This Is Fine

27 | Los Angeles | Transguy | Sagittarius | Bisexual | He/Him | enjoys reading tarot and being in his feels

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Gonna make a new tumblr.

Tumblr is dying as we speak.

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I hope I can see a Olivia again one day

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You’d think after 4 years of falling out with your best friend you’d be over it and sure sometimes you totally are but then other times you can’t sleep and you just miss your friend. It’s just this little pit of Sad in my heart that blindsides me every so often 🙁

I’d like for my world to have someone in my life that made me feel an ounce of how she did and how we were together. I haven’t found that since and every time I want to experience more I just think about her and how that might’ve been the closest to ever living it and it tries to scare me from ever believing I’ll meet someone who makes me feel anywhere near that so I try to be hopeful. But tonight is hard to do that. I just miss my friend and I’ll be forgiving of myself about it. We had so much fun and I’m so glad I have that to keep.

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Tight shirts give me bicep confidence

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Ayo I’m kinda feelin myself

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3 Months post op photo dump. Top surgery has been a game changer 🌹

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The Moon Song

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Pr0test3d in Rancho Cucamonga, CA on Saturday and it was absolutely powerful. Impassioned expressions. My heart broke at the sight of the tiniest fist in the air from a little guy in his car seat. He could barely see out the window, but that baby’s fist was up. He deserves a better world. I couldn’t see that without bursting into tears.

Got a little pepper sprayed by an angry racist who just got out of his car all of a sudden and sprayed the crowd. Thankfully, strangers had been coming by all day dropping off supplies for us so we had plenty of water to flush out with. Cops started boxing us in and once we realized we all started running. Lost track of my friends for a bit and while trying to find them police were threatening arrests. My chest was throbbing in pain from having to run and I had my binder on all day for 7-8hrs. Finally linked back with my group and we made our way out. I didn’t have a good feeling about being there much longer.

Stayed the night with my friends and of course, I couldn’t sleep. Got about 3 hrs and I’ve been up ever since. I am trying to process so much emotion.

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bruh

Ummm, breezy??

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Sleeping is hard lately so I did a lil personal photo shoot to feel better and I took this feeling pretty confident about it. It’s kind of interesting channeling all that anxiety into a photo. I feel like I managed to look kinda sexy Lol it’s been a long time coming. I’m 2 years on T as of last month and I love it, I love feeling so much freer in my skin😊

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These three songs are in a continuous rotation because it’s just what’s helping me process the loss of a close friend. Whole Wide World is how I feel like she felt about girls. The song feels like something she would sing. And the other two are basically to self soothe all of this heartbreak and anxiety. The thing you need to hear when you’re sad.

Sharing them here in case it helps anyone else like it has me. We’re all going through something.

Seth

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hi! i saw your reply to a (pretty old, so sorry if youve already been asked) post saying that you worked on a ninja sex party video and was wondering what one/what you did? its so cool that you got to do that- i love nsp and im a trans man too so its just exciting to know you had such an opportunity and wanted to ask about it if thats cool! 💙

hey its cool. i worked on that before i came out haha, i worked on the “Pour Some Sugar On Me” video and i mainly helped decorate the gingerbread houses and candy stuffs lol. It was a fun time.

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