Sick and Tired.

I'm So Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired. I'm Marcus Blake. I'm nineteen years old. I'm from Washington DC. I have a little sister named Bonnie, and a twin brother named Patrick. I'm a Yale drop-out, and I don't want to talk about it. Somebody turn the lights on. Somebody tell me what's wrong.

[stitchingtheredstring]

Too cute for this world.

[jacelynnroberts-blog]

“No, not really. I mean, I guess not. Nothing new. Decent listeners are always the best to talk to though, I’ll remember that.”

[marcus-blake]

“I figured I’ve done plenty of complaining about my life, so I should return the favor and offer my ears to someone else. I’m usually around if you change your mind, or at least... I hope to be around.”

[jacelynnroberts-blog]

“Oh.” Jace laughed, shrugging a shoulder. “I’m fine. I was just thinking about… everything, I guess. Sorry about that.”

[marcus-blake]

“It’s okay, don’t worry about it. Anything you want to talk about? I’m a pretty decent listener, I think.”

[jacelynnroberts-blog]

“I’m… I’m sorry, I totally zoned out. What was that?”

[marcus-blake]

“Nothing too important. I was just asking if you were alright because I noticed the whole totally zoned out look.”

[thehollowprince]

[thebohenarchive]

[dancingluckyducky17]

[dailyhollandroden]

[madinorton-blog]

“Is that really what you think?” She shook her head. “Marcus, you gained strength and patience. You gained me.”

[marcus-blake]

“Yeah, that’s exactly what I think. Yeah, I’ve gained some friends, but that’s the worst part. That just means I have that much more to lose in a few months when I die in some hospital. And I’m far from strong, trust me.”

[lockie-byers-blog]

Lockie didn’t dare look at Marcus, he bit down on his lip and stared away from him trying to put into words what he needed to say, it was important he had to be honest with him. “Marcus…” He mumbled, turning his head to look at him. “I got Jordy pregnant.”

[marcus-blake]

Marcus looked at Lockie, his eyebrows moving together in confusion as he watched him. Something seemed to be bothering Lockie, and when Lockie finally spoke Marcus felt like his heart had stopped entirely.He was shocked and couldn’t help the sadness that swept over him. “Oh.” He uttered simply, slowly withdrawing his hand and setting it on his lap instead. “Are you and her together?”

[marcus-blake]

[dudes-on-demand-deactivated2016]

[marcus-blake]

I'm going to fix things. I have to. I want to.

What are you talking about? Fix what?

[mrssylargray]

[madinorton-blog]

“Because if it was easy, we will never learn. When things fall apart, maybe it wasn’t meant to be. Stop being upset about what you lost, and just focus on what you gained.”

[marcus-blake]

“It’s hard to focus on what you’ve gained when you haven’t gained anything.”

[madinorton-blog]

“You sound like me before I got here. There were so many things I diidn’t know how to do, but I tried anyway. That’s the best way you can learn.”

[marcus-blake]

“Why does life have to be so damn complicated? I just- I want to go back to being a healthy, happy Yale student with a completely functional family. It all fell apart so fast and I’ll never get any of it back.”

[lockie-byers-blog]

Lockie didn’t talk for a while, he just stared away. “When you saw me, that day when I was drunk and I lashed out at you. I got an email from the guy in my story. I’m pretty sure his wife rejected him and he wanted me because He thought i’d take him back.” He said with a sigh. “I was angry at the world and I shouldn’t have taken it out on you, just because I lashed out, didn’t mean that I didnt’ care, I always cared. You’re the first person that I’ve cared about here Marcus.” He admitted looking up at him.

[marcus-blake]

Marcus held Lockie’s hand, gently squeezing it as he listened to Lockie’s words. “I understand.” Marcus said quietly, looking at Lockie in return. “I promised myself I wouldn’t... end up caring about anyone the way I care about you. But, here we are.” Marcus laughed quietly, then let out a slow sigh. “I know it’s terrifying to care about someone, but there’s nothing to be afraid of with me. Except for, you know, the obvious. You don’t have to deal with those things alone, you can talk to me about them, let me help you.”