Ben @makesmallernow - Tumblr Blog

"you dont want to have a fast metabolism"

uhm yeah.... i do....

Shout out to all my normal weight and over weight peeps who make the lamest, most transparent excuses for their ED, but still get praise for blatantly starving yourself bc "you could stand to lose a few pounds"

I see you

You are valid

And your eating disorder is no less important than anyone else out here 🫂

makesmallernow

287->168 (->178 due to binge cycle but we working on that, I’m fasting until my break at work so I can be in deficit today.

No concern, only praise. Never sick enough to be seen as sick.

beauty-and-butterflies

Please listen to me when I say this

PROTEIN

IS

EXTREMELY

IMPORTANT

If you don't eat enough protein, your muscles will deteriorate (your heart is a muscle), your nails will break off, your HAIR will fall out. And ik most of us love our hair on our head not on the floor.

Ik protein is scary for some people but drinking atleast a protein drink with 30g of protein will help you so so much.

I love yall 🫶 stay safe and eat/ drink some damn protein lol 😂💗

(Off topic guess who got their Strattera 🥰 goodbye appetite, hello weightloss ☺️)

xfantometueurx

Started Again

It's started again

The pain

The starving

The constant ridicule

Nothing is good enough

I wish I didn't feel this way, I wish I could be happy. I've come back so I have a safe place to share my thoughts. So much has happened, I need control. I know how this works, I've been here before. It's not about being skinny, and if you think it is, you're wrong. You don't understand what it's like to truly hate yourself, and to want to disappear. To want to shrink into nothingness. I don't want to die. I want to vanish.

xfantometueurx

7/6/2024

sandmandaddy69

Always letting myself slip. “Just taking a break from losing weight” nah idiot you gained 15 lbs start fasting again.

So disappointed in myself. I can’t let myself get to that size again. It was impacting my life. I couldn’t tie my shoes without struggling. Couldn’t do a single flight of stairs without sucking for air. I love feeling lighter. I love my clothes hanging off and people still asking me months later “how much weight have you lost” and being SHOCKED at 120lbs. “I can’t even remember you that big” that’s all I can remember. That’s always how I imagine myself. Fuck.

I didn’t get skinny. I didn’t get thin. But FUCK I made so much progress, and I’m not losing that. I’m gonna be a dad soon I need to be able to play with my kid, to run after them. I can’t be stuck in my chair too exhausted from just existing to do anything.

My last big weight loss was 50lbs, this was 120 and I maintained for so long. Last time I let myself slip and I didn’t catch myself. I’m clawing at the walls now.

#disordered eating cw #male thinpo #male ed #st4rv1ng #male$po #disordered eating mention #eating disoder trigger warning #it's not as simple as just eating #disordered eating in tags #stop eating so much

evry1h8s-me

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