EVERYTHING’S GREAT WHEN SHE DOESN’T THINK. that was the appeal of late night parties and coming home drunk off her ass, stumbling through the door and into bed. when she doesn’t think about it, nothing can hurt her. no fears, no “what ifs” gnawing at her mind, just a blur. and something like this is really nice when she doesn’t have to think too hard about it –when she can just enjoy her and her presence and how it feels to touch her.
but lorna wasn’t really like that.
no, lorna’s decisive. she knows what she wants and she gets it –it’s why she’s so good at her job. and explaining those fears to her might be more embarrassing than she’s ready to admit. what’s worse, she almost feels bad about it, making her keep something a secret like this.
❛ are you kidding me? you’re hollywood royalty. i’m fresh off the streets with a criminal dad –they’d hate me. they’d say ‘oh she’s not good enough for her’ and everyone would be rooting for you to toss me out in a heartbeat. ❜ and maybe they’d be right –but she doesn’t tell her that. instead, she smiles, adding a little lightheartedly. ❛ besides, skipping work won’t kill you…i on the other hand will at least try to have to work on your song at some point.❜ she wasn’t planning on clubbing that late but as with most things…it got out of hand. ❛ but i don’t have to do that right now...❜ she pats the spot next to her on the bed.
SHE WASN’T USED TO THIS. everything about her life has been plastered all over tabloids, every ounce of drama that happened with alex. any time she dyed her hair. anytime she so much as breathed in a starbucks. part of her loves keeping terry for herself, wanting nothing more than to just make her happy without people commentating on every rumor they believe about the two.
but she mostly just wants to be able to be with her. for people to know what they did in the first place, all of the words that made her heart flutter whenever terry said them. if she could scream it from a rooftop, she would. but she couldn’t do that without terry agreeing to it, it was her life too.
❛ so? ❜ the question rolls off her tongue so easily. why would she care what the papers say about her? if she was such hollywood “ royalty ” surely whatever some gossip magazines were saying about her wouldn’t really matter. ❛ i wouldn’t hate you, that’s what matters. right? i don’t care if some gossip site wants me to dump you. as long as you don’t want me to- why should we care? ❜ as soon as her hand pats the spot on the bed next to her, lorna wipes off the makeup off her neck and crawls back under the covers next to her. ❛ how is that coming along, beautiful? ❜
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