manfreak

19 - venting my frustration (ftm slightly forcemasc blog) - asks are open

[manfreak]

“are you going to cowboy up? or just lay there and bleed?”

there’s a lack of forcemasc blogs and ever since i’ve started hormones i feel like there’s a werewolf of a monster underneath my skin clawing around. you can see its ribs when i move yknow.

this blog is gonna be a mix of venting out frustrations, forcemasc stuff, etcetera

[manfreak]

aw what’s wrong? you can’t handle my boot there? c’mon, it’s not like it hurts. oh, you’re just sensitive? baby, toughen up. you’re a big man, you can take it.

[manfreak]

do you accept freaky anons?

yes but within reason? if that makes sense? i have a boyfriend so please nothing too crazy but as a general rule yes i do (this blog is 18+ guys remember)

[manfreak]

doing an iwtv rewatch,,, god armand and daniel are just eyefucking the whole time GET A ROOM!!

[manfreak]

and let me in the room please please please

[manfreak]

doing an iwtv rewatch,,, god armand and daniel are just eyefucking the whole time GET A ROOM!!

[manfreak]

is this a safe space to confess i got such intense gender envy from him as a kid i couldn’t admit to anyone i liked cowboy bepop because i was so sick with jealousy

[manfreak]

i saw your request for forcemasc/trans/iwtv asks and was summoned once again. there's so much i wanna say but i can't without typing a 10-page freak essay TwT anyway... blah blah something about a vampire forcemascing his future fledgling before turning them so they can be his handsome boy for eternity blah blah blah (also i wanna say "maître" is so much hotter than "master" in this ted talk i will-)

i’m not sure if this is a popular opinion but i truly do think armand is dom in this pairing (it makes sense with his character and i will expand upon this if you guys want) but could you imagine him telling daniel what to do, and his boy responding with a sarcastic “yes, maître,”? furthermore, imagine armand grabbing him by his hair and holding his head back and telling him to be a gentleman, take his instruction and guidance like a man and be grateful.

this isn’t well written (thank you clopening shifts) but i’ve got a devils minion brain worm

[omega-springsteen-truther]

I’m sick and tired of found families we need more found toxic workplace environments

[preyingmantits]

[manfreak]

Find the time to climb a tree this week.

Sit up there and carve an apple. Sign of mars or something else that symbolizes masculinity to you. And dedicate two days this week to hitting as many push-ups as you can. You're growing, having fallen as far from the tree as you intended. You are free from expectation.

shakespeare lives… big fan of your work

(seriously though this is a very kind and peaceful piece of advice you rock)

[manfreak]

Feel free to ignore if too personal but what did dysphoria feel like for you, if you felt it at all?

oh I definitely felt dysphoria and I still do. for me, it kind of felt like i was on fire all the time, if that makes sense. i’d think about my chest or mannerisms i considered feminine and my fae would burn and i’d sweat and it just felt like i was standing right next to a huge bonfire for too long. it’s lessened now but i do still feel that burn of shame and wrongness when im not binding/when i get misgendered (which tbh has gotten more and more rare as time goes on)

[manfreak]

my inbox is so empty… oh it’d be such a shame if i got a lot of asks about trans stuff or forcemasc stuff or gay stuff or iwtv stuff…

[manfreak]

i need to fuck the man into a trans guy i need to fuck him so hard he grows a beard

[manfreak]

how to not feel like a stray dog in public all the time (glaring and jaw clenched and skittish) until a nice human (handsome older man or a nice old lady) says something nice to me and suddenly being outside isn’t so bad no borax no glue

[manfreak]

Marius DEFINITELY forcemascs Amadeo.

…could i get some hcs or ideas about this

[manfreak]

Sorry if this is weird or anything but whats bottom growth like? How does it look and feel and all that shit? I honestly can't wait to be on testosterone and I know about basically every other side effect but I know nothing about bottom growth apart from what I can gather from the name of it

not weird at all, man. trust me i like helping!

people love to say it hurts but honestly it doesn’t, and i’m not saying that cause i wanna be all macho or whatever. the most it’ll “hurt” is it being new and you not being used to the feeling of having anything down there like that.

the closest thing i can compare it to for how it feels when it’s growing in is when you’ve got like a minty chapstick on there’s a bit of a tingle. generally it’s got sensitivity in terms of arousal and just for friction and it feeling uncomfortable.

it looks like a mini dick tbh just without the slit at the top cis guys have. it starts as just like… an enlarged clit but grows steadily to where you have a shaft and some pseudo foreskin. (make sure to keep it clean, boys.)

my advice regarding it would be to make sure you have slightly loose boxers so it isn’t rubbing against the fabric too much and figure out if shaved/unshaved feels better to you in terms of helping with the sensitivity.

hope you get on your t journey soon mate

[manfreak]

PLEASE that's actually so hot oh lord (pardon me gnawing on the bars of my enclosure, i'm just excited that my love of forcemasc and iwtv are intertwining)

genuinely it’s suchhh a good concept. i need more forcemasc devils minion fics like i need red meat to live. please everyone if you have devils minion forcemasc hcs give them to me im a greedy man.

[manfreak]

How big is your bottom growth?

i’m gonna assume this was asked in a more… educational manner? i’ve been on testosterone for about six months now (i was already pretty androgynous/masculine pre-t) and for me i’d say i’ve got about an inch and a half of bottom growth. it’s different for everybody and it will continue to grow for a good long while, but that’s where it is currently.