“Is she in need of a job?” Graham queried abruptly, his intention far more innocent than the question might have suggested, while his own fidgeting hand hovered uncertainly in the space between them. Continuing on, he clarified, “There’s loads of interns roughly about her age, yes. A few researchers, as well, like one of the ones recently assigned to my team. She actually sent me the most outrageous TikTok the other day, something called a ‘fancam’…?” His head shook with a breathy chuckle, the lines around his eyes crinkling in what was, nowadays, evidence of a rather rare smile, wide and bright even despite his utter ineptitude with the technology of the younger generation.
“Sometimes, it’s all a bit much for my head. Makes me nostalgic for the nineties, honestly — which is probably why I grin like an idiot anytime I see that you still write your smiley faces out,” he admitted softly, gently nudging her with his elbow. “Although… I have noticed a curious pattern of decidedly not receiving a smiley anytime the Daily Mail runs a story about me and my…dates.” Graham knew he had no right to judge her over such a thing, and had no reason to believe he came off as anything other than what he’d decisively presented himself as: a man naturally suited to the world of celebrity, a lifelong bachelor, a writer with a history of using both sword and pen. And yet, there was a deeper truth to it that he wanted Marielle to know: “So much of what gets written of me, or spoken about me… It’s all for show, really.”
His eyes, tinged with some mix of apology and explanation, lingered on hers for perhaps too long a moment, if only for the fact that he knew there was no other soul in the room who could take a single glance and know if he was lying. Privately, perhaps even selfishly, he allowed himself the momentary vulnerability to be seen — not simply viewed or watched, but seen. Known. Understood. Those weren’t often the grounds upon which his inner thoughts and desires were typically founded, but Graham knew that there was no better person, no other person, with whom such vulnerability felt all at once comfortable and thrilling. He supposed that was why he allowed himself a genuine laugh when she revealed the decided lack of depth of those who’d expressed interest in her before.
“Blimey, that’s teenager-level chat. Was I ever that bad?” A knowing chuckle. “No, don’t answer that — I’m certain I was, but… Well, let’s just say it wasn’t the worst way of getting a regular audience member at all of your performances.” In his mind’s eye, he saw freshly-picked wildflowers bunched in a makeshift bouquet and himself, waiting until after everyone else had left to present them to her in private, ashamed he didn’t have the money for a proper arrangement. “Would it be awfully corny to say ‘a trip down memory lane’? Starting possibly with the dance floor?”
“I - no, she’s in school and has a few jobs on the side.” Marielle bit her lip, “or rather, one or two - we make do with what we have.” She shook her head, “and I don’t think she is quite so interested in journalism - same goes for dance - she’s very much wanting to be her own person, which, given who her parents are, neither of us should be surprised by that.” A soft laugh escaped her lips, then. “The BBC’s a popular place for interns, then?” Did her best to force the articles she’d seen about Graham out with those very same interns from her memory. Pretty girls draped over him, all bright-eyes and smiles and giggles. “What exactly is a ‘fancam’? Ramona tends to send me dances on TikTok, or one trend about what you’d be if you were a color, season, and so forth.” After a small moment, she shrugged, “I think you’d be some sort of deep, warm, orange. Impossible to ignore, but...” like home, she swallowed, before she could add, “something special all it’s own.”
She attempted to fight back a smile at his next comment. “Oh, you like those? I just like them more than emojis, and besides, they are universal no matter what platform you read them on, unlike emojis, some of which look rather bizarre in certain cases.” Marielle sighed, “yes, well, the Daily Mail does run quite a fair few of those stories.” She glanced over to him, “and besides, some of them are young aren’t they? Or is any woman over the age of thirty-five no longer quite appealing? That is what I’ve heard is the belief in the film world.” Her gaze widened at his next remark - something she had hoped, had thought about, but hadn’t ever thought to bring up to him. “It is? Then perhaps I can tell you that I have found any number of those dates of yours rather not up to the standards you should have. I mean, you’re,” she gestured vaguely at him, “well, you, all this, and I think you could do better.” Another sigh, “that’s maybe because I’ve had a bit more to drink than I am used to.” Which wasn’t entirely true, but it worked nicely as an excuse.
“I seem to recall an over-eager boy who was very curious about my stretching habits and quite impressed that I could fold myself in half and put my legs behind my head.” Marielle flashed him a grin. “You know I am grateful for having that regular audience member. Certainly the only one I really performed for, in the end. Only one who was there, in my mind.” A casual admission, something that felt perhaps too much that way given how separate their lives were now. She could still remember falling naturally into his embrace after performances, sneaking out back and devouring some sort of chocolate bar together, melted chocolate staining lips that eventually found one another through laughter and didn’t separate until one of them decided that they perhaps had to go back home. “Yes, Mr. Goldstein, it would be terribly corny, but I would also happen to be readily agreeable to that.” She set her drink down and let her hand find his. Moved one of his hands towards her waist. “Would you be so kind as to lead me there?”