hi @taylorswift. here is a photo of me when i was seven, i was so scared to be myself because i thought people would judge me for the music i listened to, because i’ve grown up quite quickly, so for a seven year old to be listening to taylor swift and knowing every word to her songs, i thought that was weird so i just used to hide who i was.
here’s me and my cat in 2015. this is when i started accepting who i was, though i was getting bullied and everything was so hard, i had your music and it helped me pull through. you taught me to love who i am and you’ve been there for me through music since 2009.
here’s me in 2018 when i came all the way to manchester from wales, for the rep tour because i knew i needed to see you live after so many years. 2018 was pretty tough, my parents split up, i lost contact with my mum, i moved house and i was struggling so much with my confidence, it was also the time of my exams and i failed all of them because i couldn’t concentrate on anything due to everything that was going on, but seeing you in june made me the happiest i’ve ever been. still to this day, i smile whenever i think about seeing you. i’m so proud of how far you’ve come.
at the end of 2018, i got into a relationship with a girl. we were together for a year and a half, until i broke up with her. the reason i broke up with her was because i felt trapped and alone, i wasn’t allowed to be myself, she didn’t let me listen to your music and i wasn’t allowed to see my friends. i felt more alone than i ever had not being able to listen to your songs to make me happy, but when you released the archer, it was my birthday and i sat by the pool in spain crying because of how much it meant to me. not only because you released it on my birthday, but i just felt as though i really connected with the lyrics. but that’s the amazing thing about you, and your songs. you always make us happy. you always make us proud and you always give us a reason to stay. she told me not to cut my hair because she liked it long. i couldn’t do anything that would change the way i looked. i had to play by her rules, everyday. so when i broke up with her, it was freeing.
here’s me now, in 2020. i learned to step into the daylight and let it go. i cut my hair and i can finally be myself. i’m still dealing with a lot of stress, and sadness. i find it hard to leave my bed some days but knowing that i might one day be able to hug you? that means something. that gives me a reason to carry on. you. you’re my best friend and your music is everything to me. thank you for being here through everything. i hope to hug you some day. i love you beyond any words. being in the relationship i was in was challenging, thank you for teaching me to just let go of everything and giving me a reason to be here.
i’m so lucky to have such an amazing, inspiring, strong woman to look up to. you amaze me everyday and your strength, gives me strength. i’m so proud of you. beyond words. thank you for everything taylor.
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