Brand New Sounds in my Mind

Nunca olvido una cara, pero con la suya haré una excepción

[magic-cosmonaut]

I just wanted to come back here to say that I really like you and that I like liking you so much that I need to post it over tumblr

[magic-cosmonaut]

Honest, this time

I am starting to breath inside the sea of shit, demons, sadness, hollowness and lies I have been in since January, two years ago. It is funny to look back and reflect on how hidden all the madness, the insecurity and the instability was below a shiny surface of fake and shallow diamonds, that were only there to impress others, to radiate in awe towards my own strength when in truth everything I carried in my bag was anger and shame. It was imperative not to let myself drown, so I ended up hating whatever had made me so weak to drown in the first place. I ended up hating myself for loving something that made me so vulnerable and I could not stand the thought of someone who had made me so unhappy having made me the happiest for a long period of my life. And suddenly I no longer knew who I was. I felt I had no identity or that the identity I had created for myself was not real. This time, being honest, I can finally say that I feel good in my skin, that I am recovering me and I am liking what I see :)

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please like or reblog if you save

[glitterghosts]

Having your heart broken is a tremendous way to learn about the world. 

20th Century Women (2016, dir. Mike Mills)

[perfectuniversetheory]

Hands and Intimacy in Xavier Dolan’s Les Amours Imaginaires 

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[magic-cosmonaut]

Lather, rinse, repeat

It becomes addictive to talk to ourselves and to our feelings obsessively, to dramatise over them as if acknowledging them and brooding was the only way to cope while simultaneously constructing a paper shell around us that protects us from the rest but never from ourselves, a safe space covered in cushions with metal spikes underneath.

Self-esteem and feeling you are enough is a lather, rinse, repeat process. It takes the courage and effort of walking to the mirror every morning and tell yourself that your self is good, that your self is enough, that you do not have to change for anything or anyone, and that whatever seems great in other lives might not be great for yours and that is completely fine.

Sometimes there are awesome periods in which you feel like touching the stars, you are no longer legitimised by others, only by yourself and by the close certainty that what you made was the correct decision.

However, that freedom from your inner demon, in my case, the people-pleaser extreme empath mode, is just temporary and lather, rinse, repeat is a necessity. Loving oneself is crucial. Getting enough sleep, food and self-hugs is vital. Especially, taking care of ourselves is essential and that does not make us lazy or selfish if we ever say ‘no’ to plans because we would rather do something else or just rest and read or watch some Netflix. 

If our personality bothers others maybe they are not deserving of our time and friendship. Period. We should care less about what others think. Everyone is responsible for their feelings and whatever we feel is always within ourselves, it is not the other person to blame.

So lather, rinse, repeat. Lather, rinse, repeat. It is definitely worth it to set self-love as an activity in our schedules, to stop brooding, break that paper shell and use our feelings to better know ourselves without judging us or calling us names.

[theadventurouslife4us]

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[magic-cosmonaut]

We have to let whatever this is be. We have to let ourselves be ourselves. Nothing else matters.

[somebodytodiefor]

lordemusic: Juicy sweet seattle 🍐💫

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Royal Greenhouses in Laeken.Brussels /Belgium. by  Petrana Sekula

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@rnyfh

[filmtrash]

Notice how Oliver appears to be in a completely submissive role here, curling into Elio, seeking comfort, that little smile of contentment. Let him be protected at all costs.

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Happy. Sad. Confused.

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Tianjin Binhai Library, located outside Beijing, has massive bookshelves that contour the library’s walls, rolling across the ceiling like waves.

via reddit

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