This is Zach and these are some of our pictures from June 2015. We were together for two beautiful years. I’m sharing these because earlier seeing some pics of someone that looked like him reminded me of the good old days. The story of me and Zach was a very complicated love story. You know we were as different to eachother as it gets; when we initially met he was actually 17; he was a furry, he was taller, he was a gamer, seriously into anime, he has aspergers and he deals with severe depression and social anxiety, in terms of his usual attire he absolutely hated formal clothing, his world revolved around magic the gathering, minecraft, skype chats with all his furry friends, school and well of course his dogs.
He was a boy unlike me, I was barely 19 at the time; but I was an accomplished individual; my life revolved around tons of responsibility I had my career working for the federal aviation administration as a compliance officer also doubling as a coordinator for Virgin Australia at LAX international, as well as being an IBO in a telecom company. And a part time track and field coach. My everyday clothing consisted of ties, vests, formal collar shirts basically a wardrobe of endless formal wear I only had a few t shirts, shorts, and well regular/casual attire at the time. Friends were mainly colleagues, I had no social life due to working Monday-Sunday what can I say I enjoy working and I’m dam good at it. I honestly wasn’t planning on relationships at the time, I mean a few months after I turned 19 my head was at planning to buy my first home, already having had meetings with Chase Bank and thankfully getting a approved Home Loan I only had 40k in cash for a down payment near 700 credit score and main thing they needed I believe at the time was 2 years of income proof which I had and well it was a smooth process.
I was very far from thinking about a relationship. I had wealth; grew up poor; worked extremely hard and got to where I wanted to be and more but here’s the thing I still wasn’t happy. And I’m sure some of you know i deal with severe depression. One day I was on the way to work and was stuck in traffic, now I’m sorry to say this but that very same night I was planning to end my life. Now while I was in that traffic I got a notification from someone named Zachary he was this adorable cub I had viewed on an app called meetme I was to shy to say hello but I did comment on his pics with honesty and I guess he said what the hey I’ll say hello. And that day I met Zach. We talked good god for hours even at work I know I shouldn’t have but it was just that kind of connection. And you know what this boy did for me ? he made me smile, he made me rethink what I wanted to do that night and he reminded me of how precious my life was and meeting him gave me a reason to cheer up and try, sometimes that’s all we can do when someone like me wakes up everyday with so much sadness it can be hard to even want to try to be okay.
The rest is kind of history, just want to clarify that because he was young I actually had to meet his mom face to face in public before I could actually date her son it’s understandable because zach was no ordinary cub. Well his mom loved me trust me she’s one of those strict moms that has those piercing eyes that kinda just scared me. Hahaha she was a single mom Zach’s father was never in the picture so yeah she felt she had to be careful with who her son was seeing. Afterall I would soon be his first true relationship. You know i never knew Zach’s side of the story of our first time meeting until much later but turns out he really needed someone that day too because he was getting pulled into a darkness that would have made him do something horrible to himself two. We met just when we both needed someone there. Pretty crazy right. We had one hell of an adventure. But you know these pics remind me of the days that I was introducing him to my world a world he really wanted nothing to do with hahaha. At that photo shoot he kept untucking his shirt when I wasn’t looking because he wanted to take it off so badly hahaha It was beautiful ;the good times, I played multiple roles in his life as boyfriend, partner, friend, father figure, mentor I did it all for him.
Honestly Zach was me if I was normal hahaha but seriously his life just was so different to mine and he was this adorable and sad being, a boy that so many just chose not to believe in or even consider giving a chance because he was different. Seriously I pushed him, I believed in him and I was there for him when he didn’t need me and especially when he needed me the most when even he didn’t believe in himself; proudest moment was when he graduated from high school oh I remember those hugs and him thanking me for helping him get so far. Just get teary eyed thinking about it.
Life visiting him every week revolved around huge cuddles in his room or watching movies with his mom and aunt and or spending time with him and his grandma; I was a part of the family. His mom just understood the kind of person that I was and she knew I only had true good intentions for her little boy. Things weren’t so easy. But my world no matter how hard and or rough; I did my best to make him happy on a daily basis and trust me I went above and beyond for his happiness because he was my beautiful little sad needy and very clingy cuddle buddy. Hehe. These pics are just one of our adventures I kept him well pampered what can I say I loved spoiling him when I could like haircuts; at the hair salon near him I’d always give the person very specific details of how I wanted him to look and well grooming I did all that myself so no one would hurt his delicate skin. The clothes in these photos I hand picked for him as well as the shoes, pants fitted to his exact measurements. Ties a few of them but ended up wanting him to match with me so hey we did. I still remember the one of him in my car in the blue collar he found it hard to do the buttons so I pulled over and did the buttons for him. It was adorable.
It’s been a long time since I’ve seen him in person but I know he’s doing well. I left a permanent impact in his life and I’m thankful that he even let me in his life to begin with.
In today’s time I still check up on him when I can and we catch up; talk about life his current relationship etc…. I’m there still as a friend and father figure and mentor, I honestly will always care about him that’s part of who I am; I’m a person with a true kind heart. I never abandon people. And this boy named Zach was a beautiful part of my life so felt like sharing just a little bit of us and our life together.
Hope you guys like the pics I never really got to share them
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