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I’m Misc (naming myself after my username because it seemed fun idk!)

I’ve been writing agere fics for a few years for a few different fandoms but I’m currently very into heated rivalry (please ramble to me omg). Currently reading the books!

If you have requests for short heated rivalry agere ficlets pls send them through! Happy to do either/both regressor Shane and regressor Ilya, have yet to read the TLG so not super familiar with the centaurs team members, hopefully will get to that soon.

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Inspired by me spending a few hours today scrolling through doll furniture.... ilya loves babying his Shane bears right? Him drawing them pacis and swaddling them to like externalise his regression feelings is soooo cute, would he like getting them some play furniture? I've been picturing Shane bear as buildabear adjacent so he'd fit into most brands of doll play sets, especially Melissa and Doug who have a bunk bed set!!! He can put shane bear and polar shane to sleep together!!!! I'd love it as a way for Shane to sort of softly introduce more regression to Ilya by getting pretend toys and sets for the bears and playing out scenes with him, seeing how he reacts to things like a play baby bath set and a cradle for the Shane bears, letting him go through the clothes and watching very intently to see what he picks out (dungarees, onesies, there's a few play diapers in there because shane doesn't know how else to bring that up with Ilya who is very avoidant talking about what he wants when big and little)

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I LOVE DOLL FURNITURE omg!!! And I think ilya would love to get some doll furniture for the shane bears!! I looked up the melissa and doug bunk bed set and obvi had to include a picture bc Omg…

I definitely also picture the shane bears as buildabear adjacent in my head, so I think larger doll furniture and accessories would be great for them! I think I might’ve mentioned this in a post a while ago but I do picture in this verse Shane getting a big tarp that he and Ilya can lay across the floor and transpose their shane bear apartment floorplan onto, so I can definitely see them putting some doll furniture in all of the rooms in their drawing ^-^

I think you’re very right that babying the shane bears is a way for Ilya to externalise his regression feelings, and I love the idea of shane using this to gauge ilya’s reactions to certain things! I am imagining Ilya watching shane move polar shane around the doll kitchen, maybe giving polar shane some pretend food, and Ilya crawling over like ‘no wait, papa! he’s a baby, remember, he needs a bottle…’ and Shane is like in his head ‘okay buy a bottle for baby Ilya, noted ✅’ lol.

LOVE ALL OF THOSE EXAMPLES omg, Shane watching what doll clothes Ilya picks out… 🥺 honestly would be a good way to subtly broach the idea of things like diapers with Ilya bc in Ilya’s head he’s like ‘i am choosing things for the shane bears, who are babies, not myself!! Obviously they need diapers and onesies and pacifiers, they’re babies!! I don’t need those bc i’m a big boy!’ ((Ignoring the fact that u feel like a baby sometimes ilya ummmm….))

Please walk with me I am envisioning…Ilya is regressed and is maybe feeling younger than usual, but is still trying to baby the shane bears…his coordination is a little wobbly and he can’t get the clothes on the shane bears, so Shane comes in and is gently like. ‘Oh here, baby, papa will do it. Getting the babies their onesies, huh?’ Ilya is maybe not as verbal as usual, and he just nods a little and sticks his fingers into his mouth. He watches quietly as Shane dresses the bears and lays them down in their doll bunk bed. Then, once the bear babies are settled, Shane turns to Ilya and he’s tentatively like ‘is it your turn now, baby?’ and Ilya hesitates for a while before giving a really quick nervous little nod and Shane obvi melts and scoops that boy up into his arms to go get him changed. (U just know Shane has a ilya-sized onesie and a packet of diapers stashed away somewhere…mr business man is prepared ok!!)

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i originally wrote this on anon, then i went "fuck it" and too it off bc this is deadass just me projecting onto shane like its my full-time job and im not afraid to project on main🤷🏻

okay, idea:

shane's got that "haircuts fucking SUCK" autism. absolute sensory nightmare. he Copes (barely) as an adult, but as a kid? yeah, yuna learned how to do it herself very quickly in order to minimize her little boy's pain.

well, ilya Does Not Know This, shane's made sure of this bc he finds it Embarassing. then he wakes up in Toddlerspace the morning of his appointment one summer and its Bad. ilya's not sure whats happening, then he checks shane's schedule and connects the dots.

cue snuggles, reassurance, and ilya making the executive decision to cancel shane's appointment.

im not sure what would happen next. would ilya work with shane to find a neurodivergent-friendly barber, or would he take matters into his own hands and learn himself?

Projecting onto characters is very much accepted and also encouraged in this house!!! Projecting makes the world go round in my opinion ^_^ 💫

I really like the idea of Shane learning/re-learning (?) things about himself through his regression! Like maybe there are lots of small sensory things like this Shane struggled with as a kid bc of his autism but learned to kind of grit his teeth through as an adult and now stows away at the back of his mind. It’s still inherently uncomfortable for him to get through but maybe its not something he gives conscious thought to, bc he thinks to himself like, other adults can get through this, he should be able to as well right? And ofc he wouldn’t tell Ilya bc he doesn’t think it’ll be a thing that crops up while regressed, and also bc it feels embarassing.

And so many snuggles and reassurances for the baby once Ilya figures it out ofc! I like to think that Ilya might have quietly noticed other sensory concerns Shane has while little so it wouldn’t have taken him too long to put the dots together ^-^

Ohhhhh I like both of those options! Honestly I feel like Ilya would move the earth to make Shane feel comfortable while big/little though so honestly I can see him doing a crash course on hairdressing and learning to do it himself! (Maybe Yuna gives him some pointers over coffee ^^) It takes a few months of practicing on dummies, but Ilya I think would get it down to a science, and might lowkey get competitive with it to make it as quick as possible (while still being comfortable)…maybe he starts timing himself LOL.

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So um like…that angsty bathroom scene in las vegas at the MLH awards except Shane regresses and Ilya is like Oh Fuck

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Tiny Ilya going to put his sensory cubes he's playing with in his mouth, causing his paci to fall out, and looking to Shane with confused betrayal that this could happen

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i havent seen anyone talk about cg!shane getting cuteness aggression from little!ilya !!!!! when ilya smiles super wide or yawns really loudly or blinks slowly and rubs his eyes lazily, shane gets the craziest bout of cuteness aggression he has to ball his fists up to avoid squeezing ilya’s cheeks or biting him bc hes just so adorable!!!! one day he gives into the urge and pinches ilya’s cheeks after a particularly adorable display and ilya is confused and slightly squirmy under the attention but papa looks so happy pinching his cheeks so surely its a good thing?

bonus points if little!ilya Figures Out through trial and error what gives shane cuteness aggression and he doubles down to see how much he can get away with before shane is chasing him around the house trying to shower him w kisses and pinching his little cheeks!!!!

WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT THIS IMMEDIATELY i agree with you 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ he definitely gets cuteness aggression from little ilya when he's just woken up from his nap because he's so sleepy & wiggly & his eyes are barely open & shane just wants to squeeze him!!!!

ilya is absolutely using this to his advantage too because he's ilya lol. shane wants to make chicken instead of pasta for dinner so ilya pouts & does his puppy eyes & rocks on his feet a little & shane's like ok maybe we can have pasta and chicken..... he literally cannot resist his baby <3

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your autistic little!shane characterization is actually perfect no notes. saying goodbye instead of no 🥺🥺🥺 finger flicking when bad texture 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 flapping hands when excited 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 ilya is so endeared by it!!!!

do you have any other autistic little!shane headcanons?? i would love to hear more of your thoughts!!!!

Ooooh yes always I'm gonna try not to repeat myself bcs I've talked about autistic Shane in a few posts

I picture Shane regressing around 4-6 and when he was an actual child he didn't really start speaking until almost 5, and that was mostly because as he was starting school speech therapists became more involved and started introducing alternative/augmented communication methods and for Shane who was previously very happy with his family knowing what he wants from expression and gestures and mostly just anticipating his habits and preferences and Did Not Like being made to take the extra step to choose things from pictures, that was all very inconvenient to him so it was worth talking, but his speech remained very functional rather than conversational, and that carries over into regression so he can answer questions about food and what he wants to do, but he doesn't have any interest in conversations and struggles to verbalise his feelings, which Ilya is always learning to be better at helping him with but definitely leads to a few meltdowns when Shane can't explain what he got up to that morning before seeing Ilya let alone why he's frustrated or necessarily understand for himself that's what he's feeling

Textures are difficult for him - in theory he's the perfect age for so much messy play but he really doesn't like touching things that are wet, slimy, or grainy which puts most sensory activities for his age out But! He does love building and arranging things and has fun playing with sand if he has disposable gloves on

In general he likes putting things in order and arranging scenes rather than more traditional imaginative play - he builds the same sand castle every time, he draws the same pictures, and builds the same square buildings with his Duplo, and he has a blast setting up a big wooden train track and putting all the scenery down in juuust the right place, but once he's done that and Ilya expects they're now going to push the trains around and play taking the passengers to the different shops and parks Shane goes 'finished!' And just walks away because he's had his fun

Happiness is a full body movement for Shane, wiggling his hips and shoulders, hands flapping and feet stomping, and often shreiks before he laughs bcs he's so full up with happy feelings it just comes out as Loudness at first. Adult Shane masks his reactions so much that I think it comes out twice as big when he's little and for Ilya who is used to Shane just being very quiet and contained about everything it just makes him so determined to make Shane that happy and comfy around him all the time

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Adding onto the idea of Babymaxxing shane loving ilya talking to him in Russian - I feel like Shane would like it a lot because he doesn’t understand as much as what’s Ilya’s saying in Russian - especially when he’s talking really fast. He just hears Ilya’s voice speaks to him and it makes him feel even littler because he doesn’t need to try to understand what Ilya is saying to him - he’s just a baby!!

Yes exactly you see my vision!!!!!! I characterise Shane as typically regressing to older toddler little kid range so when he is feeling baby he really wants to switch off and have minimal input to what's going on - he picks up basic words and recognises his nicknames from Ilya but mostly he's just following the rhythm of Ilya talking to him over trying to understand the words, and babbles back exploring these new sounds in no particular order

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Little!Ilya 🏒

🏒 Those big eyes are getting ANYTHING, but he doesn’t actually ask for much anyways ⭐️ “Ilya, can we not put the dinosaurs on my laptop while I’m answering an important email? I’ll be done in just a second, okay?” 🖍️ Forces Shane to play DS games with him, also will be giggling to himself on the couch while his and Shane’s tomodachi life characters fight 🍊 “How about we swim some of this energy out before bed, buddy?” ⛸️ probably lands around 6-12 most of the time! 🥅

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#he wants to bite shane SO BAD

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"i missed you shark anon!!!" AWWWW made my night 🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈 hallo!!! Small and melancholic shanon here pondering hollanov in my orb

Specifically thinking about the agreed fact Shane definitely doesn't tell Ilya when he's hurting until he's small and in tears

I think Shane has some mild hyper mobility (lots of autistic people do) and every now and then it causes soreness/bad pain in his joints but he's used to it (brushed off as "growing pains" until he was like 19) so when he's having pains when small he goes thru a thought process of Oh, Ouchie -> It's Not That Bad -> I Want Comfort -> I Don't Need It -> Ouchie, but I'm Fine For Now until it's just too much to handle when he's so little and he's bawling his eyes out suddenly.

I imagine it's specifically bad in his hands, back and legs from hockey. An Advil/CBD oil help and is usually coupled with Ilya cocooning Shane comfortably, warm presses to whatever hurts and kisses all over his head. Very long, warm bath and crying it out if it's bad. An edible when it's the worst or if Shane just doesn't want to deal with it, which is never a bad solution when he's giggly and wiggly in his cocoon 10 minutes later.

Maybe sometimes the pain is enough to make Shane snappy, and when he's being bratty randomly Ilya will first bend down to him and gently prod; what's wrong with my boy? Hm? Is it your bones? You know we can fix, if it hurts please let me help. Shane's not used to being believed so easily like that, he always gets teary eyed when Ilya figures out all his secrets

OK had so many thoughts here BYEBYE!!! 🦈🦈🦈

Hehe its true!!! ^-^ 🦈🦈🦈 thank you for emerging from your orb to give these thoughts!!

This is one of my fave most canon agreed facts 🤝 (sorry Shane i promise i don’t like to see u hurt but the hurt/comfort opportunities…there are so much!)

OMG Especially like what you’ve described with the mild hypermobility and joint pain, like that combined with the low level pain he probably has from various hockey injuries in various stages of healing…ESPECIALLY if its like during the playoffs when a lot of players just kinda grit through and play through the injuries/pain??

That cycle of Shane having the pains :(( even while little a lot of his instincts to bury the pain as far down as he can so it doesn’t impact his performance or responsibilities are still there, its only when he fully regresses or regresses quite young that suddenly everything is just suddenly Very Wrong and very ouchie and the pain feels too big for his body and very inescapable/suffocating.

Ilya cocooning Shane <3 the warm bath to help Shane unclench and then that lack of tension suddenly makes him too tired to choke back his tears and then suddenly hes crying it out and Ilya gets it and lets him <3 the edible if the pain is super bad <3 I have nothing coherent to add to this its just very sweet omg 💔 once shane has had the edible he is giggly and wiggly and sometimes he gets a lil too wiggly and accidentally hits a tender spot or feels a twinge with a certain movement, but ilya has gotten very good at knowing when to hug shane and press in on him gently to help relieve some of shane’s restlessness without him accidentally hurting himself more.

Omgomg Shane getting frowny and snappy and kinda conflicted bc on the one hand why is Ilya prodding about this its not a big deal hes fine okay!! Hes been handling this for years he can handle this!! but on the other hand hes kinda touched and emotional and he feels kinda vulnerable when ilya can read him so well, and the gentle prodding often ends with tears </3

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Currently thinking about cg Shane having a few drinks at a team gathering, buzzed and maybe slightly drunk, and a lot of his usual filters just disappearing. So when he gets home to Ilya, Ilya is alarmed (and slightly flustered wait what who said that) when Shane has none of his usual tentativeness when it comes to caregiving and is just straight up babying Ilya like no tomorrow.

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Shane so rarely drinks enough to get buzzed so when he does its like Notable how different he's being, I think it's similar to being high on pain meds he's going up to Ilya cupping his face going 'Hiiiiiii my baby' so happy to see him and Ilya is bright red about to combust

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YES YES YES! Ilya spends so long the following few weeks complaining abt how ‘smothering’ Shane had been while drunk but Ilya privately can’t stop thinking about it and then one night hes really struggling to regress and he hesitantly sidles up to Shane and he’s like… ‘Shane……remember how you were being when you were drunk……’ and Shane is suddenly fighting back a smile bc he knows what Ilya is about to ask for. Ilya sees that smile and is like ‘nevermind.’ and Shane is like no!!!!!! what was it!!!!!!

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When Ilyas in babymaxxing mode I feel like Shane would try to feed him soft foods that he can eat (yogurt, bananas, smushed up food) and Shane would make like his own version of like simple baby foods so Ilya could snack on and feed it to him when he has no hand eye cordination to hold the spoon and Ilya’s so giggly the whole time cause Shanes tryna get him to eat and being like “baby look it’s good” and everytime Ilya would turn away Shane would make a face which would make baby Ilya laugh😭😭 but once he manages to give him a bite he’s tryna get more

OMGG Yes absolutelyy anon, Shane would definitely make his own baby food for Ilya, he will also make himself the big equivalent of the food bc sometimes Ilya is more likely to eat something if he sees Shane eating it too ^_^ so Shane will cut up a banana into pieces for himself and then mush up a banana, maybe with some peanut butter, for Ilya.

Also love the idea of Shane trying to get Ilya to eat when Ilya is in a giggly mood 😭 Shane is trying very hard to be serious and coaxing like ‘c’mon baby, it’s good, see? its healthy, it’ll help you grow strong.’ But whenever Ilya starts to giggle Shane starts to smile a little bit despite himself and Ilya interprets this as ‘oh Papa is just being silly!‘ And it just becomes a cycle LOL. But once Ilya finally gets a taste hes like ‘oh wait papas right this is actually yummy’ and suddenly Shane faces a new challenge — trying to get Ilya to slow down so he doesn’t get food all over his face…

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So excited for the next chapter of your littles are known AU! Is it spoilers to ask if we get any of Yuna/David babysitting Ilya? Have either of them had a little before? The way Ilya reacted when Shane said he hadn’t made me think that’s sort of unusual for caregivers in this AU? Would love to hear any thoughts!

Ahh I’m so happy you’re enjoying the fic anon! :D I am trying to avoid giving spoilers so I think I will have to plead the fifth on the first question….but I’m very happy to give thoughts on the second one! :3

In my head Ilya’s surprise at Shane not having a little before is moreso based on his perception of Shane’s image — at this point he kinda knows Shane doesn’t have a lot of experience with caregiving, but he’s still slightly surprised that Shane hasn’t had a little considering that this might be considered a ‘typical’ experience for caregivers. But I don’t necessarily see it being unusual for a cg not to have a little, as there a range of ways cgs can fulfill their instincts. For example, in my head a lot of cg players on NHL teams fulfill their instincts by babysitting regularly for the littles on their teams. I see Marleau fitting into this category, and I also see Yuna and David falling into this general category especially once Ilya is in the picture and living close by in Ottawa! Of course, maybe once cg players retire they might want to develop a relationship with a little, I’m sure these decisions differ based on the cg’s circumstances. I could honestly see either Yuna or David having little(s) at some point in their lives, but I think having Shane and caring for shane would also settle their instincts too, like I think for some cgs it wouldn’t necessarily have to be a little, it could kid(s).

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Currently thinking about cg Shane having a few drinks at a team gathering, buzzed and maybe slightly drunk, and a lot of his usual filters just disappearing. So when he gets home to Ilya, Ilya is alarmed (and slightly flustered wait what who said that) when Shane has none of his usual tentativeness when it comes to caregiving and is just straight up babying Ilya like no tomorrow.