Original story by @solivagantingrebel
note: Since I didn't get the author's permission beforehand, I will take this post down immediately if it causes any issues!
I recently read an incredible fanfic on AO3, and I was so inspired that I just had to draw this!
While reading, I couldn't stop imagining Dragon Ghost and Prince Soap—they were living in my head rent-free the whole time.
To be honest, I’ve never been a huge fan of fantasy AUs, but this story completely changed my mind. Now, I find myself constantly searching for more fantasy ghoap!😂
I also wanted to share a huge thank you to the author. I was going through a bit of a fandom burnout and feeling quite listless lately, but your writing brought back the joy of fangirling for me. Thank you so much for such a beautiful story!
I've talked about this a bit beforehand already in posts, so this is just to lay out my thoughts about the character. Again I cannot stress this enough this is just my version of krueger and how I've been headcanon-ing him for the past (looks at calendar) oh my god 6 years. So, behold this fuckin essay bc it's long. ft. drawing from last year
(disclaimer: when I put quotation marks around "normal" and "abnormal" it's BIG quotation marks; it's just shorter than saying "as compared to the vast majority of people".)
As I said a couple times, basically, I think Krueger can't feel the full range of, let's say, "normal" human emotions and especially not negative emotions such as sorrow, guilt, sadness or even actual anger. It's like what he feels (again, particularly with negative emotions) is dull in intensity as compared to someone "normal".
For example he'll feel more disappointment than actual regret. More light nostalgia than longing or sadness. More annoyance than anger.
However, I do think that he's 1) aware that he doesn't feel strong emotions 2) has a really deep understanding of how these emotions work, how they're triggered and how they are processed in other people... but in a purely logical way. i don't know how to explain, to me it's like, Krueger does have empathy but it's purely from understanding thought patterns.
So what he himself actually genuinely feels on the other hand is more… immediate? pragmatic? feelings. Such as comfort (or discomfort), contentement, satisfaction. (satisfaction which is the one thing he chases always). That's his version of happiness basically.
"and what about feelings towards PEOPLE... such as love..." I hear u ask. Well for the most evident example I don't think the thought "I love Nikto" can even traverse his mind in these words. Well it can! BUT it's materialised in a different way, Krueger instead relishes (satisfaction. deep deep satisfaction and comfort) in knowing exactly the places he occupies in Nikto's life/heart/mind. His referential is just odd but it's comparable to love for a "normal" person. LIKE it sounds corny as fuck but I think that's more accurate to describe Krueger's attachment like so than "just" the "normal" feeling of belonging associated w the traditional vision of love. My god I just do be typing words here.
... And another point that's important to my vision of the character is that I think he's entirely aware that he's "abnormal" in the way he processes things. But that still does not make him long for feeling the full range of human emotions, because he's perfectly content with how he is.
I don't really like using labels and mental illnesses because it feels very reductory and my version of the character doesn't tick all the boxes of any condition anyway; but this is why I prefer saying that I imagine him to have psychopatic traits only, not to actually be a psychopath or a sociopath or having antisocial personality disorder for example. Which are all rooted in a very psychophobic & ableist history of personality disorders and I don't like them anyway.
If you read until there uh congrats. And thank you. hope this made sense 👍
Have you ever drawn Krueger from cod :3 I think he would look stunning in your style 💗 also merry Christmas!! And or any other holidays you celebrate today^^
Thank you, Anon!
Before today? No. But I've been following some amazing Krueger artists for a while now who got me interested in him so I've just been waiting for an excuse to draw him.
