Strange, but familiar
Well, I figured that I pop in on tumblr to maybe get back into blogging... as if anyone really reads these things anyway. Life has changed so much since coming back into some area of self-reflection. I am able to work my dream job that fulfills me high school dream, which was to be a part of the cure for cancer. I fight cancer as my day job, and I am proud of the work that I do. Perhaps not for the company itself, but I show up because I want to. I get to make a difference, sure getting paid is nice, but it’s the gratification that I get from helping others. I don’t have to meet them to want to help them, just as I don’t have to know anyone to want to help them. Yikes, my co-dependence is showing.
Anyhow, I think that blogging is essentially easier for me to do since journaling and my hands can’t really withstand writing as much as I want to say. I guess this is the medium. Will it ever amount to anything? Probably not, but it’s a way for me to fully express myself through words and or any images that I can relate to. Perhaps I should post to reddit... or just here is fine. I don’t know. But this is another start to a road that hopefully leads to a better version of myself. I will accept that things can exist out of my control. I will forgive myself for the harm I have caused myself and others. I will love myself for my past, in the present and in the future. I will grow. I will change. Everyday will present new challenges, but I will always get back up. Some days it might be difficult, but i will always rise to the occasion.
