mapletree-DID @mapletree-did - Tumblr Blog

Hey! My main blog is @mapletree-starry-eyed-dreamers so that's where I follow from.

Figuring out how to exist together, hopefully will post art and comics about DID but for now will probably largely be reblogs.

We struggle with how much info to put on here bc #internetprivacy

We accepted being a system about 5 years ago

We old (30s)

#did system #no syscourse

theweathersystem

so, so terrified

but still alive.

theweathersystem

it's raining somewhere else

quest-system

hoping for acceptance, expecting the judgement

comstelic

this happened like 2 months ago but i need her to come back i still haven't learnt how to lock in and write an essay 😭

akindplace

it’s so cool when you vibe with someone and you feel like you have stuff in common with them and it turns out that you do have shared interests with them. It’s like my own sim’s social bar expanding

elumish

There is an odd thing I see in books sometimes where a character who is defined by their steadfast loyalty to a person or organization is presented with one (1) piece of evidence against them and immediately changes their mind.

I was just reading a book where a character is deeply loyal to the royal family despite being their literal whipping girl, but she immediately decides that the king must be a bad ruler the first time she sees poverty exists. And he is--but it's weird that the 15 years of being whipped didn't convince her but the existence of poor people did.

It often reads like a plot-convenient way of having a character change their mind without having to do any of the actual work or spend any actual time on what it means for them to change their mind. But it also often rings false--we know for a fact that people with deeply held beliefs are often not convinced no matter how much evidence they see to the contrary, much less because one piece of evidence was presented to them.

grounded-gryphon

Writing partner and I were recently working on a piece that involved a character escaping brainwashing like that and we had a convo about this exact thing. Because I thought the character need more than one thing to break the brainwashing, and partner, who has actual experience escaping a cult she grew up in, said something very interesting. 'Not if there were cracks.'

She went on to explain how for her, there had always been little things about the cult that bothered her, but she excused them, pushed them aside, papered them over in her own mind. And then one thing happened. One very specific thing that went directly contrary to all the things the cult taught her.

And that one thing put enough pressure on her belief that all those cracks... exploded and she lost faith in the cult practically overnight. And the thing is, from my outsider perspective, it was like one day I talked with her and she was true believer, and the next time religion came up she was an ex- and talking about how she'd just recognized this thing about how harmful her former religion was.

I knew another man, briefly, who grew up evangelical protestant, spent more than half his life living and proselytizing as a true believer, then one day just... stopped. He said that he had always had doubts, never really believed, but he pushed all those doubts and disbeliefs down and acted all the more fervent to prove to himself that he was a good Christian. Until one day he realized what he was doing and... was done.

Now, with writing, we truly hope an author is good enough to convey this kind of internal conflict, but when someone spends half their life suppressing these kinds of things, it can be very hard to see even from the 'inside', because hiding it from themselves is the whole point. And when aren't talking about a PoV character or are in a real world situation...

Not long ago, i would have agreed with you. Now I can say that actually, sometimes I can be 'just one thing' -- or at least look that way because all the little things that came before are so small they're invisible.

ellierenae

God, I didn't even need to reblog with ny addition; you absolutely had it covered. Screenshotting and putting it here so they can be together.

I also want to say that this doesn't mean, to me, that we shouldn't take this note as writers. If fiction were completely realistic, there would have been a lot more bathroom breaks in Homer's Odyssey, but we take liberties to get to emotional truths rather than things that absolutely totally could have happened that way. Loved reading both the original post and your addition.

thrivingwhilemultiple

To Dig or Not to Dig

In the beginning, we were curious. Impatient. Diagnostically on the right path and ready to charge forward, desperate to uncover as much as we could as quickly as possible. We wanted to tap the glass. To throw caution off the cliff and fling open all the doors to release all the information. To get answers to all the forever questions: Why am I this way? Why were we? What do these memories mean?…

sys-and-that

oursystemblog

not even gonna question it

oursystemblog

How bad do you all have it in the shared "I bought the snack and someone else swiped it when I wasn't fronting" experience of plurality? (/Silly)

Personally i think it's extremely funny when someone gets a snack and then another alter fronts by accident/because of something completely unrelated and they're just like "Oops,"

oursystemblog

really funny problem to have

oursystemblog

sure

cheaphalloweencostume

CPTSD constantly has me acting so cartoonishly stupid. hello my partner of 4 years who has literally never so much as raised their voice in my direction, i heard you doing dishes a little louder than usual in the other room. are you going to kill me?