i feel so mischaracterized by everyone even by people who are close to me
Why does it feel like nobody knows who I actually am... Maybe I don't know who I am.

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@malecardio
i feel so mischaracterized by everyone even by people who are close to me
Why does it feel like nobody knows who I actually am... Maybe I don't know who I am.
Tag game because why not :)
Tag ur friends to see what their current favourite song is.
@krakencran @nastyasmermaid @attentionwh0ring @spiritenhaven @shipkidpalace-official @simpforsimon
hello my turn even though I wasn’t invited
@illegalcheese73 @avoony1 @avoony1
ps: if this link doesn’t embed I’m gonna swim away from it all
I don't have Spotify but the two current songs I'm stuck between are New Way Out by Poppy and Going Under by Evanescence
@book-of-mapss @cathedralofcherries @donutshark2763 @eddiemunsonsguitarpic @jupiterxzyy @livewithoutwxrning @phantom-scaress @rosedmcenjoyer @smolpinkgremlin and any other moots or followers
Thank you for the tag!!!
@fawnloser @callme-marco @atlantis-angel @buglvr22
YIPPE THANK YOU!!!
@art-i-ficiall @merrychristmas-pleasedontcall @peachjaguar7587 @raritism @buggle-404 @girl-on-the-subway
YAY THANK YOU!
@femmour @rennysglowinthedarkstars @probshouldbesleeping @sydsquid08 @quirkyidfk @weirdgayweevil @pinaforepirate @pickledoesthetumbling @alienprincess111 @baldbrams @i-be-robin-um-the-uh @index-fingie @art-i-ficiall @adam-created @jackalope-meadowsweet @blessedblemishes @dazednpaquita @delicatezombiewasteland @dietmountainndeww @devil-in-lee @kiraizcoolz @sweet-and-sour-sauce-offical @swellestuniverse @still-monsterr @or4nge-f4nta @rainelikerainbutwithane @everythingnox @i-eat-umbrellas @mysticaleldritchpunk @miss-dior-whore @miss-placed-whimsy @grave-shares @jackalope-meadowsweet
i tried to tag everyone 😭
thank you for the taggg
@frankenbrat @feltgoodabtu @gracielongsleeves @daisyswift3 @gloomygaygirl @shetani-the-wildcat @xxxlasombramidnightxxx @j3nny21xcx @lar-lara @citrusexcalibur @girl-on-the-subway @milzchaoticrambling @buffatronnie @xiaxiaoo @cherioba @justainsanenobody @youshouldhateshakespeare @linnielemon @d1n0-nugget @hollowh3artz @askashlynbanner @exclusivegrain @confusedfroggirl @aurevoirr @benmcy @indigo-skies14 @thefallenangel673 @nikos25 @misterkaplunk @leleloolooleedle @foundheaveen @cats-and-space @ivys-head-is-spinning @marzandstarz09 @thechildeaterr @foundheaven013 @catgirlelric @dillydalliersblog @ottib3rto @heaven-sentfemme @mias-train @zarzar-zinks
Tyy
These two
@aleks-is-dead @thatonebisexualgunner @0xxsleepyheadxx0 @irlorangecat @imhungryyyyyyyyyy
Thanks for the tag <3
and
@norzyczki @smalllookingturtle +open tags
Always and forever 🤍🤍🤍
@surrealie @deathhull fuck i feel like I'm being annoying on tumblr, i'm so sorry to everyone i have ever interacted with, i am just as annoying irl + open tags ig
pidżama porno i love u
@andrewdoesshit @theinterpretingbookworm @shad0w-bird @kittys-worlds @scattered9bones @orinex @sinfulseraphepoch @andy-rew62 + everyone else i forgot + open tags!!
This changes a lot but currently it’s
@kneeko116 @cy-more-like-cry @bombingthisapp
thanks!!!!!
@puppy-exe-stopped-responding @hisowntruly @urlocaltwinkrey @needajoint @bugyboi @aster--pupy
Thank you!!
@thelastjacki @soulcrushrr @fist-full-of-feathers @fagrots
thank you twin :3
@tumblesdownhill @gummyboy300 @psychiangeltino @malecardio
Thank you @thelastjacki!!!
It's hard to decide but this is what I've been listening to most recently.
@aj-luvsu2009
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What was your first video game?
Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.
Just Cause 2 on my dad's Xbox 360
i just found this really cute picrew where you can make a frog version of yourself!! im gonna make it a tag game :3
!! this is still a work in progress and more stuff will be added !! 🐸 profiting off my art/using it for NFTs/tracing/copying is not allow
mine:
tagging /nf: @ozzy-from-the-cafeteria @princeofcarrotflowers @deadwo0d @stars4roryy @onlystarless-eyesremain @human-n0-l0ng3r @aethereally-hex @astralduck08 @eating-the-sand @ang3l-ocean @rin-yaps @human-n0-l0ng3r @microraptorhours @biscuits-and-lemonade @th4tweirdr0mantic + anyone who wants to join :)
Here’s mine :)
Tags /nf:
@saigeember28 @i-welded-ur-genitals-shut @bandcampgremlin @shumperoono @certified-bone-owner @attheendhello @sea-jellie-thoguhts @evskiii @porternwtwork @mildlybizarrecorvid @error404ofnotfound @cats-fluorescent @swathingpath707 @iobsesswaytoomuch @jamiemaybeme @because-i-do-it-all-the-time @intergalacticfrog @zemikite @killjoy152 @knuffeltrein @saturn-in-retrograde7 @aestheticsforthefandom @thedownfallofamericapart2 + open tags :)
Tysm for the tag!! Here's mine:)
So many of my moots have been tagged already omg, (this has defo hit sandbox Tumblr) but here's some who haven't been (at least in this thread): @cackleboots @amylikesbatss @tournesol-desole @zekethefightingnighthawk @imnotafraidtodisappear @stars4roryy @readerofallsins + open tags ofc
It’s meee •>•
@stxrfiish @justiceforplutoo @chaosghosts @cackleboots [ik u were tagged already but DO IT]
npt: @wistfulenchantress @petrifiedlark @doublereed-guillotine @godsstrongestshithead and i just woke up and can't remember my mutuals so. i will tag y'all in the next thing 😭🙏 + anyone else who wants to join!!!
omg not me doing nearly the exact same thing as one of your moots XD this was super cute, thanks for the tag!! <33
@aj-luvsu2009 @cy-more-like-cry @codexnuminous @four-leafed-queer-gal + i cant think of anyone else right now lmfaoo, open tag though :)) i love u guys <33
LMAO WHY DID WE THINK UP THE SAME FIT
@needajoint @urlocaltwinkrey @hisowntruly @thebloodiest-jesteralive
THIS IS SO CUTE WHAT
@cringyandclingy @deusben @munch1ngmaggots @fist-full-of-feathers @fireh0under
i present patrick to you all
@h0bbes-is-c000l @godschosenfagg @larek16 @ro4dki11 + all mutuals in no particular order
imma pic @malecardio @psychiangeltino @gummyboy300 & @tumblesdownhill and also any other of my beloved moots who I can't think of rn
This is mine!!
@aj-luvsu2009
Boys don’t cry so I guess I’ll just jerk off instead
What would you like to do if you met another cardiophile?
Mm I don't know how to answer this, there's so many things I'd want to do!! We could start off with the lighter stuff - listening to each other's hearts, trying to make them race through "vanilla" methods. Later on? I'd love to do some resus play, chest compressions, mouth to mouth, defib (if we had one)...
oh thats interesting - how would you say you're interested in it? sorry if I'm overstepping lol
You're not overstepping at all! I'm mostly interested in the medfet side of cardiophilia, mostly resuscitation. Feel free to DM me if you're still curious <3
hey there! I just wanted to ask out of sheer curiosity what is a cardiphile? is it like a medical kink thing or just heart sounds or what
am curious :)
Hi, thanks for asking!! It can range really, some people are only interested in listening to heart sounds for various reasons - usually sexual or romantic - whereas others lean more towards the medfet side of things, commonly things like resuscitation or cardiac monitoring. I'd say that cardiophilia probably comes under the medfet umbrella but that's a massive generalisation and it really just depends on the individual! Ultimately, all cardiophiles are deeply interested in the heart in some way, but each for different reasons.
Let's try this.
Send me a number: Cardiophile edition.
1. Favorite type of heartbeat
2. Do you have a heart condition
3. Favorite spot to listen on yourself
4. Favorite spot to listen on someone else
5. Ear stething or stethoscope
6. Have you ever been to a cardiologist
7. What kind of heart exams have you had
8. Ever been stethed by someone
9. Do you like to feel your heart beat
10. Ever feel someone else’s heart
11. Favorite pulse point
12. How many people have you told
13. How many stethopes do you own
14. Do you wish you could have a certain kind of heart exam
15. What color is your steth
16. Favorite procedure to watch
17. Does your cardiophilia have a dark side?
Asks are open ^^
I finally finished the sketch from September last year xD
I feel like cardiophilia/resus is perfect for sub/dom relationships. Imagine a subby lil guy moaning and babbling as his heart pounds faster and faster, his brain becoming a jungle of distant pleasure and irregular drumming in his ears. All the while, their dom boyfriend is finding new ways to fuck with their heart; he murmurs soothing praise as his hands push further and further into their chest. They whimper as their ribs bend, but that won't matter soon. "Such a good boy..." he mutters as he roughly presses two fingers into their neck, feeling their erratic pulse skip repeatedly before fading out.
Now that's my type of submission 🫠
Cold Shock - Recovery
I was never quite satisfied with how I finished Cold Shock in the original post, so I decided to revisit it and, wow... it was a learning experience. I hope you enjoy reading about my beloved Austin and Kieran as much as I enjoyed creating them; hopefully I've finally done them justice.
(This short begins immediately after the final part of the original series, I'd recommend reading back through it to understand the context!!)
"Shh, it's ok baby… it's ok." Austin's voice was hoarse and unsteady as he tightly held his boyfriend against his chest, one hand delicately cradling the back of his head.
Each feeble breath was accompanied by a muted gurgle, speckles of lukewarm water landing against his neck. Austin gently untangled the wires snaking up Kieran's bare torso, one hand moving in slow circles against the boy's clammy back. He subconsciously grumbled as each feather-light pass sent goosebumps radiating across his skin. Noticing the strained sounds, Austin smoothly adjusted his grip, easing him down until his head rested limply on the bed. Fluid dripped from blueish lips, pooling on the cushion. He carefully shifted his head, the skin along his neck pulling taught and his mouth falling open.
"Breathe, breathe, in and out… c'mon." Austin used his forearm to wipe Kieran's face. Each exhausted exhalation settled droplets on his lips.
A curled fist raked down bruised ribs; a pained whimper slipped from his mouth. As he leaned over him, Austin stared into his half-lidded porcelain eyes. He searched for any response, begging for a sign that Kieran was here with him. He was met with a pitiful cough, Kieran's body tensing with ragged breaths. A relieved grin found Austin's lips as the reassuring words continued to spill out, his chest shallowly fluttering beneath his palm. Austin knew Kieran was hurting. Aching ribs send lightning burning through his chest with each stuttering breath, bright enough to dull the world, fading into peaceful nothing. The moments between breaths became intoxicating, the jagged pain softened and slipped away. He inhaled fire; the exhale bringing a numbing chill.
Inhale. Just a second more…
Inhale. The fog thickened…
Inhale.
…
Austin took control. His lips collided with Kieran's, coaxing air into his drowned lungs and ballooning his pale cheeks, pain searing into the mist that suffocated his mind. A desperate whimper escaped the seal as his boyfriend's oxygen repeatedly violated his lungs.
"You need to breath baby, you can do it." Austin half grinned as Kieran squirmed beneath him, mumbling between each forced breath. Agony ignited his brain once again and brought with it a new sense of reality. The fog, as it was torn away, revealed familiar sensations. The sharp, antiseptic invasion of his nose. The glare of cold lights assaulting his vision. The feeling of warm lips against his. He blinked once. Twice.
His body lurched; each coarse bark that tore free sent stiff convulsions rocketing down his limbs. Austin's palm found the space between Kieran's shoulder blades and struck, struck again, and then Kieran gasped. His chest jerked. Air rattled in. His brain devoured the oxygen and he fought for control. Meanwhile, his heart pounded and each visible contraction radiated tremors down his body, hammering in his head. Austin caught the rapid thrumming with his thumb; the stumbling rhythm fought against his skin with a renewed ferocity.
"There you are, good boy Kieran." His fingers twisted around damp curls, his grip safe and absolute. Austin delicately lifted Kieran's chin, meeting his glassy-but-focused eyes. The growing life within intensified, and pride flooded his thoughts.
"Ughh… hurts." Grumbled Kieran as he processed his surroundings, the feeling of his boyfriend's body against his, filling him with warmth. He remembered what he fought for.
I've got something on it's way for those of you who love a little fluff 🫣
I did something new! 🐇
I wanted to try something related to resus. It's a small thing, but I hope you like it~
I also found it interesting that, even though they are "immortal" (because Bellmont is too hehe), they need to die in order to heal. Ironic, but entertaining 🐇
I feel like when it comes to my favorite scenario, I’m much more interested in a more half-conscious state rather than being unconscious during a full cardiac arrest. I’m MUCH more into the victim being aware but in a twilight of consciousness, struggling to stay awake and breathe. They can feel their heart struggling and they can hear their broken gasps for air.
I’m crazy about lungs struggling to inflate, and the victim feels as their nose gets pinched and as lips seal over theirs to give them a rescue breath. They can feel their chest expand with every breath and feel as it deflates. When the rescuer stops to see their condition, the victim has a clearer mind, but they’re still struggling. The breath offered a brief moment of respite, but not enough to strengthen weakened lungs. So, rescue breaths continue with the rescuer timing their rescue breaths every time the victim attempts to breathe on their own.
I’m obsessed with the victim being aware of how much their heart is struggling. They can feel how close their body is to giving out. However, the rescuer prevents that. They apologize as they position their hands on top of the rescuer’s sternum, their sputtering chest meeting the rescuer’s hands, and the victim can feel the heat of their hands against their cold skin. They can feel as their chest begins to bend under the pressure of chest compressions, their body jerking to each one as the rescuer helps their sick heart finally beat properly. They can feel as every bit of air still in their lungs gets shoved out of their body. Their body’s in pain and their head becomes light as it’s even more difficult to get air in. The rescuer notices, provides more rescue breaths, and then continues with compressions to keep someone alive who is nearly gone already.
The victim can hear the rescuer the entire time. They can hear soft curses, words of encouragement, gentle praises, desperate pleas for them to hang in there. Their vision swims in and out, but they can still make out the form of their rescuer. Is it someone they know? Someone they don’t? Who are they, and why are they fighting so hard to keep them alive?
The shocks come in soon to try and restart their heart into a proper rhythm. It hurts much worse than anything else they’ve come to experience. Their body jerks as it feels like they’ve been struck in the chest, their back arching as the shock runs through their body, a strangled breath of air being forcefully squeezed from their body. They go limp, and as their vitals are taken, rescue breaths continue.
I have so many thoughts and I’ll be sure to add more when it’s not 4am
Being a freak is all fun in games till one of your friends dose something you’re into and you have to pretend like nothing happened
This is even worse for cardiophiles when their friends talk about how hard their hearts are beating...
If only they knew how hard I was getting 🫣