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[calebwittebane]

i come from a long line of guys who had something wrong with them

[talonabraxas]

A gentle path in the marsh

[70sscifiart]

Three artworks on the same theme, by Hiroo Isono, likely from the 70s or early 80s.

Thanks to @jca-archive for the third scan - the others are from this insta and this company.

[raeiyyn]

thinking about this excerpt from giovanni's room as i lay in bed staring at the ceiling endlessly

[bi-enad]

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"I had thought of suicide when I was much younger, as, possibly, we all have, but then it would have been for revenge, it would have been my way of informing the world how awfully it made me suffer. But the silence of the evening, as I wandered home, had nothing to do with that storm, that far-off boy. I simply wondered about the dead because their days had ended and I did not know how I would get through mine."

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[mewwon]

no literally when you can’t even blog about it

[apoemaday]

Hurry

by Marie Howe

We stop at the dry cleaners and the grocery store and the gas station and the green market and Hurry up honey, I say, hurry, as she runs along two or three steps behind me her blue jacket unzipped and her socks rolled down.

Where do I want her to hurry to? To her grave? To mine? Where one day she might stand all grown? Today, when all the errands are finally done, I say to her, Honey I'm sorry I keep saying Hurry — you walk ahead of me. You be the mother.

And, Hurry up, she says, over her shoulder, looking back at me, laughing. Hurry up now darling, she says, hurry, hurry, taking the house keys from my hands.

[connaisseuse]

[viagginterstellari]

Fjaðrárgljúfur Canyon, 2020

[reallyreallyreallytrying]

new piece on INFINITE GOSSIP. I HAVE LEFT YOU FOREVER. check it out

[hyumjim]

Starting a collection

[hyumjim]

[mappedriver]

i am undergoing some sort of personal hell where everything good in my life is turned bad

[tpwrtrmnky]

Girl who's like "oh but I don't want to be the one who says no to everything all the time" vs environment that routinely asks for lots of her time to be spent on things she gets nothing out of when she's already struggling to keep up with the stuff she actually likes.

[tpwrtrmnky]

"Don't just say no to everything" is useful advice if you're missing out on new experiences and getting stuck in your comfort zone but it stops being useful when it results in a situation where you can reliably be talked into doing stuff you know you don't want to if someone just nags you about it

[tpwrtrmnky]

The little voice saying "just this one time can't hurt" is lying to you because it's not just going to be the one time, the one time is going to set a precedent that will lead to more times. The word no exists for a reason. Use it.

[tpwrtrmnky]

This post is especially for various neurodivergent/disabled people who grew up being pushed to do more than they had capacity for all the time and guilted out of asserting their limits constantly.

You are allowed to say no, and you should do it quicker and more often.

[redstonedust]

got a lovehate relationship with routine and repetition. yes if you put me in a repetitive situation i will start chewing on myself like a caged animal. but also no if you interrupt my self imposed routines i will start crying. this has made me so super good at being in the workforce #trust

[bonivers]

(girl who is already extremely private) i think i need to Move In More Silence

[mossy-cobble]

crazy how i find myself thinking i've got a handle on it all finally and then i see the ways that other people tangle their lives together so easily and live so easily together with their friends and i feel like that girl at the top of the stairs painting by norman rockwell

[mossy-cobble]

i'll always be here

[wovi]

[orrinivalis]