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im kit! | they | 27 | white | tme | lesbian

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me: hey, i just want to let you know i am divorced in case that matters to you.

date: of course not! :)

date as soon as they get home: i think we should just be friends (i will ghost you in a couple days max)

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again in the phase where they say they totally want to be my friend and that we can hang out and do xyz and then they just stop texting. like does everyone think im a child that needs to be let down easy? stop wasting my fucking tiiiiiime

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ive been thinking a lot lately about how nothing in my life has really ever gotten better. theres just been times where i didnt know what was going on behind the scenes. and thats really hard to confront. the fact that every part of my life that i enjoyed got ruined by finding out something that was true all along. how am i supposed to trust anything? how am i supposed to go forward in life responding to joy with anything but fear? have i accumulated enough trauma in my life that theres just not really a point in continuing anymore? i dont have another trauma left in me, and that seems to be all i collect, so maybe its better to call it quits before it gets any more painful.

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been having an anxiety attack all morning cannot catch my breath my head is killing me but ive missed too much work lately so i have to get up and get ready after hours of failing to calm down

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i dont really have a shot in the dating world anymore it seems. im disabled divorced work retail and live in my moms house. and thats just at first glace nobody even gets far enough to learn about how ive been abused in just about every single way for decades. it used to be pretty easy but now im too old for my situation to be excusable and too young for anyone my age to wanna be with someone divorced. i have to be really careful to not get taken advantage of again and every time i think ive found someone nice they realize the baggage i have is not the ignorable type. its just gotten hard to justify the time and energy it takes to meet someone and set up a date and get ready and spend money to just come home and find out they dont even want to be my friend.

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it really is starting to bother me that three times in a row the EXACT same thing has happened. its like divorce is a plague people dont want to catch

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i swear its like most people care more about being someones first marriage than their last. like whats your problem here

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it really is starting to bother me that three times in a row the EXACT same thing has happened. its like divorce is a plague people dont want to catch

[lycanthology]

me: hey, i just want to let you know i am divorced in case that matters to you.

date: of course not! :)

date as soon as they get home: i think we should just be friends (i will ghost you in a couple days max)

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i quite literally used to be a scholar of ancient texts and it was all about darth maul. i used to download the graniest scans youve ever seen to learn facts that werent even canon

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dear lord please let this first date be two confident people meeting and enjoying each others company and not getting stuck with a "you can choose, i dont care" type of person that cant start a conversation

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its so fucking hot out i got home and immediately took all my clothes off and laid under a fan

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less than 3hrs of sleep nauseous as hell ready for an 8hr workday followed by a first date in 100 degree heat 👍

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managing the entire cash flow of the store when im barely capable of comprehending the written word rn

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less than 3hrs of sleep nauseous as hell ready for an 8hr workday followed by a first date in 100 degree heat 👍

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cricket: okay so i have to sleep with either my entire body pressed against you or half of me draped across you

me: okay

cricket: also i am going to twitch and kick and bark in my sleep

me: must you?

cricket: yes. every 40 minutes. and im going to do it for the rest of my life.

me: but its over 80 degrees at night.

cricket: i do not care.

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build a bear dropping a new werewolf ill get to make myself for my bday is so kind of them... quite literally the best choice they could have made aside from bringing back the maul bear

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telling my employee he needs to start inviting me to family cookouts because his million grandkids would love to see grandpas boss get drunk off 1 bud light

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