Closure
It's funny that the last post I made here was three years ago, may of 2018, but feels like an eternity.
This tumblr served today the purpose of a memoir of what I was and what I was thinking back then. I was scared, depressed, anxious, lonely, lost, and not conscious about it on a surface level, deep down I knew.
To past me, thank you. Thanks for being strong but also vulnerable, thanks for making decisions and owning them, thanks for finding out who we are, thanks for keeping things real, thanks for the friends we made, thanks for the experiences we went through, thanks for the pain, thanks for the lessons.
To past me, don't be scared of reaching out for help. Don't think that therapy is reserved for people who "need it more than you do", it's not and we need it. Stop thinking that you're lonely, you're not. Stop thinking that life starts, ends and revolves around one person, it doesn't. You'll met the most amazing people, they will become your support circle, and that will teach you a new form of unconditional love.
To past me, release, move on and don't be scared. In time you'll realize that we are always changing, always moving, always rebuilding and improving ourselves. Tastes change and soon you'll realize that many things you thought were "fixed in life" will change too and it's ok, it's needed.
To past me, love is what makes the world move. Don't be afraid of giving it all, don't hesitate when you finally got it in front of your eyes, don't think you know it all, there's so much to learn, to love, to give.
You won't die of a broken heart even if you think you will, and when the time is right you'll forgive your past and will learn that the biggest revolution is to love yourself first, then everything will fall into place and you'll reach peace at last.
