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FIRST CHAPTER OF THE MONTAUK SAGA OUT ON AO3 NOWWWWW

this is such a surreal experience. go read my fanfic, guys :)

If I Go, There Will Be Trouble (And If I Stay, It Will Be Double)

feedback appreciated :))

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HOLLY SHIT!!!!

I can't believe my fic hit 100 kudos. This is insane!!! I never expected anyone to actually read it when i posted it, so tysm for everyone who did!!! I am so grateful for everything!!!

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Stranger Things epilogue tweak - Mike the Wise

bonus below

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As someone who's favourite character is Mike and sees themselves in him, his character was done dirty.

Since day one he was portrayed as someone loyal who would have done anything for his friends. We spend s1 seeing him search for Will s2 being the only one (from the party) next to Will during the whole possesion thing. We see him trying to protect El from Billy even though he knows he has no chance. We see him in s4 searching the whole fucking dessert for her.

Since day one, it was obvious he is afraid of change. The way he coped with losing his best friend in s1 and then losing El in s2. The way he refused letting Max in the party at the beginning. The very obvious way he's struggling in s4 since El and Will moved and how he wants to remain one of the nerds in high school (in contrast to Lucas)

Since day one, he was a protector, he meassured his self-worth by how well he protected the ones around him, the ones he cares about. The jump at the quarry in s1 being the prime exemple for that.

Since day one, he was closed off, unable to put his feelings into words due to the relationship between his parents. He struggled to explain to El his feelings in s1 (he kissed her when he couldn't find the words to explain) and the whole imposibillity to say i love you to her.

He is a show, don't tell person, and maybe that's what is bugging me the most about his ending. Byler aside, his arc was non-existential and instead of making him a complex character who struggles expressing his feelings or acknowledging them, who's actions speak louder than words, he's made out to be a jerk, who has the emotional intelligence of a wall.

And the thing is, they could have done it. Even if Mileven is endgame or whatever it is supposed to be with that ending, they could have explored him further than they did. Instead, the writers preferred to bait us till the very last second. They preferred to leave Mileven's ark from s4 open and not adress it for another 8 episodes. They preferred to not have them interract, to have Mike not care, and to have him unable to tell her he loves her in her last moments even though that was the whole point of s4.

Instead, we have a character that's becoming in the epilogue exactly what he spend the whole series trying not to be.

And it sucks because the writers preferred to make people think that he'll be explored even further by making his internalized homophobia the reason for his faults and by making him a character that would have made so many people feel seen. Heck, like I said above, they could have done so many things with him even if he was straight and with El.

It sucks because they ruined him, and for what?

That being said, I'll always have him as my favourite character. Mike Wheeler will always make me feel seen and understood in ways that no characters have done before. But I'll keep the version Finn and the fans showed me, and not the version the writers chose to make him be.

I'm sorry, Mike, for being stuck as your worse version when you so clearly wanted to become so much more.

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I saw a lot of people complaining about the russian plot, and im really curious how yall would have done it

Russian plot???

only season 3 (hopper dies)

only season 3 (hopper lives)

no russian plot (please comment what you would've done instead)

i dont mind the russian plot

a secret fifth option

here for the result

Voting ended onJan 13

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since the most people said no russian plot, i really wanna know what you would have done instead of it!!!

I think it is kind of important since it gave us robin and it is a good reason for way the gate was opened again, but i do agree that the gate being opened and then having to close it is kind of similar to s2.

also, im really curious what you would have done with joyce and hopper (and maybe murray?)!!! would hopper survive or die?

im intrigued!

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i find it so funny that my boyfriend, who only watched the first season and half of the second when they came out and the finale because we were together on new years (i had to explain all the lore to him during it and after), came across a reel about #conformitygate and is now convinced a new episode is coming tommorow.

because holly hell!!! this got so big, there's no way it isn't happening

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I saw a lot of people complaining about the russian plot, and im really curious how yall would have done it

Russian plot???

only season 3 (hopper dies)

only season 3 (hopper lives)

no russian plot (please comment what you would've done instead)

i dont mind the russian plot

a secret fifth option

here for the result

Voting ended onJan 13

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i know everyone is saying there's more coming and i know everyone is saying season 5 was shit, the lzst two volumes were shit and everything was ruined somewhere around ep 4.

i agree with ALL of it.

i dont know if its my brain shutting down or just the tiredness speaking but im trying really hard to think of a good way to end everything and have evrything go down and i literally cant eithout having even more plotholes and its killing me.

so please have mercy and tell me a good way to wrap up the whole vecna-mindflyer-will and el-kali and and the twelve kids and their role and the whole 3 dimenssions and the melting. PLEASE. im begging.

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I just realized that the Wheeler siblings are telling the story while the Byers are showing it.

Like we have Mike who is a storyteller, a writer, we have Nancy who is a journalist and it's easy to see Holly going in the same direction with her liking reading and in the epilogue she takes Mike's spot at DnD.

Then we have Will who draws, paints and shares his feelings that way and Jonathan who always has a camera and takes pictures, and later makes films. We can even consider El, who made that diorama in season 4 and from what we've seen in her room in California she's pretty crafty.

I don't know, I just think this beautiful.

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whatever happened to the end of stranger things has me so pissed, i literally want to do a rewrite everything.

im lowkey trying to put my ideas together and trying to get rid of as many plotholes as i can (i honestly lost hope of there not being any since there are SO many).

i dont know if i should do the whole show since that's a pretty big project and im having a really busy year or just focus on everything that's happening after s5 vol 1 since it was decent till there and i don't have in mind (yet, at least) too many changes for the earlier stuff, so it can get boring.

i plan on making it byler since whatever was supposed to be mike's arc physically hurt me as someone who reasonated with his character.

it will take a long while until this project is done or, at the very least, be somehwere else than my mind and hopefully the word tab i just opened, but I'm in for the ride.

so, if anyone is the least interested, or just has frustrations at the way the show handled things, please tell me! I wanna fix as many things as i can (i dont care from what season, i will try to include everything), i wanna try to have the same vibe as the earlier seasons had, and i wanna give these characters what they deserve, all of them.

All in all, i'd be really interested in hearing what is bugging everyone and what everyone is interested in seeing/reading and the show messed up.

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hear me out:

Will got stronger and found his powers when he accepted himself and his queerness. He decided to fight next to El and Kali after coming out and everyone accepting him.

It's pretty obvious that this is giving power. His fucking querness. And the only thing left to do?

The person he loves, to love him back.

that's what is going to make Will defeat Vecna, and I'm pretty sure he'll be the one to do it since everything started with him, his connection to the hive mind and how it is stated that he's the main character.

As stranger things always works, there has to be another kind of revelation-talk-thing. Like when they got the mind flayer out of him, like when El saved Max.

And since we established this season that querness is the key, there's nothing left to give Will strength than Mike confessing (who im pretty sure realised Will likes him based on his reaction during the coming out).

That would also save Mike's character hopefully, since they assasinated his character again and again since season 3 (except s5 vol1 when he shined, but sadly it was short lived.)

To sum it up, BYLER ENDGAME.

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I think Will going from being hopeful just a few episodes ago to him saying "he was just my Tammy" kind of actually makes sense.

Just... walk with me.

He was just scared. Scared and terrified after whatever it was that Vecna showed him, and he rushed into things. I mean, that entire confession was kind of rushed considering the way it was fit into the plot and the reason why Will even confessed at that moment of all times. Also, I think that confession, however it was executed, was still important because I know there still exist some people who had so far absolutely refused to acknowledge Will's homosexuality. But now their eyes are clear.

Anyways, from how I perceived it, Will said everything he did in a moment of terror and fear of what might happen in the future. He did it without even confessing to the person he loves first. And if you look at it, him confessing in front of literal strangers makes sense (scarcely, but it does) when you see how everything was playing out at the time. He couldn't care less about who heard because what was important was that the people he was close with knew. Because he knows Vecna knows. And knows that he will most definitely use it against him and the people he loves. And Will would much rather have himself tell the others than anyone finding out from someone else, much less a monster who's hellbent on ending the world. That doesn't erase the fact that he was literally forced to come out, though. No one should be forced to come out under any circumstances. But it has to mean something.

Will was forced to come out, but he still came out in a way he found comfortable in that moment. Coming out to strangers sometimes is easier than to come out to people you've known your whole lives. Robin has been through it with Steve. I've myself been through it.

And Will, he has always been this scared little boy whose fear of accepting himself has always held him back from things. From happiness, from freedom. From love.

FROM LOVE.

Which brings me to my intial point:

He hadn't accepted himself so far, but he did in Vol. 1. And then Vecna showed him those made up memories, which scared him. He didn't consider things, and just went ahead with his confession.

But he never told Mike about it directly, or privately. The one person he loves. Which is in this case, understandable of course, but it also highlights the fact that he doesn't know Mike's POV. Just like the fandom.

No one knows what goes on in that head of Mike fucking Wheeler's.

And I think a lot of people missed his reactions when Will was coming out, because I sure as hell recommend you all to go back and see the little changes in his expressions during Will's Monologue. It was clear he was figuring out things. Major things.

Because the camera kept panning to him during the monologue with a strangely particular focus:

"I don't like girls." (The camera pans to him for the first time and he sits up straight; I couldn't make the GIF for that, but you can check that scene out for yourself, I hope)

And for some of us, we just drift apart more" (In this scene, it looks like Mike is holding back tears, but it's very subtle so you'll have to give the moment your utmost focus, it happens at 53:01 btw)

"And I uh... I had this crush on someone, even though I know... I know they're not like me." (Mike looks down and then back up like he's caught onto something, also, Dustin moves his gaze from Will to Mike, then back to Will which is kinda sus, happens at 53:24)

"And I am ready to show him that I am not afraid anymore." (Camera immediately pans to Mike nodding like he had decided onto something, happens at 55:54)

Don't these scenes look even a little suspicious to y'all?

Because they are raising some real big questions for me.

As to Will changing his mind in a span of three days, I think it's just because he was scared of how everything will be (due to Vecna's visions) so he just said 'fuck it I'll just do it', and was convinced that Mike could never in this lifetime like him back anyway, so he resorted to that.

Let's see, though. How everything turns out. But this post of mine better age well because it took me two hours to make and collect the timelines and make the GIFs, however small this was.

It better fucking do.

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!!! STRANGER THINGS 5 VOL 2 SPOILERS !!!

I wont lie, i got mixed feelings about these new episodes.

I loved Holly and Max working together, and Max' speech before they left. The storyline with the kids and Vecna's mind was handled pretty good, in my opinion, but I'm not sure how they're going to wrap everything up. I wouldn't call Derek my favourite character, I feel pretty neutral about him, but I loved how they handled his character and how he is just a kid, after all. I do think he will play a bigger role in the last episode than he did in these 3, though.

The Lumax reunion was my favourite part, I think, and Max' reunion with everyone in general. It felt a bit rushed, but I loved it nonetheless.

The upside down plot was really good as well, and it gave them the opportunity to have some very needed talks. While I love Jancy with my whole heart, I feel like their ?break up? was needed. Their relationship hasn't been in a good place since last season, and it really was hard to see the engagement thing working, especially taking into consideration Nancy's character. I feel like this was the best way to end their arcs. I was surprised they made it out alive, though. I really thought they will die on that table or some titanic-door-kind-of-situation. As I watched it, I even said to myself that while I dont want it to happen, it would make sense and I wouldn't mind since their story is kind of over.

Steve and Dustin also made my heart melt, and I loved how their relationship evolved this season. I think it was pretty realistic, and their arcs were, as well, greatly handled. Even if they both die, which I doubt, I think I'd feel satisfied with it.

Im not sure I understood very well the whole melting white stuff thing, it seemed a bit random, but I blame it on me staying till 6 in the morning to finish watching the new episodes for now and hopefully I will undertstand better when I'll do a rewatch. (probably today)

The whole Hopper-El-Kali dynamic is kind of strange, though. I dont understand while Hopper keeps on trying to die when it isn't needed. I guess it kind of contradicts last seasons plot, in a way. While I get him and his motives from now and then, it feels weird that he did everything he could to survive in a russian prison, and now he goes everywhere with an explosive vest or whatever.

Kali makes me feel weird and seems pretty similar to Henry, to be honest. I dont wanna say that she'll be the traitor since I know she is really important to El, but the way she keeps pushing her towards death... I dont know. I do understand her motives, and I did thing of something similar: it's hard wraping everything up and still having "superheroes" around. Either Kali gets her way and El dies (and considering the photos from the filming of the epilogue with Hopper and Mike talking...) or she'll lose her powers in a way, though I'm not sure how they can make thay happen.

Joyce angered me a bit, going from overprotecting Will to putting him on the spot in the span of 10 seconds. It felt a bit out of character for me, but maybe that's just my opinion.

Now, Byler and Mileven.

To be honest, I dont know which side is worse right now.

This whole season, Mileven was off, and I think this is obvious for everyone. Just like Jancy, their relationship gelt strained at the end of season 4, with lots of unresolved things. Unlike Jancy, they didn't even attempt to talk about it. It feels as if they both outgrown the relationship but never got around to end it, so it's left like that.

I wouldn't blame it on the chemistry between Finn and Millie. I saw lots of people doing that, and I simply don't agree. They weren't really given the chance to show said chemistry so far.

Also, believe me when I say I love Millie. I really do. And El as well. But I really dont like her performance this season. I dont know if it's her acting or the script. Probably, the truth is somewhere in between. But it really bugs me. I feel like El lost all of the personality she spent the last 4 season building. Her facial expression is the same most of the time, and it becomes kind of annoying.

I loved Will though, and I liked how he got to do something. Him possessing Vecna and talking to Max through him? Chef's kiss. I almost cried when Vecna got him again, I just wished the whole thing was written better and had a bigger impact on the plot.

Mike disappointed me. I feel like he barely did anything in these episodes, even Mr. Clark (shoutout to him, i love that he joined everyone) was more helpful. And I'm saying this as he is my favourite character. He was awesome in the first volume, i finally felt like the same Mike from the first two seasons is back. Sadly, he left during the second volume once again. I really had high hopes for him. Hopefully, in the last episode, he'll get the development he deserves.

Will's coming out scene was interesting. I really liked it as I watched, and I almost teared up (I say this as a queer person). I heard a lot of people saying that it was bad, but honestly, I dont have a problem with it, and I really wasn't expecting it.

It's weird how everything played out, though. At the end of vol 1, Will was hopeful, and him and Mike felt close to each other. This volume, with the exception of the 5th episode let's say, all that development was gone. They barely interacted, Will said that Mike was his Tammy and it felt like a regresion.

I did think about it, and hopefully Will's doubt is caused by whatever Vecna showed him. I don't think it is a coincidence how the camera kept focusing on Mike during Will's coming out or that he was the one who interruped his talk with Joyce.

I really hope the two of them will, at least, talk about it all. Even if it is a rejection, I want Will to not lose his friend and for them to be alright. I also think that Mike knows about Will's feelings based on his reaction.

I still have hope for Byler, it can happen easily. But as someone who doesn't mind Mileven as long as it's done right, i want all three of them to get the ending they deserve, and the only way I can see thay happening is with Byler or all of them single.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

I decided to post about it here, too, so here it is!

I finally posted a new chapter of my Bridget × Hook fic! So if anyone is interested, go check it out!

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recently i started getting back into hp and the marauders after a looong time and so many things changed since i was gone??? i started thinking about posting my fic (marauders era) but im not sure if anyone would read it since the main character is an oc and its based around the older stuff (i wrote most of it back then but im thinking about finishing it) HELP

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atp and so close to doing my own rewrite of d4 and d5 because WHAT IS GOING ON

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ok but why did we have that scene in the shuffle of love thing where bridget is looking in the mirror AND THEN we dont have her (or anything related to the past from what i know) in d5