this is by far, the hardest thing iāve ever had to write out and why i have not yet made a post on the main after my abrupt message in the old discord. please understand that I was at my wits end at that point, and as of late while this group has brought me immense amounts of joy, all I can think of was the stress I was put under while running the main of this group by myself. as i said previously feb is a month where i personally get very antisocial and out of touch with who i usually am. a big factor is most likely mixed into S.A.D and Iām sending love to anyone else who experiences this wild mood swing.
that being said, this group has brought me a lot of joy and good times. reopening the group was something that i will always look back on with the fondest memories, along with how hype people got during plot drops and developments. i had full intentions of running this group forever, but i lost touch with that drive during the month of february. and now spilling into today, i still do not feel that drive and would rather take a break and try to rework things. of course the manor is still in the back of my mind, along with every member who participated.Ā
i am not a perfect person, though, and i never voiced when i was feeling disheartened by things. iām not here or making this post to point fingers, but I ask that in the future any group you join you always remember to readĀ and follow rulesĀ because theyāre there for a reason. allow me to leave yāall something with something i read during our activity fiasco. when you join a group, youāre part of a team.Ā try to be honest with your coach / admins how often you will be able to participate, because leaving them in the dark leads to frustrating or disheartened leadership.
i wish everyone nothing but the best in any path they take part in, and I hope yāall donāt forget that the shadow man is still lurking in the town of beaver creek, and the guests of the manor still remain in the twilight zone, living their blissful lives. unaware they are in fact still in the manor, in a comatose state having their souls fed on by the soul eaterĀ which inhabits the manor.
fingers crossed they are found, and saved by the residents of beaver creek.
tl;dr.Ā manorhq is now closed, meaning I will not be getting on the main again for a while. thank you to everyone who was around and participated and made it all worth while. in the future i may create the next part of the plot into a group, and everyone will always be welcome to join. but running a rpg requires a lot more dedication and time and drive than i have at the moment.Ā
goodbye for now, my little dreams.