* ╯UNFORGIVING.

the sea does not forgive ; it cannot be restrained.

[lvithan]

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[kumiiko]

what one says isnt the whole truth

[lvithan]

you know :) it really is interesting :) that tsubaki was supposed to go on a hunting trip with her father and :) switched places with her twin brother :) and haruto ended up dying in a tragic accident when her father :) thought he was hunting with her :)

[lvithan]

Ari u bish. You’re one of very few people I felt comfortable with quickly - same single brain cell except you got the smart half LMAO. When we’re fucking around we’re on the same level - when we’re having our serious convos, we’re on the same level. We also don’t experience relationship decay like many others do so when we do go half a year without talking - it was picked back up like no time had passed. those bonds are rare for me. You are someone I consider a friend and that is not a term I use loosely. I’m beyond happy we’re back in contact and if we do go a bit without talking - I also know we’re going to be perfectly fine. Happy Holidays and Happy New Year.

like hell you're coming in here and leaving this and not facing the consequences !!!!!!!!!! i'm so, so, so happy to have a friend in my life like you --- who gets me as well as you do and, yeah you're right, we can go talking half a year and start chatting again like nothing has happened and that's ? so abundantly important to me. i'm someone who's constantly just NOT HERE at all and i disappear so much and it's just ! so nice to know that there's someone who won't take it personally and will still be there for me <3

not to mention, you're so incredibly talented and great at getting to the heart of characters, you make me want to do better than i am and overall you're an amazing friend to talk to and chill with on call for like 12 hours. i think we did for that long last time. there's no one else i'd like to put cc on blast with <3

so happy holidays and happy new year as well <3 and i'm glad to have spent this past year ( and much more than that ) as your friend, and to be going into this new year knowing you <3

[lvithan]

tsubaki relentlessly uses pet names w / everyone and occasionally comes up with unique ones for people.  unless they don’t like them :c then she just uses their name.

[lvithan]

@warofthebeasts​ said: ‘ patch yourself up. ’

        “  i’m not built like you soldiers are  ---  i don’t have the ability to relentlessly bounce back and heal myself.  ”  there’s an edge to her voice that most people have never heard,  but she doesn’t have to be so careful around a soldier.  when he’s throwing around demands.  “  i just need a little bit.  i’ll recover.  ”

[lvithan]

@zoxto​​ said: ‘ ASLEEP. ’ - [ Reno ] muse sits with [ Tsu ] while they rest.

        she’s a girl again,  chasing after her brother in the hills surrounding their family estate.  but,  as always,  haruto is just out of her reach.  he’d always been the quicker of the two of them,  despite being born weaker,  despite their identical builds at the time.

        so far away he gets that he slips out of her reach entirely.  an image of him splattered against the rocks at the base of da - chao visits her mind.  the cursed child is dead,  her father’s voice visits her.

        no.  she isn’t.

        i stole his life.

        “  haru  ...  ”  it’s a sight typically accompanied by a lurch forward,  a gasping for air,  trembling  ---  but for tsubaki it’s characterized by a soft puff of air,  eyes slipping lazily open,  devoid of emotion as she stairs up at the ceiling of  ...  the turk infirmary.  then,  to the side  ... reno.  an audience.

        “  hi,  sweetie.  ”  someone had stayed to look after her ?  how serious had it been ?  had she passed out ?  taken ill ?  no,  no  ---  it’s starting to come back.  sector 7,  the plate had been coming down,  she had been watching the perimeter  ...  then what ?  the rookie had run off after something  ...  all thoughts come to a halt once she really,  properly takes in reno’s face.  the one giant bandage,  the other cuts and scrapes.

        “  oh,  reno,  your face !  what happened ?  let me take a l  ---  ah !  ”  a sharp pain pierces her side as she leans toward him and it’s just then that she notices that her abdomen is bandaged,  as well as her chest,  her shoulder  ...  a hand lifting to fix her hair confirms the presence of one around her head,  too.  tears burn in her eyes.  “  o - ow ...  ”

[kingsmemes]

𝑹𝑷 𝑴𝑬𝑴𝑬 :    ways to react to an injury. pt. 1  * change pronouns as needed. [ my / your ] is dependent on the receiver.

WORRIED. 

‘ how did they find your weakness? ’

‘ don’t leave me, please. ’

‘ i still need you. ’

‘ that’s a lot of blood. ’

‘ oh my god! are you okay? ’

‘ here, let me help you. ’

‘ try not to move. ’

‘ no, no, no, no. ’

‘ it’s not supposed to end this way. ’ 

‘ this can’t be happening. ’

ANGRY. 

‘ i told you not to go in alone! ’

‘ you idiot. ’

‘ you were given very clear instructions not to go and do exactly what you did. ’

‘ damnit, stay here. ’

‘ you need to leave! ’

‘ i can handle this on my own. ’

‘ i don’t need your help! ’

‘ keep your fucking eyes open. ’

‘ we don’t have time for this. ’

‘ patch yourself up. ’

PLEASED. 

‘ ha! you’re going down that easily? ’

‘ i thought you’d have more fight in you. ’

‘ i can’t believe i actually landed that hit! ’

‘ don’t tell me you’re giving up already. ’

‘ i don’t often like to get my hands dirty… but seeing you like this makes it worth it. ’

‘ this is revenge. ’

‘ bleed for me. you owe me that. ’

‘ i’ve been waiting for years just to see you fall. ’

‘ finally. it’s MY turn to watch you ache. ’

‘ i would say this is the end of us, but this is just the end of you. ’

NON-VERBAL.

‘ PATCH. ‘  - [ my / your ] muse starts to heal / bandage [ mine / yours. ]

‘ RUN. ’ - [ my / your ] muse runs to [ mine / yours. ]

‘ STOP. ’ - [ my / your ] muse stops dead in their tracks. 

‘ DOWN. ’ - [ my / your ] muse falls to the ground. 

‘ ASLEEP. ’ - [ my / your ] muse sits with [ mine / yours ] while they rest.

‘ WAKE UP. ’ - [ my / your ] muse shakes [ mine / yours ] awake. 

‘ HAND. ’ - [ my / your ] muse clasps a hand over [ mine / yours ] to keep from screaming.

‘ KISS. ’ - [ my / your ] muse grabs [ mine / yours ] and kisses them. 

‘ DIG IN. ’ - [ my / your ] muse goes in for another hit / stab. 

‘ GRIN. ’ - [ my / your ] muse grins at [ my / your ] muses injury.

[leneemusing]

SOFT(ish) ANGST PROMPTS

“  i thought you were gone.  for good. ”

“  you left and—  i thought you weren’t coming back.  ”

“  i miss you.  i know i’m not supposed to,  but.  i just had to see you.  ”  

“  please don’t scare me like that again.  i can take a lot of things,  but not losing you.  ”

“  i can’t even take the very thought of you getting hurt.  ”

“  you could’ve gotten yourself killed! you could’ve— fuck!  you scared the shit outta me.  ” 

“  yes.  i am telling you what to do.  i’m telling you not to pull something like that again because—  ‘cause fucking hell.  i care about you.  okay? ”  

“  i found myself driving home and then.  well i was on my way here.  ‘cause i guess…you’re still my home.  ” 

“  please,  tell me why you’re upset.  tell me who did this?  ”

“  you don’t have to come over here and take care of me you know.  i can clean up my own messes.  ”

“  don’t talk.  just get the fuck over here and hold me.  ”

“  loving you is like having my heart just out in the world.  outside of my body walking around.  every time i see you hurting,  it kills me.  ”

“  i made you cry.  and i hate myself for that.  i swore i wouldn’t be one of the people who left you hurting.  ”

“  you really hurt me this time.  but i want to let go of that.  i really do want to forgive you i’m just scared you’ll hurt me again.  ”

“  i know you’re mad at me right now,  but i’m the one who’s here.  let me be here.  let me help.  you can be angry later.  ”

“  i’m here now.  i know i wasn’t before.  but i should’ve been.  and i’m not going anywhere.  i’m not gonna let that happen again.  ”

“  it’s time to come home now.  ”

“  that’s enough.  you’ve got your revenge.  let’s go.  ”

“  i know you’re hurting.  and i can’t fix that.  but i can refuse to let you hurt alone.  ”

“  i’m never letting go of you.  i missed you so fucking much.  ”

“  look at me,  you’re safe.  and you’re not alone.  and i’ll never let you be alone again.  you understand?  ”

“  i broke my promise to you once.  i’ll never do it again.  ”

“  i don’t need you to go white knighting and fix all this.  i just want you here.  with me.  that will make me feel better.  ”

“  just stay still and let me hold you.  ”

“  you don’t have to hide your tears.  let it out.  then we’ll move on,  together.  ”

“  i just.  needed to talk to you ‘cause.  somehow you always know what to say.  ”

“  don’t bury your feelings.  sadness.  hurt.  rage.  feel it.  acknowledge it so you can decide what you want to do with it.  not what it will do to you.  ”

“  i miss your smile.  and not that sad one you try to fool everyone with.  the real one.  the one you used to show me.  ”

“  come here.  i’m taking care of you tonight.  and you’re gonna let me.  ”  

1) our muses reunite after sender thought receiver was dead. 

2) our muses reunite after receiver thought sender was dead. 

3) sender shows up at receiver’s house drunk after they’ve broken up. 

4) receiver shows up at sender’s house drunk after they’ve broken up. 

5) our muses are on bad terms but reunite after one of them nearly dies. 

6) sender finds receiver crying and approaches,  clearing the tears with their hands while demanding to know what happened. 

7) receiver finds sender crying and approaches,  clearing the tears with their hands while demanding to know what happened. 

8) our muses haven’t been speaking,  but sender rushes to take care of receiver after they’ve been injured or fell ill. 

9) our muses haven’t been speaking,  but receiver rushes to take care of sender after they’ve been injured or fell ill. 

10) sender hurt receiver in some way,  which led to receiver doing something reckless and sender shows up to stop them/or deal with the aftermath. 

11) receiver hurt sender in some way,  which led to sender doing something reckless and receiver shows up to stop them/or deal with the aftermath.

12) our muses are in a fight,  but cuddle anyway because they don’t like sleeping alone. 

13) receiver wakes sender from a nightmare. 

14) sender wakes receiver from a nightmare. 

15) sender wakes up in the hospital and finds receiver at their side,  who is in the same clothes as the day they were admitted because they’ve refused to leave their side. 

16) receiver wakes up in the hospital and finds sender at their side,  who is in the same clothes as the day they were admitted because they’ve refused to leave their side. 

17) our muses are currently on the outs,  but receiver goes through something traumatic and sender pushes past their friends to get to them. 

18) our muses are currently on the outs,  but sender goes through something traumatic and receiver pushes past their friends to get to them. 

[lvithan]

oh and also I’m thinking of tsu taking care of more minor wounds she notices like >:c why didn’t you get that looked at and it’s literally like a paper cut

[lvithan]

just wrapped up chapter 16 so I got a nice look at the turks’ conference room

[lvithan]

haha who wants to talk bonds

[lvithan]

i feel bad for tsubaki’s enemies  ...  she’s such a sweet lady when she’s not working for the turks.  she goes from being so nice to murdering someone with a trident  ...

[lvithan]

How do she feel about Reno? :] ( she's family he's likely quite nice / pleasant with her - probably - we should talk BUT LMAO i wanna know ur first thoughts )

ty for asking ahhhh --- i think that she admires how competent he is. as one of the oldest active turks, i'd imagine that she's seen him in action a lot and has a pretty big frame of reference ... and also she worries about the person that he's become following the whole ordeal with veld and tseng and gestures at the entirety of bc.

everyone was changed by it, but tsubaki thinks that maybe he was hurt and affected the most by it. she was out on medical leave when it'd all gone down, and even tsubaki was distraught to find out what had happened when she'd returned. she really does her best to give space, but, well ... she can worry and agonize over the smallest of things. it's torture to know her comrades are hurting and being unable to do a thing.

[lvithan]

tsubaki is very much a mother hen and is constantly checking in on the other turks  ---  on and off missions.  have they eaten yet,  are they sleeping,  are they feeling okay,  etc.  the other turks are the closest thing she’ll have to a real family that accepts her even if they ultimately don’t end up super close in the end.  she’ll do anything for them regardless.

[lvithan]

yes this is an old blog hi i’m reusing the url  ---  if you’re still following,  hello <3

[lvithan]

* ╯p. ┊ (  carry on to calm waters.  )

* ╯sp. ┊ (  to tame the unrelenting ocean & steer thyself to shore.  )