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Perfect

This week has been a little less than perfect as far as 21DF goes. Tuesday night I went out with a friend for some drinks at BDubs and I also got some chicken "buffalitos" and fries. Last night my father smoked ribs... All in all, I'd say I've done well at least 80% of the time this week and I'm happy with that. Progress is progress, not necessarily perfection. T25 has been going well for me this week. I didn't wake up at 4:45 this morning and complete it, however, because I had difficulty sleeping last night. I was scheduled to do Ab Intervals, which I'm going to make up on Saturday.

Perfect day

Binge

Yesterday was a bad day. I ended up going on a binge.

It’s hard to explain how this happens. It’s like I just shut off. I try to tell myself to eat or drink something healthy instead, but I never can stop myself.

I read an article on Fitocracy from a fellow binger who said, when you feel a binge coming on, start bingeing on healthy foods in order to fill yourself up quicker. The author said that “willpower” will only stave off the binge for so long, and that bingers know no matter what they do, a binge on unhealthy food will eventually happen, so if you start filling yourself up with healthy foods when you feel that initial urge to binge, perhaps you’ll end up bingeing less on the unhealthy foods.

Right now I think that needs to be my plan. No matter what I do I end up bingeing eventually, which makes me feel miserable about myself and makes me want to give up. “What does it matter anyway?” I ask myself after a binge. Why bother making my next meal a healthy one, why bother doing my workout? After a binge I feel physically and mentally exhausted and if the binge starts early as it did yesterday, the rest of the day is spent with this attitude.

Chicken, veggies, and quinoa - 21DF lunch!

Weekend Wannabe

This past weekend was an extended one for me & I didn’t do so well with my healthy eating plan. I always struggle on weekends and this one was the epitome of these struggles. I ate a bunch of junk and drank a bunch of booze and didn't exercise at all. Yesterday, however, I started T25 and followed 21DF. I even woke up and did my workout this morning before work! I've got my calendar all planned out and I'm going to do T25 @ 0500 on my days that I work and at 1700 on the days I have off. I also cooked some meals and measured out some snacks for 21DF ahead of time for this weekend as well. I feel like this is going to be a good week! One day at a time I'm going to power through!

#t25 alpha #21 day fix

This is the face of a woman who woke up at 5AM to do T25!

Give a little

Last night I didn't feel like cooking, so we had Subway for dinner. I don't think it was too far off from 21DF with chicken, pepper jack cheese, spinach, tomatoes, green peppers, onions, and jalapeños on whole wheat. The sweet onion sauce probably wouldn't have been approved, nor the Kettle Cooked chips and Mike's Hard that I had on the side... But I figured every now and then you need to give yourself a little break. I read an article from Fitocracy once that advised eating clean 80% of the time & to give yourself the other 10% to be human. I don't feel like I overindulged last night, even though I didn't follow the plan exactly. I don't feel guilty. And today I'm back at my healthier eating habits.

Salmon and stirfry veggies! Equals one red and two greens!

1 red, 1 yellow, 1 green, .5 blue!

#lunchtoday

It may not look extremely appealing, but it's delicious! 1 scoop of chocolate Shakeology with coffee & ice = 1 red. I weighed myself this morning and I'm at 160, which is less than I figured I was. I was guesstimating that I was around 165, so I've adjusted my 21DF portions accordingly. I think I'll have an easier time getting in all of my portions now, because yesterday definitely seemed like way too much. I'm pretty excited, though, that I weigh less than I thought I did! I'm setting my goal to lose 20 lbs to put me at 140lbs. Once I get there if I feel like I can make some more improvements then I'll adjust my goal, but losing 20 pounds seems very attainable to me for now.

21 DF Day 1

Today turned out ok... I'm short on my 21DF by 1.5 servings of veggies, .5 of a serving of healthy fats and 1 serving of complex carbs. I worked a 12-hour shift today and was very busy, so I just didn't have the time to snack around. I ate until I was quite full at each meal, however. T25 did not happen this morning. I had thought that maybe I could get up insanely early (because I already have to get up very early for work) & get it done, but I just didn't have that kind of motivation today. I'm still fighting with my sinus infection and I'm honestly still exhausted from it. I've not been sleeping well due to waking up coughing and I can't breathe very well either. So I think I may just wait on T25 for one more week so that when I do start I'm able to give it 100%. Until then I'm going to focus on eating healthy according to 21DF and try to get myself well again.

Breakfast of champions! Whole wheat tortilla, 2 eggs, tomatoes, mushrooms, red peppers, and siracha = 1 yellow, 1 red, 1 green. Plus I had some blueberries on the side.

Happy birthday to me

This birthday weekend has been wonderful and somewhat indulgent. Tomorrow I'm starting on my journey toward a healthier life. I'm feeling a little nervous about how successful I'll be. So many times in the past I've started out strong but eventually failed. I'm not sure yet what is going to make this time different. I'm aware of why I've failed in the past - I'm a binge eater. Nowadays they call it "BED" or binge eating disorder. They didn't use to have a name for it when I was younger, but I suffered from it nonetheless. I still do. I read articles about what you can do to stick to your diet plan when you're having cravings for junk food, but they don't really apply. Bingeing isn't a craving. You can get over a craving. When you feel like bingeing, though, there's no stopping. I've tried to distract myself - go for a walk, clean, journal; I've tried to talk myself out of it logically and eat healthy snacks instead, but the binge always takes over. When I'm bored or stressed especially, that's when I'm the most vulnerable. It's crazy to feel like you just can't control yourself at all. I've wondered before what it's like to not have that feeling... Anyway, I'm going to stay positive and just take this one day at a time. I've got my lunch and dinner packed for tomorrow along with some healthy snacks and I'm waking up a few minutes early to get on a quick 25 minute workout! It's going to be an awesome day!

Calorie goal!

21 Day Fix containers!

Plans

I’m battling a sinus infection from hell right now which has affected my appetite and energy level. I feel very weak and tired and don’t really feel like eating much at all. This weekend I’m going to make a menu plan and exercise plan for the upcoming week and hopefully I’m able to get over this sinus infection by Sunday. I'm thinking about going to the Occ Med clinic at work tomorrow and demanding an antibiotic.

I have 21 Day Fix and T25 that I’m planning on implementing as soon as I start feeling better. The 21DF seems to be a fairly sustainable healthy eating plan since it doesn’t require you to eat anything crazy, but just encourages you to eat a variety of foods and watch your portions. And T25 is a workout routine that I should easily be able to fit into my busy schedule at only 25 minutes a day.

From what I’ve read, success with these programs comes with planning ahead and keeping it simple. I'm thinking I'm going to go buy some fancy new Tupperware and, on Sunday, prepare all of my meals for next Monday and Tuesday. Since I'm working 12 hours those days I feel like if I have everything done and ready it might be a lot easier for me to make healthy choices. Then when I'm off next Wednesday I can meal prep for my shift on Thursday. The weekends typically are my downfalls, so I'm going to come up with a meal plan for the weekend while I'm off on Friday. 😊 I'm feeling optimistic about this plan. I've just got to dedicate myself to the preparations right now. One step at a time.

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