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brain dump

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not my friend telling me i look way better in my old pics (when i was at my lowest weight) when i complained about feeling fat-

now I'm spiralling

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me, taking one antidepressant after 2 months of not taking them: why do i still feel shit

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me when i forget to bring a pen to school: you stupid fucking idiot what is wrong with you you're so useless

me getting a completely new diagnosis every year because the doctors have no idea what's wrong with me: they're trying their best!!!!! I'm so proud of them!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm sitting here, crying in my maid dress

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it just hit me i literally have no way to contact him ever again--

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fp: I'm deleting snap and reddit, u cool w that?

me: *smashes my head into the wall* all good w me (:

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don't you love when you tell someone that you have bpd and it will destroy you if they leave so they shouldn't get involved with you unless they're sure they can handle it

and they leave when they promised they wouldn't (:

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nothing better than coming out of a manic episode with an abba costume, minecraft lego, a wax melting kit, a dog lead and collar for a dog you don't have, and (perhaps my favourite) a bunny hat with moving ears

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me: messsges fp

fp: doesn't instantly answer

me: deletes snapchat from my phone

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what's a normal conversation starter to send to your fp who's been ignoring you for 23 hours and 14 minutes

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i've been off my meds for a week because i was feeling better and i've just realised i was feeling better because of my meds--

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my fp left me on read should i stab myself or my phone

or stab my phone then use the glass to stab myself

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i've been off my meds for a week but i have boba

can i get a owa owa