Looking for COLOUR in a world that's BLACK & WHITE

"Beautiful things don't ask for attention." - The Secret Life of Walter Mitty (2013) Dream and be Inspired - M. Bella Ann

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🤞🏽

[lilcowgirl7-deactivated20210223]

[justanotherdepressedhuman96]

When a person dies of cancer, people say "they're no longer suffering"; but when someone commits suicide, people say it's selfish.. What the people don't see is that the person that commit suicide was suffering too.

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Death would be so much better than this life

[deadbysummerr]

So i started taking adderal a week ago because

A D D

And i can actually focus and not let myself get i to a caotic mess

But its making my depression worse

I dont feel myself

It didnt dull my emotions or “change” me like some people say it does (i think more for people with ADHD)

I just feel.... off... like im in my own head a lot more

Like im making myself think about things i dont want to think about

But at least i got all my work done and cleaned my entire apartment today

Oh and i literally have NO APPETITE like im never hungry and when i eat i only nibble because im just not feeling it

Lost 5 lbs already

Not saying this is an effective weight loss tool. This shit will fuck with you please dont take it unkess you are prescribed by a doctor ❤️ just sharing my experience

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I’d take it, if it meant I don’t get to feel shit

[imalreadyadeadbitch]

but who would ever love someone with scars on their wrists?

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or cuts on their legs

[brokenflicker]

"The thoughts are slowly winning and I'm scared of what I might do once it does."

— something your suicidal friend would never admit to you

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Me

[st-a-y]

I don't think most people understand the urge to kill yourself every time you do something wrong

[thememoryofwhoiwas]

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[depression-and-literature-deact]

The saddest moment is going to self harm and realising you have to look for clean skin to cut...

[imalreadyadeadbitch]

I’m a background character in everyone’s life. I’m not important to anyone. I don’t even matter.

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100%

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[0nly-an-illusi0n]

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facts

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[blindlystructured]

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What helps with Anxiety?

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Just feel so broken right now 😔

[humansofnewyork]

“Honestly I just fell into it.  I started as an engineering major.  Then one night I was slaving over my physics homework, while my roommate sipped tea on the couch and read a novel.  So I decided to be an English major like her.  Ten years later I’m working as a copywriter at an advertising agency.  You know that feeling when you’re pulling into the driveway, but you can’t remember anything about your ride home?  That’s a bit how it feels.  Like I blinked and I’m eight years down a career path that I just sort of fell into.  There’s plenty to be grateful for.  It’s a good enough job.  I’m not living paycheck to paycheck.  I can afford to have fun and take vacations.  But my job is not my passion.  And every story you see elevated on social media is: ‘I loved this thing.  It became my passion.  And then it became my career.’  There’s not many people saying: ‘My job isn’t my passion, but I love mountain biking on the weekends.  And that’s enough for me.’  I think the feeling I’m trying to resolve is a sense of ‘enoughness.’ There’s so much I love about my life, but I spend most of my time at work.  Is it OK to get my joy outside of work?  Or does my passion need to be tied to my livelihood and a sense of responsibility?” (Toronto, Canada)