Hi Love,
What’s up? Nothing much here. I’m just hanging around here thinking about you like always and of course wishing you were here right now. You know I could use one of your bear hugs right this very minute.
I just wish that you would talk or open up to me a little more, but I guess that it is my fault for always getting upset for something and I’m sorry babe. I guess sometimes I can be selfish and I realized that because I know that I’m used to getting what I want most of the time! Which is not too good cause I know that it’s the same for you. I guess I just have to learn to be more mature about our relationship in order for it to grow stronger.
I’m sorry for freaking you out about wanting to get married, but I guess I’m feeling you out, trying to figure out… how much you love me. It’s kinda stupid, but ever since you’ve been gone from the band and I don’t talk to you as much cause of my phone being disconnected, I feel like you don’t want me as much as I still want you! Does that make sense to you? It scares me that I’m gonna fight to be with you and in the end you are going to wind up telling me you no longer want to be with me and you’ve found someone new. It would devastate (I don’t know if that’s spelled right!) me if that were to happen. I know I couldn’t handle it. I need you in my life Chris. I love you so much that it hurts for me to be apart from you. I can’t run to you cause you’re not here to hold me.
But I better let you go cause I’m gonna start crying again. But I do love you despite all the confusion I feel right now, so please bear with me, love…
Remember I’ll always and forever love you and I miss you, more as every second goes by.
I love you always,
Selena
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