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[manycatsao3]

Ilya being big but feeling himself getting kinda grumpy and his head feels heavy and eventually Shane has to be like. I think you're sleepy bud you need a nap

"But 'm not little!" While rubbing his eyes and sounding a little teary

"You don't need to be little to nap, we nap before games all the time."

"Not a game day... shouldn't be tired already"

"I think maybe your body's used to having naps the past few days while you were little, why don't we lay down together?"

Smallest sleepiest voice: "okay 🥺"

[manycatsao3]

I'm working on this fic rn but I feel like you'll be able to tell when I became sick in this process

[manycatsao3]

Guess who immediately got sick the second they had time offfffffff

[manycatsao3]

i like to think that before shane gets comfortable regressing around ilya he’s really shy about his feelings so he always hides his face whether rain or shine hehe so when ilya squeezes him really tight he giggles while hiding his face, when he’s upset about having to stop playing to eat/sleep he hides his face, when ilya takes away his plushie to wash he hides his face, etc. it’s v endearing but ilya gets frustrated in the beginning bc he cant read shane’s expression so he has to do a lot of guessing (one time ilya tried tickling him and when shane hid his face ilya thought he was smiling/giggling quietly but he realized upon seeing shane’s shoulders shaking that he was actually quietly crying bc it felt so bad why would u do that papa :(((!! )

CUTECUTEUCUTECUTE... OH NO SAD

Shane in the show holds himself so tightly often the only give away of what he's feeling is his eyes... he can get all teary and a little murderous and not move his face at all..... when he's baby he doesn't have that kind of control so he does the next best thing and completely hides

If he can be under a blanket that's ideal but often he curls in on himself and uses his hands to cover his face... at first Ilya thinks he's always sad/angry/scared when he does that, until he stops whatever he's doing that made Shane laugh and hide because he thinks Shane needs comforting, and gets told off for stopping

But yeah... it does make him hard to read... without being able to see his face a happy shout and angry shout sound similar... Shane has a sound that means 'I am very highly stimulated right now' but sometimes he's happy and just overexcited and sometimes he's on the verge of a meltdown and Ilya has no clue which is which when Shane is hiding like that

He feels awful when he does misstep... I think sometimes little Shane does kind of expect Ilya to be a mind reader in that he thinks papa can do anything and is in control of everything around them so when Ilya tickles him and Shane realises that that hurts, he doesn't really understand that that's not what Ilya was expecting to happen and doesn't understand why Papa would do that to him he should of just known Shane wouldn't like that before he even tried it

Ilya thinks his little shoulder shakes are giggles until he hears wet-snotty-gasping and then he is responding like Shane is gravely injured, checking him over and soothing him, saying papa is so sorry over and over again and suggests Shane should put him in time out which gets Shane giggling

(((When Shane is calmer he decides accidental hurts don't need a time out but Papa should give him a kiss and cuddle to say sorry)))

[manycatsao3]

i miss baby ilya and myshane

Right this second they are baking together (((Ilya is in his high chair with the very important job of banging a spoon on his tray and helping Papa pour things and mix the bowl together)))

[manycatsao3]

Hi hi hi I've had another crazy busy weekend but this time it's been for fun things!!!! I've been at a con!!!

[manycatsao3]

another tooth obsessed shane hc: shane may count ilya’s teeth out loud and tell ilya which is his favorite (sharp canines are the most fun to poke), but he names them in secret and doesn’t tell ilya. one day after lunch, shane tells ilya there’s food on [name] and ilya spends the next 15 mins looking around them for any plushies or blankets that might’ve gotten dirty during their meal, until shane points at his mouth and ilya realizes shane has named for his tooth… possibly tackles him and asks what the other names are!! any ideas what kind of names he would give them?

This is so funny... I'm not sure if he'd go for like themed names like smthng tooth related or beginning with T or just completely random names he likes the sound of

He definitely has favourites, ones that feel best to press his fingers into and one's he can juuuust see when Ilya smiles super big

Sort of side note, but little Shane realising Ilyas dentist visit is going to mean someone else touching his teeth, he's so upset but papa is still going to go and even leave his Shane behind at mama & dada's, so then he's very angry because what if the dentist says he's going to take some of Ilyas teeth??? And shane isnt there to say no???

((When Ilya picks him up he can't even get Shane into the car before he must do a full tooth inspection to make sure the dentist didn't change anything so yuna and David get treated to a full Tooth Time Performance))

[manycatsao3]

your reply to my autism meltdown little!shane ask was so well-thought out and interesting, im so honored!! im so endeared by shane acknowledging ilya’s hold on him as “safe” and asking for it regularly :( would love to hear more thoughts on this if you have any!

I'm glad you liked my reply, I'm often projecting or pulling from experiences of other autistic people in my life, so I'm glad it resonates with other people aswell and not just me

I think they start calling it holding him safe (((I fully got that phrase for restraining someone from a marvel agere fic))) bcs it fits with how Shane understands what is happening in those moments, and tbh it helps Ilya bcs as much as it can be necessary to stop Shane hurting himself and he usually is able to calm down afterwards, he does scream like a banshee for a good 5-10 minutes, Ilya feels incredibly guilty despite this being their agreed on last resort when Shane can't stop injuring himself (he really can't take more concussions than he's already gonna get over his career), so to be able to talk about it as a positive thing that helps rather than something scary that he's doing to Shane also makes Ilya feel a little better

If he can get Shane moved to their newly built soft corner in their gym he will! Shane can kick and punch the floor to his hearts content once he's there, but he DOES NOT make getting through doorways easy on Ilya so sometimes he has to make the assessment that it's not worth risking Shane bashing himself on every wall on the way there

Bonus unrelated autism head canon: I think in an older headspace Shane still gets those intense feelings but he knows shouting and hitting is Against The Rules so he is much more likely to completely shut down, he's at the age where he first started learning to mask, and Ilya doesn't necessarily realise that he isn't actually coping better he's just hiding it better, until it comes out in an almighty meltdown that leaves Ilya's ears ringing and a chair broken

[manycatsao3]

diving into backpack pics head first

shane uses one of those trunk organizers too

I think Shane loooooves an organiser bag he loves to have pockets and different sections he loves having a little bit of everything in all its right places in his trunk and in his Ilya backpack

It's also plain black to be discrete but it's definitely designer Shane 100% would spend $400 on the perfect diaper bag

[penandinkprincess]

blessed with the divine vision that bb shane was a fucking STICKLER for equal application of rules when he was an itty bitty. he'll accept the rules just fine, but they will now be HOUSEHOLD rules.

and most of the time it's fine. shane's bedtime is 7:30 pm because he is so itty bitty, but yuna and david have always just gone to their room after that so bb just assumed they were also following The Time To Sleep rules.

which is all well and good until nana is visiting while staying with her sister, it's 7:40 pm, and she is just cooing and delighted at bb shane just repeating "night NIGHT" over and over from the doorway to the living room because she is not understanding that this is not him being cute and saying goodnight.

this is attempted enforcement of the rules because nana, it is time for NIGHT NIGHT and you are clearly NOT ready for night night, and to TOP IT ALL OFF!! YOU ARE KEEPING MAMA AND DADDY FROM NIGHT NIGHT. RULES!! BROKEN!! RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS LITTLE BABY FACE. >:(

[manycatsao3]

ilya and his russian accent/syntax when hes small is so freaking cute. that one fic where he shows up at yuna and david's and is like "i can please sit inside?" AHHHHHHH he would so talk like that

Yeeeeeeeees I think his language use would simplify a lot and he would revert back to more Russian syntax and jumble up Russian words into his English

He does also talk in like baby babble Russian and get a little frustrated that Shane isn't understanding him just bcs what he's saying is near nonsense and in another language

[manycatsao3]

Just curious if you had and fics in the works??

I do!!!! The one I'm currently working on is a sickfic that's pretty light on the sick and is more about Yuna and David babysitting tiny Ilya, here's an excerpt!

I have another more medical heavy fic percolating but I am focused on finishing this one first....

[manycatsao3]

im back with more medical baby ilyaaaaaaaaaaa

what if ottawa convert one of the med rooms into a little med room for him as a way to try to get him to cooperate during checkups and treatments better!!! ilya is very excited to contribute to decorating his new room until he realizes its the ouchy room. but they have a nice comfy bed in there that is adjustable and medical and soft lights and nice paintings and very importantly all the scary stuff is hidden away. they have many meetings because they need to minimize hospital time for ilya and try to bring the hospital to him after some kind of hospital disaster i am brewing in my head

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Little's care team realise they aren't going to get Ilya to co-operate with check ups with any incentive in the world so they take a new approach - give Little Ilya more ownership over his care

They take over a side room and bring Ilya in to help decorate it, they give him a few options for themes, get him to choose some art to go on the walls and draw his own pictures to add - tiny Ilya finds it very exciting that he's got an entire room to himself that's so fun!!! And he chose an ocean theme and a big octopus to go on the wall and he and shane drew fishies together that got framed!!!

Once the furniture goes in they let Ilya go crazy with sticker packs (theyve put cabinets in but not filled them with medical supplies yet so Ilya can explore them), and get him to try out the bed without telling him what it's for and he has fun playing with the controls to make the bed go up and down and move the head rest, and Shane is being very funny putting the side rail up and playing peekaboo behind it

When he finds out what the room is for he is a little betrayed..... but he likes the sensory lights on the walls and at least if he is going to be Forced to have his injuries checked on its in the fun room instead of the other one everyone else has to use that is noisy and smells kind of funny.....

((((He does also still get to choose a sticker and a sweetie if he's big enough for one after he has to visit medical, he's always teary and usually gets pretty small any time he needs an injury looked at, so honestly half the time he ends up having a cuddle with Shane on the bed and having a little nap))))

[manycatsao3]

my somewhat angsty tooth time headcanon is that when little!shane notices ilya is upset he would try to get him to sit for tooth time, which makes perfect sense bc ilya has to smile for tooth time and smiling = happy right?? also its a comforting ritual for shane so when he’s faced w something he doesn’t know how to deal with i.e. papa’s negative emotions. sometimes ilya acquiesces bc he’s endeared by the ritual and he usually feels better by the time theyre done, especially seeing shane satisfied, but sometimes he’s just not in the mood ;( what to do?

Little shane trying to navigate how to look after Ilya when he can see papa isn't feeling good 💔💔

He wants papa to feel better, feeling happy means smiling, and he HAS to smile for Tooth Time so Shane thinks that will work!! (((And if it also comforts Shane that's just a bonus)))

It can work - being close with his little guy and having Shane take the lead on playing like the and being happy is kind of infectious, it can lift Ilya out of his funk without him even realising it, its not perfect but he often feels more able to face to day with that boost

Honestly I think if Ilya was feeling really bad he'd ask Shane to be his brave boy and spend the day with Yuna and David, it makes Shane sad bcs he wants to stay with Papa extra hard when and try to cheer him up, and kind of rejected bcs why doesnt papa want him today, but Ilya knows if he's struggling to look after himself he can't look after a kid properly and it's not fair to Little Shane to make him feel responsible for Ilyas mental health (definitely remembering his own mama and he doesn't blame her or feel angry at her but he is aware that seeing her mental health decline and the feelings of helplessness had an impact on him) so he'll tell Shane he needs a super big hug to charge him up and keep him going while they're apart, use up the last of his energy to be silly and make Shane laugh even though he's tearing up a bit

Sometimes they'll come over and look after Shane at his house and kind of check in on Ilya make sure he's eating and drinking, and encouraging him to shower and change clothes to feel better, but sometimes he asks them to take Shane for a sleepover so Ilya can have his day of wallowing and try again tomorrow

[misc-agere]

The image of many centaure trying to entertain/ make bby ilya smile and all of them failing even if they are being clowns fr

Baby still teary eyes and pouty

And shane dross the threshold of the room

BOOM BABY BEAMJNG

the games is riggggeeeddd guys

THIS IS MY FAVE CONCEPT EVER Omg lol! The centaurs are pulling the silliest faces, doing the loudest most exaggerated cooing, doing whole slapstick comedy routines between themselves, and baby Ilya is still just blinking at them with tears in his eyes. Then Shane just steps into the room, not even talking yet or anything, and Ilya just blooms like a sunflower immediately and starts smiling and reaching for him, no pout to be found anywhere.

The centaurs are sooooo (playfully) angry like that was literally so rigged Shane didn’t even do a cartwheel like I did wtf 😠 Shane walks up to Ilya and scoops him up immediately obvi like ‘hi baby!’ Once Ilya settles and has had adequate cuddles with Papa, one of the centaurs tentatively tries another silly face and this time Ilya smiles. Bc he feels safe and more open now he’s being held by Shane. So now the competition becomes: who can make the baby laugh first…

[manycatsao3]

thinking about shanes dad backpack for ilya

ilya wont carry it because it doesn’t have toys in it, it has boring dad stuff in it

That bag is Ilya's ENEMY he refuses to interact with it

Papa calls it Ilya's bag but not only does it not have any fun things in it, it has terrible practical things like a change of clothes and diapers 😠 don't need those papa!!! (He keeps offering up alternatives that are also very important to take out like his cars or these 3 random pieces of duplo)

((Shane also keeps a bigger bag of supplies in his car for sudden drops and away games, but the little rucksack is their running around bag with a little bit of everything in it they might need when they're out and about with little Ilya - changing supplies but also emergency snacks and soothers and yes there are a few little baby toys just in case they're needed))