish some other smaller, softer things... still emotionally damaging
when internet people are like “i love gothic literature but i hate anything that discusses incest, sexual violence, oppression, misogyny, abuse, torture, gore, murder, or death”
no actually me and everyone else who’s ever watched crimson peak were brainwashed by guillermo del toro into believing that incest and violence are cool and awesome. sorry
