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Maria Tonks. Mother to Cecilia Walsh and Sebastian Walsh.

[scanlanwalsh]

Tainted Love | Scanlan + Maria

[mariatonks-blog]

scanlanwalsh:

Taking her hand, he smiled slightly. “I know. I’ll help, when we do.” They’d have to find a sitter for Sebastian, that wouldn’t be too difficult. Though, mostly everyone in town wanted to help find the others. He wasn’t sure Wanda would be able to do it. For emotional reasons, physical reasons. Not knowing what the outcome would be. Another reason for Scanlan to go, to do it for Wanda. He would have done so anyways, but he needed to get Tabi and Lila out of there safely. Legion, too. They were his family. Sebastian got much of his looks from both parents. Eyes from Maria, like Cecilia had. Lips from Scanlan. Hair, well, Scanlan wasn’t quite sure yet. When she brought up his sister, he raised his eyebrows. “She doesn’t remember much, other than escaping. Memories slowly come back. I don’t know if she knows what she did, and I don’t want to tell her. But it’s going to come back to her eventually.” Sybil was getting better, but he knew when what she did came back to her, it’d be a nightmare. Difficult for both of them to deal with. He wasn’t ready for it. Sebastian’s sudden crying startled Scanlan a bit, he looked as crying child. “Is he alright?” He asked, a huge hint of concern in his voice.

“That could be it.” He wasn’t sure, but it was a possibility. “I’m going to start coming over more often. Be a better Father to him.”

She laughed lightly when Sebastian burped, the sound always made her giggle. “You’re an amazing father no matter what.” Maria stated, smiling at her ex. Once Sebastian seemed to have calmed down she sat him on the floor, allowing him to sit in his pillow-like chair. “That’s good and bad though, when the time comes for her to remember at least she’ll have you.” The Walsh siblings were extremely close, and they showed it in every way. It was nice because they normally showed that loyalty to others as well. 

Maria knitted her brows together and leaned back on the couch, her gaze still on Scanlan. “So...about those texts from the other day...” She spoke softly - normally she would throw some jokes out but this time she was very serious. It could have been a spur of the moment thing, or it could be real. Either way she still wasn’t sure what to do with that information.

[scanlanwalsh]

Tainted Love | Scanlan + Maria

[mariatonks-blog]

scanlanwalsh:

Obviously, he missed it there. Being with Maria, with their son. Cecilia hadn’t lived there for a while now she was with Scully, now. It was hard for him to believe. “I missed you both.” He repeated himself, looking over at her. With few of their pack gone, it was tough. Incredibly tough. He yearned for things to be normal again. He didn’t want to lose anyone in the process, either. He could use a gun fairly well, Scully had taught him. He missed talking to Tabi. Having deep conversations with her, or asking for advice, like he normally had. Tabi was great with those things, with mostly everything. 

“Not much, really.” Scanlan shrugs his shoulders, he really just hung around. Watched after his sisters. He lived with all women, he was used to that by now. All women related to him, though, was strangely new to him. “I have, it’s hard to know where the place is. How to get there, what to do.” He had been there, but there wasn’t much that he remembered. They put him on some kind of medication, leaving empty spots in his memory. Even how he got out was beyond him. He stands up, going and sitting next to Maria. He leaves Sebastian in his bouncer, looking over at his son and smiling.

When he sat next to her, she turned and met his eyes. “I wish we had exact directions but I’m willing to go without them. They need us.” As soon as that statement slipped out of her mouth her mind began to race - what if they didn’t need them? What if they were already gone? Maria shook her head, the thought sickened her. The pack was pure family, even those who didn’t share the same blood. She got rid of the thoughts as best as she could and looked at Sebastian, bouncing around. He was beautiful, and reminded her so much of his father. “How is your sister?” Mar questioned, genuinely curious. The thought of Sybil being back still concerned her but as long as she was getting better it would be okay. Scanlan kept watch and Maria trusted him. Biting her lower lip she got up and picked up Sebastian, crying about something. He cried a lot, actually, and she had no clue why. Maria tried searching things on the internet and asking the local doctor’s but they all said it was typical baby behavior, but her motherly instinct said there was something deeper there.

“I think he misses you.” She said softly, then quickly added, “Not a guilt thing, I just feel like that’s his problem right now.”

[scanlanwalsh]

Tainted Love | Scanlan + Maria

[mariatonks-blog]

scanlanwalsh:

He was stressed out, to say the least. Dealing with that stress was tough, he wondered if he should go to a psychiatrist. He had Sybil go to one, to try to understand what had happened to her. Whatever that was. He wanted to piece it together like a puzzle, to know what really happened. It didn’t make sense. His sister was a good person, they all knew that. She hid her feelings, but he had always been able to see through her. So, what was it? What caused what had happened? There had to be something, something that made her do what she did. He couldn’t think about it in full. It was too difficult, too painful. He wanted everything to go back to the way it had been. As soon as he saw Maria, he smiled. He wasn’t sure if she’d answer, but she did. “Hey.” He missed her smile. He thought about it often, pictured it, went through old photographs that he had taken of her over the years.

He nodded to her when she told him to come in, and he did exactly that. Sebastian was in the bouncer, and Scanlan went over to him, crouching down in front of his son. Maria was certainly the better parent, Scanlan was eternally grateful for her. It seemed like Sebastian got bigger everyday. It was just making Scanlan feel old, really. He smiled at his son, then looked back to Maria, standing to his feet. He turned to her, approaching slowly. “I’ve missed you two.” Really, he had. He was trying to look for a better job than the one at the cafe, though he loved it. He could find one that paid better, so that he could support his family. Like he was supposed to. He felt awful, as if he had turned his back on them. He hadn’t, he really hadn’t. He cherished them more than anything. Maria was bound to be mad at him for not being around lately.

She could see the tension in his body, something she had come to know fairly easily through the years. Maria watched as Scanlan went to Sebastian, her lips forming into a smile. It was nice to see him in this house again with their son - almost like old times. “We’ve all missed you here.” Mar sat down on the couch, crossing her legs as she did so. Recently Cecilia had been watching her little brother and Maria had been working with Margo Emmerson on fighting technique. It had been a while since she’d encountered a real fight and needed some lessons, especially if she planned on rescuing so many of the pack that were taken. The days felt like years without them, especially Tabitha. Tabi kept it light and happy, and without her it was tough trying to smile.

“What have you been up to?” Maria questioned, looking him in the eyes. She missed talking to him, even the dumb conversations about who left the cap off of the toothpaste - it was normally her. “I’m sure you’ve heard of the rescue plan that isn’t really much of a plan.” A laugh escaped her lips, a quiet one though. It was rare to hear a laugh around anyone anymore, though.

[scanlanwalsh]

Tainted Love | Scanlan + Maria

He was living in Sybil’s house.

The same house that got abandoned as soon as his older sister went missing. Assumed dead, he found the body; it was her body, he remembered. The more he thought about it, the more confused he got. The more the memories seemed to changed. He couldn’t think about it, now. Sybil wasn’t living with Scully and Cecilia anymore, Scanlan was living under Sybil’s old roof with her. Putting the pieces of his big sister back together. Maria was still upset about the whole ordeal. So was he. He never showed it, he defended his sister, but he was. He was confused, more than anything. He sought out answers. 

Instead of bringing Maria to him, he decided to go visit her. Everyone was still missing, so shortly after Wanda and Tabi’s wedding; that they had both attended. It was hard to believe, it seemed like so long ago. Everyone disappeared two months ago. The two felt empty, eerily quiet. It wasn’t the same town he moved into however many years ago it was. He sometimes wandered the streets at night, took photos of the lights, the stars. Admittedly, he was lonely. He had his family, still, and somehow that wasn’t enough.

He approached her front door, pausing for a moment. He didn’t know what he was going to say, or what he was going to do. They still loved each other. That deep love that formed when they first started dating, it hadn’t left. Maybe it was stresses that separated them, Charolette entering his life. Sighing, he knocked on the door, waiting for her answer. Hoping she would answer.

[mariatonks-blog]

The feelings of everything that had happened the past few months were still as strong as ever, and Maria wasn’t quite sure how to deal with them. She wanted to find her pack, to save them, but it wasn’t that easy. On one hand, they needed an organized plan to go in, otherwise they would fail. Another problem was her son, Sebastian. Maria refused to leave him now more than ever. Everyone was on edge, and they had every reason to be that way. When she heard the knock on the door, she put Seb into his bouncer and checked through the peep hole, then opened it. “Hi.” She stated simply, a small smile forming on her lips. Scanlan had that power over her, the same power boybands had over most teenage girls. He made her weak, which was a good and a bad thing.

Mar was aware that he was staying with Sybil, which admittedly made her feel uncomfortable. At one point in time, Maria loved her as her own sister, but that was until she attempted to murder her daughter and brother-in-law. Scanlan was more forgiving, knew of her struggles, loved her despite them. She wished deeply that she could be that way, that she could be perfectly okay with her and forgive her for what she did, but for some reason every time she thought of it, it made her sick. Though Sybil was the least of her worries for now, so she decided not to bring it up or argue with Scanlan.”Come in.” Maria spoke softly, moving to the side as she gave him room to enter.

[mariatonks-blog]

Texts » Maria.

Scanlan: Please.

Scanlan: I don't know why I'm stating the obvious.

Maria: Well what are we going to do with this information?

[mariatonks-blog]

Texts » Maria.

Scanlan: I still love you.

Maria: I still love you, but both knew that already.

[scanlanwalsh]

Guess so.

[mariatonks-blog]

You don’t have to leave the house. Jace won’t be coming around.

[j-rivenburgh]

[mariatonks-blog]

Yeah, me too. I’m not the one who needs to hear that though.

[deathfools]

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Jesus, exactly. I could have done that to Jace when we were kids, but I didn’t. I kept my cool. If you love him, you gotta let him know, girl. I still think he’s confused, Scanlan is. I’m going to stand by that opinion.

[mariatonks-blog]

I can’t, I’m not going to confuse him further or ruin her life. But I know, we’ve all fucked each other over.

[j-rivenburgh]

I’m not strong enough to forget, Maria. I can’t. You think I don’t want to be able to forgive him? You think I don’t want to end this? No matter how hard I try, I can’t. He ends up running his fucking mouth and I end up breaking bones. He and I are fire and ice.

[mariatonks-blog]

Everyone has the ability to move on and forgive, you’re choosing not to.

[scanlanwalsh]

Neither of us are over it.

[mariatonks-blog]

Well there’s nothing for us to do now. It’s over, whether we’re over it.

[deathfools]

Me, too.

On a more serious note, I’m worried that Jace will kill Scanlan one day. Scanlan’s body refuses lycanthropy, but Jace’s doesn’t. With the lycanthropy, Jace will always be stronger. Sebastian, his neice, they depend on him. But that little girl, she solely depends on him.

[mariatonks-blog]

I will never let that happen. Ever.

I’m still completely in love with Scanlan, and I resent that little red head with everything in me, but I’m not over there attacking her. I just don’t understand how his mind works sometimes.

[j-rivenburgh]

Oh, it ended. At least, I hope it did. He apologized. Granted, it took a little brutal force, but he apologized nonetheless. Is that gonna stop me from hating him? No. No, I’m not good enough of a man to stop hating him. I always going to unequivocally hate him. I just hate him less now.

[mariatonks-blog]

You’re acting ridiculous. So many people here have screwed each other over it’s not even funny anymore, we all move on. If we didn’t, everyone would be on the verge of killing one another all the time.

[scanlanwalsh]

Maria… It wasn’t something I planned on happening.

[mariatonks-blog]

Well I’d hope not, otherwise I would have at least liked a months notice. [She gives a laugh, clearly mockingly] You know what, I’m sorry. I’m over it, or that’s what I’ve been saying.

[deathfools]

You’re good enough for me, girl.

[mariatonks-blog]

Good, that makes me happy.

[j-rivenburgh]

No.

[mariatonks-blog]

Yes. No matter what, Scanlan didn’t deserve that. Just like he has never deserved the treatment he has gotten from you. I love you both, now both in a pack-friend way, but still. The fight has got to end.

[scanlanwalsh]

He’s been targeting me since I moved here, Maria. Since I met you. When is it going to end? When I leave? I can’t leave any of you. You’re all my family. I can’t leave without Sava, which means Ronan comes along. Scully, which means Cecilia comes along. We can’t all turn against one another.

[mariatonks-blog]

I’ll talk to him about it. Clearly you can leave some of us, though...fairly easily.