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There are always a time when you feel not belong to anywhere.

It's all seems so unfamiliar.

You just hate everyone.

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The photo took when we were highschool. I went to public school, then he at semi-military school at another town.

This pict was taken when he was on holiday and come home.

I have crushed with this unique creature. I thought that i have done about the crush, but then I felt it again. He's always that special for me, he has a tiny little space in my heart, which i couldn't tell you exactly.

I have ever cried over this man for several time. First is when he had continued his study at Groningen. I cried behind his back, after he left the departure gate.

Second, when he told me to stop having feeling for him because he didn't imagine to have a relationship. I cried a while, until i settle myself down.

Nope, I never told him that i love him as a man. I never told him that i have crushed for him. But he read me. After that i live a normal life, and not much talk to him. We were still friends, but I gave him space.

The third times, i've ever cried over him is just happened. I just heard that he'll go abroad (again) for his post graduate study. I can not explain why his absent on my life always be this painful. Mean while, i never have any intense communication when he is around. All i know he's just doing fine.

All the good prayers, i hope Allah SWT will guide him to reach anything he wants for long time.

Pamulang, 25 Mei 2020

24 Mei 2020

Kepada diriku sendiri,

Banyak sekali kekecewaan yang barangkali tak kamu sadari. Kekecewaan pada diri sendiri atau karena orang lain. Belakangan ini aku khawatir sama kelangsungan hidupmu. Semakin lama menjauh dari dunia luar, tak terjangkau oleh mereka yang jauh. Aku khawatir kamu sudah semakin menjauh dari banyak keluargamu. Menjauh tak ingin menghubungi apalagi dihubungi.

Ada apa?

I see the sea warmly welcoming :)

sore di Ibukota 🛴🛴🛴

a prosperity from God is not always about materialis things. having a steady job, gratfulness, and good friends is another shape of prosperity. thank you for always understanding and your inspiring story ♥️

aku minum kopi kemasan. yang manis rasanya.

lalu?

aku ingat kamu.

kenapa ingat aku?

soalnya kamu ngga suka kopi manis.

useless

now I'm on the stage where I wish someone notice me. or even want someone having interest with me. i can keep staring at my phone just to see someone is online. wishing see a 'is typing...' notification.