so... 𝘚𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘩𝘪𝘤~

she/her | bi | dramatic to the point of being cringe | BYLERRR | I am basically into every other fandom one can possibly come across

[violetjellybeans]

I am crashing tf out because what the hell was that?! Por?! With hair extensions? Teetee?! Your hands on Por's waist?! That waist grab?! The shoulder grab?! That almost kiss?! Holy water needs holy water right now!!!!

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I've wanted to write a post about this for a while, and after much consideration, I decided that I'd just rather say it. Because who cares?

So, I've been in the TeeTeePor/PorTeeTeePor fandom for a little over a year now. I've been their fan since a bit after their DMD friendship era and right after Your Sky ended, like, early 2025(?).

I feel like I didn't say it enough or at all back then, for that matter, which is why I wanted to address it.

Both Por and TeeTee went through massive backlash solely for their shipname last year. It was so bad, that it had both the actors at a very tough spot, with both of them constantly worrying about their own hard work and lowkey feeling insecure about their fans' love and support.

They posted about it, talked about how it was emotionally and mentally affecting them. TeeTee had even admitted on crying about it to Por and the first time I read that post, it broke my heart.

Initially, they had decided to keep a free dynamic for their projects. With many shipname ideas like PorTeeTee, PorTeeTeePor, TeeTeePor etc. It gave them more freedom to choose the kind of script they wanted to work on, freedom on what kind of roles they wanted to explore.

But this received significant backlash because certain "fans" couldn't perceive the idea that heteronormative standards don't necessarily apply on queer relationships. I had someone once tell me that it's not a big deal, just a ship name, and people prefer it to be a certain way, why are you getting so worked up about it?

Because the people in question were getting downright harrased on the internet for it! Everywhere, it was just negativity, people throwing around random words of disagreement on something as small and insignificant as a shipname.

The amount of homophobia I came across at that time baffled me because hello! It was 2025, and I was still coming across such gross, outdated standards. I am not gonna be political about this, but I have every right to say that people were wronged!

I don't care if someone finds my words too harsh, but it was bullying, it was harassment and it was inhumanity we are talking about here.

TeeTee and Por had the chance to finally break those outdated bl standards, be the first Thai bl ship out there to have a switch sort of dynamic, or a label-less dynamic. And if not first, then atleast one of the many few.

And given that both TeeTee and Por are so young (Tee's literally, barely 2 years older than me), not to mention it was supposed to be their first big acting project.

Because I didn't know people cared so much about two downright strangers' bed preferences! You wouldn't go to a straight couple and ask them how do they like their bed-dynamics, now would you? Because it sounds freaking ridiculous to me!

Queer ships and shows aren't just for entertainment, even if that's somewhat a part of it. They are mostly out there to raise awareness, make actual queer people feel better about themselves and make them understand that they, too, matter.

It's not meant for people to fetishise and downgrade and just go on about with their lives without even acknowledging the damage they've left behind.

Tee and Por were eventually pressured into getting a fixed dynamic in December last year. And I don't think it was because of the company, but after much discussion of all the parties involved to finally put an end to all the drama once in for all.

And there and then we lost another ship to the same, useless heteronormative standards.

I am not making this post with the intention of urging them to change their dynamic again. I am not. I don't want them to pressure themselves because of something like this again. Although I would definitely NOT hate the idea if they ever decided to change it to a non-fixed dynamic again, either.

It's completely their choice. Their comfort is what matters the most. Because Por and TeeTee didn't ask us to stand for them, speak for them— we chose to.

And I think that people who include themselves in fandoms like these have at least that certain level of maturity.

Although, if we actually did have that in the fandom, such useless online-bullying ordeal wouldn't have happened in the first place.

Still, all I want is for the both of them (Por and TeeTee) to be comfortable and reach many more heights. Without stopping for anyone to tell them that aren't doing their best. Because they are. They are doing their best. And it shows.

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This frame had my heart in a frenzy, btw (and I LOVED it)<333

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I usually watch the episode hours after it airs, because I have my daily routine to follow. So when I opened my ig yesterday after waking up, the first thing that popped on it was updates from DMD.

I had to be out all day, so imagine my struggle with how I avoided and didn't open social media for a single second the whole day.

I avoided it like a plague.

And when I finally got to watch the episode...

...It was worth it.

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Waiting for so long, I hadn't realized just how attached I had become to this show. Watching the last episode, I had this nervous feeling constantly nagging me at the back of my head. But I also felt happy. Happy that we've come so far in this journey. I still remember watching DMD friendship, nearly two years ago. And discovering TeeTeePor who didn't really have a ship name at the time. Then they won, and months later, we got the pilot of Duang With You. I used to watch that pilot multiple times a day, to the point that I had learned the dialogues by heart at one point. It also led me to read the novel sometime later, although I kept leaving it unread so as to not spoil the entire plot for myself. When the trailer dropped, it was sudden, and a surprise for sure.

And now, we've finally reached the final EP. And boy, was I in tears. I shed a few at the opening song itself, which was quite embarrassing even for me, ngl. (I don't usually get so attached to shows, you see).

But I saw myself in Duang so much, that it became something I couldn't ignore. Not gonna lie, though, he is still a lot better at the patience game than me.

I also shed a good few tears at the final performance. All three of us, Duang, Qin, and me cried, lmao. And when Qin ran to Duang like that, it was OVER for me.

The whole montage of their flashbacks had me grinning so wide, while heavy tears ran down my face.

They even had their lovely moments with fluffy (Khonfoo)!!! I honestly hadn't expected them to add that part from the novel, but who am I kidding, it was totally obvious now that I think about it.

This show is everything— the best, and good!

It is just like TeeTee said last night, "Forever" isn't really a thing, but I, too, want TeeTeePor to stay with us for a very long time.

The last year has been hard on them, and on the ones who support them so wholeheartedly. So, all I want from them is for them to stay strong, and trust the love and support their true fans have for them.

Goodbye, Duang With You. We truly had a great time!!!<3

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You might have heard of the "siren eyes", the "cat eyes", the "killer eyes".

So I hereby present to you, the "hold me until I can't breathe, and die merging my soul with yours" kind of yearner eyes.

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Them making Por sing jazz songs was actually like a gift from heavens for me. I love Jazz to the point that I've grown up listening to it even as I fell asleep. And listening to Por sing those songs so effortlessly and so smoothly melted both me and my heart. Truly a blessing.

[junfrommars]

sometimes you spend half an hour crying about a character getting to finally express his emotions to his neglectful parents and finally be met with some semblance of comfort only to 10 minutes later be met with this line

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I was glad Qin asked him to speak properly because I am so over that skibidi thing, lmao.

Also, mewing? Mewing?

Yup, Duang is me, and me is Duang when it comes to making up words that make no sense whatsoever.

You ever find my sister in the crowd and ask her if I do this shit like making up words, she'll look you up and down, sigh and tell you, "yeah, she is an idiot and she does it."

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No because why did Duang have to tell Qin’s parents to hug him when he was literally breaking down in front of them? Why didn’t they listen to THEIR SON but listened to Duang?

And the thing that gets me is all Qin said was “Duang” and he was there, instantly, to comfort him and to hold him. Qin didn’t need to say what he needed at that moment because Duang knew because he KNOWS Qin. His parents don’t know him at all which was part of the problem. But the other part is how do they see their child breaking down in front of them and their first instinct isn’t to reach out to him?

They did the same shit when Qin was a kid. They scolded that babysitter (barely) but did nothing to comfort Qin. Not once did they check on him after she was fired. Every single adult in his life failed him and they continue to fail them until someone else steps in to scold them. And even then one hug and a movie do not make up for the absolute neglect they put Qin through.

Qin got more love and attention in one afternoon with Duang’s family than he did growing up in his.

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it was very funny that duang was worried about qin being uncomfortable because his family is loud and affectionate compared to qin's, meanwhile qin has the same fond and confused expression as he watches the entire family, and by the end of his talk with duang's mom, it looks like he's already planning to marry into this family

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With a heavy heart..

Today I'm sharing a very painful story. If you can share it, it might save my brother's life.

@hazemsuhail

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The whole entire conversation with the parents had me seething. It was a roller coaster of emotions to begin with. And as it progressed, I was just so mad, I was heaving in anger myself.

They never actually dealt with the abuse Qinn had suffered from. Decided that the best decision from then on was to just do whatever Qinn wanted and buy him anything he liked. When all he ever wanted was to not feel like a stranger in his own family.

People often forget that kids remember things. They keep the smallest memories locked inside their little hearts and grow with them, grow alongside them.

And something as huge as abuse can be dealt with by a kid in two ways. They either get so traumatized by the whole thing, that they end up forgetting any memory of it happening whatsoever to protect themselves, or get so deeply scarred that it ends up impacting their entire life in a way that will take years to mend, if ever tried to.

They never brought it up in front of him, and although I do understand the notion behind that, I find it hard to believe that they never even noticed the sudden quiet nature he had become accustomed to? He was a lively kid, but now he didn't speak much, didn't ask many questions, didn't complain, and suddenly became an ace in everything he did? Wasn't that way too big of a transition to go completely unnoticed? I know they led busy lives, but to be so detached from your child's life, and even have so much as the audacity to think that you were great parents just because you bought him whatever he asked for?

That's some insane level of ignorance.

Qinn is a sensitive person despite his persona. Who has been wronged multiple times by the people he has loved.

And still all he ever wanted was to be hugged at least once by his family. And honestly, he has all the right to that. It was long overdue.

He deserved that hug. He deserved all the love Duang had for him. He deserved to be a part of his own family and have the comfort of calling his family his home.

I, as a viewer, am still mad at his parents, but if Qinn wishes to be loved and cherished by his parents in the way he wants, then who am I to hate?

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Not both Duang and me dying during Qinn's Jazz performance because oh the musician you are, Por Suppakarn.

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That one hug that Qinn had waited for his whole life, it finally reached him. And even though Duang had a huge part in it, I am proud of Qinn for trying and saying what his heart had locked inside itself for so long. I loved that he cried his heart out until all that was left was the love his parents had for him. The love Duang had for him. And the pride his younger self would have for him.

Nobody can do it like Duang, but I know it was hard for Qinn to confront his parents too. Even my heart felt so heavy and charged with anxiety at that moment, that I was staring at the screen wide-eyed just anticipating what would come next.

I am glad Qinn's parents are trying now. Like Qinn said, it's going to take a bit of a while, but that's a given, because he has spent a large part of his life feeling ostracized from his own family and has somewhat resented them for never being there for him when he needed them the most. It's not easy to move on from what has always been familiar. But I know Qinn will get there one day. And Duang would be by his side at every step.

Props to P'Por for his amazing acting, and to P'TeeTee, because I couldn't help but cry my own heart out.

[violetjellybeans]

Yes. I cried in episode 11. Yes. I laughed during episode 11. Yes, I cringed and laughed at Duang in episode 11. Yes, did scream along with Duang's mom when he was about to announce their relationship. Yes. I loved it. And yes. I am gonna cry once the last episode is out next week.

All in all, I am dead in a ditch full of affection, and I don't mind it one bit.

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Duang and Jamie are such losers in love, but besties till the ends of earth and to me that just makes complete sense as to why they became friends in the first place. Pae being the one friend who's always dealing with the fights and responsible for keeping the good blood going, lmao.

Duang: obsessed with his man's legs

Jamie: obsessed with his man's legs

Duang: cooks for his man

Jamie: knits for his man

Marvis: flirts in english

Qinn: flirts with his fist

Pae: "I am stuck in a world full of lovers with nothing of my own, but I am just going with it at this point because I chose to adopt these two idiots of my own accord, and now I am stuck paying for it with my sanity."

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Duang tearing up because Qinn posted an ig story saying "I am all yours" is so Duang of him that it made my heart swell.