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I'm a bit underweight (my bio is outdated af but I can't update it?? It's 2022, I'm like a billion pounds heavier now shıt)

But being underweight already is like my biggest excuse for binges, I just like.. justify overeating with "I'm underweight already" but dude that's not gonna stay that way if u keep going like that

And I'm tired of it

So I changed my height in my bmi calculator to be 22cm less (177cm -> 155cm) so it puts my cw as "normal bmi" so I can be like.. motivated to be "finally underweight"

if that's not an ana thing to do then idk what is lmao

#c🦋#c 🦋

skinni-w4nnabe

Guys! Very important!!

Look:

My cat shortly before a sneeze

valtsv

if tumblr ever dies for real we should just all move into an underground sewer system and write on the walls it's the same thing really

aidashakur

hardest pill i swallowed was realizing i didn’t mean shit to people that meant a lot to me.

idk if my tumblr even still works lmao

It doesn't let me update my stupid bio

bonebonns

i feel so guilty throwing away food i fucking hate myself

mintgum00

10 things to do if you feel like binging

1. Listen to music

2. Paint your nails.

3. Do at least 1 homework assignment

4. Go outside and get some air

5. Text/FaceTime a friend

6. Go on tumblr(my favorite😛)

7. Take a shower or bath

8. Play with a pet

9. Do your makeup

10. Do a chore like dishes, or laundry

10 low cal foods to eat

1. Popcorn (50 calories per cup)

2. cucumbers (16 calories in a cup)

3. Rice cakes (30 calories per cake)

4. Lettuce(5 calories per cup!!!)

5. Pickles(16 calories per cup)

6. Carrots( 45 calories per cup)

7.broth (16-ish calories per cup)

8. Watermelon(46 calories per cup)

9.Egg whites(16 calories per egg-also high in protein)

10. Plain non fat yogurt(137 calories per cup)

10 things to do after you binge

1. Take a deep breath, it’s okay

2. Drink at least one cup of water

3. Go on a walk

4. Try and write down what foods made you binge so it won’t happen again

5. Clean up any messes you made

6. Take a shower

7. Write down a plan on how not to binge next time

8. Do something productive

9. Purging isn’t worth it

10. Try again tomorrow❤️

2cals

weight loss spell !!

like to charge, reblog to cast

pretty-bonez

Oml the day after I did this, my stomach is much much flatter and my arms/legs are thinner there’s no way I didn’t lose weight reblogging again

misophonia-culture-is-archive

Misophonia culture is being normally/relatively quiet at doing things but putting in extra effort when other people are around yet the same people not being considerate about you even if they know some noises and actions just drive you INSANE-

I'm in a clinic and my station here has only a max of 10 teens, of which we are currently 8/10

We eat together in the group room and for about a month I forced myself to, but it was awful.

After one of us catched the virus and we quarantined we had to eat in our rooms, and it was heaven compared to eating together even though my two roomies are still triggering.

About two weeks ago it was announced that we can eat in the group room again, which I finally decided I didn't want to go through anymore.

I tried to explain my issue but the adults in charge of us didn't listen, they said they knew what I meant but just made it even more clear that they had no clue. Just the whole argument of me, while crying, trying to just explain it and them blocking entirely and getting louder and louder was so incredibly stressing that I had to cope with sh.

And every day I once again had to do it all over, to the same people, explain why I really can't eat in the group room.

They told me I can eat in my room if I stay with the others for at least 5 minutes, which is so incredibly stupid. It's not the eating in front of them, it's the sound they make.

How in hell would it make sense to just sit there and listen??

They kept telling me to "just try" and "you have to train it", just thinking about the shit they said makes me want to cry so bad.

Do you think I never tried? Do you think I just from day one was able to perfectly avoid every trigger?? Do you think it will get better if you force me to go through that immense stress EVERY DAY???

They didn't take my "I can't do it" seriously, they didn't take my boundaries seriously, as if I was a child throwing a tantrum over brokkoli.

Even after I let my mother call them and explain it once again they didn't stop, they only did after I went to one of the doctors and explained it to her. She was the FIRST adult in this whole situation there to actually listen to how awful it makes me feel and how it's not just hatred of sounds, it seriously triggers me to the edge of a panic attack.

And that trying to "cure" it by letting myself get triggered will only make it worse and not better in any possible way.

Gosh I fucking hate people.

The whole solution would be to just LET ME EAT ALONE, it's not hard, it's not of ANY difficulty to them.

They just got me a new trauma and now I'm very sure I'll never be able to eat in a group ever again.

Thanks for your "help", fuck you

#actual misophonia

shrimpmandan

If there’s even one tiny upside I can find to my experience with misophonia, is that for all the sounds (particularly voices: pitches, tones, reverberation, repetition) that I find physically painful to listen to, to the point of suicidal ideation – it gives me a greater appreciation for the voices and sounds that are the opposite of that. Voices that are soothing and comforting and basically never dip into misophonic territory. You just hear it and you melt like butter. You feel safe and calm and just someone’s voice alone can insta-attract me to them because it triggers an almost opposite response than my misophonia does.

For all the pain and suffering misophonia brings, at least I can appreciate when there’s a sound that I just love.

lyyn-gray

I know that!!

I experience the same thing with specific songs or mainly just passages in those songs that are just so.. GOOD.

Or movements.

I have some videos on my phone with sounds and people doing specific movements that give me an insane amount of satisfaction and calmness.

When I find another one I usually replay the video a million times and just MELT

penelopes-poppies

I don't think people without sensory sensitivities understand that what I'm asking of them is no more than I ask of myself.

I practice ways to avoid setting off both my own sensitivities and the sensitivities of others. I've taught myself to chew and swallow as quietly as possible, to scoop ice cream and stir tea without clinking the metal spoon against the side of the cermanic cup, to not smack my lips, to never clear my throat unless there is no other option and then to only do it once or twice. I repress my stim of touching my nose and upper lip when in the presence of one of my siblings because for some reason it bothers them (they don't have sensory sensitivities so I'm not sure why they dislike it, but I'll respect their preference).

I don't choose to have these. I would get rid of them if I could, but no amount of exposure and trying to stay calm has vanquished them. My sensitivities come and go as they please, and some have been with me for as long as I remember.

Yet somehow when I ask others to not set off my sensitivities, I'm told that I am overly sensitive, lazy, and just trying to annoy them.