pédetorta @maridosmeow - Tumblr Blog

I like to think that white is all the colours, while black is the none of them, but they both are two pretty colours 🏳️‍🌈🤍

#love #stupid wife #lgbtq community #diversity

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Sorry, but I'm really not okay. where is the real me? Is there a real me? or I'm only this disconnection and sadness?

A friend mine once send me a video saying that living is harder than killing yourself. So I think, since I'm a coward, I'll probably choose the easiest way.

#tired of living #Youtube

Zevia - till death frees me (Official Lyric)

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Someone kill me now

honestly, i would feel good about dying. I'm only alive because it hurts me to think about my cats looking for me and me being absent. College is so boring, I'm tired of going there and having to spend the whole day doing things I don't like, even at home because of homeworks. I can't work with people because I don't know how to deal with them and some of them scare me, like my father and some male figures, for example; In addition to being unmotivated to continue in the mental health field because I have worked with professionals who only give their opinions on my life, I don't want to be like that.

I can't work with animals because I get sick in high temperatures or I would be unemployed (zoology), or I wouldn't have stability and would hardly be able to help the animals (veterinary medicine).

I can't be an artist because I don't have money and I'm not talented enough, plus AI has already stolen the opportunities with visual arts.

and the exact sciences area makes me feel even more empty

It's so bad to live out of obligation.

#tired of living #I just wish this life would end soon

There's nowhere to go when I'm getting tired of me

Two days ago was my birthday, and none of my friends wished me a happy birthday. And the strange thing is, I kind of feel like that’s a good thing, because I can’t enjoy my birthday anymore. To me, it just means another year has gone by and I’m still sinking deeper into depression, feeling like a failure—carrying life on my back without any genuine will to live, just taking antidepressants that don’t seem to help. I don’t know… I’m just tired

#im so tired #sorry for being depressing #i hope i die soon #I don't wanna feel this pain anymore 😞#i can't take it anymore

Have you ever felt grief for yourself? Like you no longer recognize who you are?

Lately, I’ve been feeling this way, having an existential crisis and thinking, "I’m still here," but at the same time, "Why am I still here? Should I have already put an end to this?"

I’m starting to read the book Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. I hope this reading helps me—I don’t want to live a life that feels empty and meaningless.

#introspection #existentialism #thoughts #reading