watch your back

[lurkingchaos]

My Joey Boy

I still can't believe it. I wish this is all just a dream.

I knew I couldn't keep you forever but I was hoping to have you longer.

This hurts so bad.

I can still remember how I annoyingly bugged Mama so she'll allow me to have you.

You were my love at first sight.

You were there for every heartbreak and success. Always waiting. Always loving us unconditionally.

I miss those eyes that look at me as if I'm the most perfect being in the universe despite all my shortcomings.

Baby boy, our living room feels so quiet and empty without you and your kennel. My heart's breaking every time I look at it.

I'm sorry.

I love you.

My protector, my sungit, my brave boy, my love, my sunshine. You're incomparable, no one can ever replace you in our hearts.

Run free now my baby boy. No goodbyes baby, just good night. I promise to be good so I can see you again in heaven.❤

[lurkingchaos]

Henlo, Tumblr.🐶

[sadbabygirl]

can i please disappear?

[lurkingchaos]

Ehhh 🤷🏽‍♀️

[mitsukerarenakute]

I downloaded my blog contents from the beginning of time as I was curious as to what data it contains (the option is in the Settings page of your blog).

The final file was 4.7 gigabytes big.

Upon inspection, it apparently contained even the drafts and inbox messages I had back from Tumblr Mail was still a thing. So it saved even the old pictures of @coffeecuddleschaos, @lurkingchaos, and @celestialflair that I had since 2014. Amazing, the Internet never forgets.

[mrsannventures]

*laughs nervously*

[lurkingchaos]

[lurkingchaos]

Because I want to post it somewhere.

[emanuelee]

I’m very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very tired.

[lurkingchaos]

I’ve got to let this all out because I think it’s starting to consume me. God. I really hate goodbyes.

[lurkingchaos]

I’m feeling melancholy these past few days. I have to be okay and accept the fact that this is what’s best for him. I am happy for him, I just hate that he has to be away to achieve his dreams.

[lurkingchaos]

My brother’s leaving soon to work abroad. I’m getting really anxious about it because aside from the fact that it would be the first time that he’d be away, it might be permanent. He’d probably stay there for good if everything will turn out well. It would be very different not having him around but it’s what he wants and as his family, we choose to support him.

I’m going to miss that annoying prick.

[lurkingchaos]

Hindi ko talaga sya mauto.

[lurkingchaos]

Paulit ulit ko nang nabasa, pero paulit ulit pa rin akong kinikilig.❤️

[lurkingchaos]

“I loved you a little more when we held hands for the first time, you surprised me by making the first move. I loved you a little more when you told me you hiked because you wanted to send me a picture of you on a mountain holding a paper with a ‘happy birthday’ written on it. I loved you a little more when you stayed by my side until I fell asleep when I had an allergy attack (even when you weren’t feeling well too), I knew then that you’re capable of taking care of me. I loved you a little more every time you try to pacify my annoyance by holding my hand or by combing my hair, you aren’t scared to calm my storm. I love you a little more as each day passes and I bet I’m going to love you a whole lot more for a really long time.”

— this is how i fell for you // 002

[supotsystem-deactivated20171016]

I need someone who is ready to weather my storms, not someone who will hide when my thunders roar, not someone who will give me heavier rains. I need someone to hold me when I tremble, to keep me still. I need someone who is ready for me- not for love, for me.

[gaybran-deactivated20220309]

me: not everything is about sex also me: i’m horny

[lurkingchaos]

I do not claim to be an expert on mental health issues but I believe that all of us are going through something. We struggle with our own demons everyday. Some are having it tougher. What isn’t right is when a person uses these issues to put others down, to make himself feel and look superior. It’s fucked up. They claim that we’re the crazy ones but the truth is, they’re no better than us.

[lovelysuggestions]

please dont get sick of me