[marune]

I need to try more...

[marune]

Now I just float through life not feeling much since I am like a bird with its wings clipped.. Living in "our" house still and off my ex's money.. I guess I am free to do whatever I want but personally I hate the UK and would love to go back to Canada. Cuz the only friends I had here were his siblings and now they don't talk to me and the only family I have here is my kids.. Which he won't let me take them and it's not even cuz he loves that much.. So I'm just kept in his cage he made for me. I don't get why he keeps wasting my life and holding my kids over my head. Life never has been fair, I thought I found a savior but I just found a master..

[marune]

Daily Journal

☀️ AM 7:30

Fill this section first thing in the morning to set yourself up for success!

🎯 Goals

What are the top things you want to achieve today?

Do the dishes

Finish my laundry

Vacuum

Clean Selina's room

💚 Feelings

How do you want to feel today? What kind of support do you need from others?

Today, I feel alright I don't really need or want support from people.. I been talking to Mark at night before he goes to bed the last two days and it always makes me happy.

🌟 Expectations

What are you looking forward to most today?

I haven't really looked forward to anything..

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🌑 PM 9:00

Fill this section in the evening to reflect on your day.

💭 Thoughts from the day

Share anything that stuck in your mind today—a conversation, a new idea, an observation, or anything else!

Can't really think of anything.k

😌 Mindfulness

Share three things you're grateful for—they can be big or small!

I am grateful for..

Marks friendship My kids Having a roof over my head

What's one thing you'd like to do differently tomorrow?

Get more done and start earlier in the day

💡Inspiration

What inspired you today? It can be a quote, a photo, an article, or anything else!

Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it💡

[marune]

Daily Journal

☀️ AM 7:30

Fill this section first thing in the morning to set yourself up for success!

🎯 Goals

What are the top things you want to achieve today?

Do the dishes

Finish my laundry

Get the girls school clothes done

Vacuum

Clean my room

💚 Feelings

How do you want to feel today? What kind of support do you need from others?

Today, I feel alright I don't really need or want support from people.. I finished Beef season one today and felt good, then went for a nap.

🌟 Expectations

What are you looking forward to most today?

I guess I am looking forward to just being ready for Monday school run tomorrow.

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🌑 PM 9:00

Fill this section in the evening to reflect on your day.

💭 Thoughts from the day

Share anything that stuck in your mind today—a conversation, a new idea, an observation, or anything else!

😌 Mindfulness

Share three things you're grateful for—they can be big or small!

I am grateful for..

What's one thing you'd like to do differently tomorrow?

💡Inspiration

What inspired you today? It can be a quote, a photo, an article, or anything else!

[marune]

10 years ago today was the release date of Dragon Quest Builders✨️ (October 2016 for us guys)..

The world of #DQB is in the original Dragon Quest setting, made up of countless blocks. 🔨

It is a block building RPG where you freely create objects and buildings in the darkness covered Alefgard and weave your own story! ⚔️

I been playing this since 2018 when it came out on the switch and it's been one of my favourite games ever!

[marune]

Daily Journal

☀️ AM 7:30

Fill this section first thing in the morning to set yourself up for success!

🎯 Goals

What are the top things you want to achieve today?

Do the dishes

Finish 3 loads of laundry

Get the two drawers sorted

💚 Feelings

How do you want to feel today? What kind of support do you need from others?

Today, I want to have fun with the kids when they get back and continue playing Dragon Quest Builders 1... I feel good today and it helped that even tho I cried and got mad yesterday at mark he messaged me and we were right back to friends again this morning.

🌟 Expectations

What are you looking forward to most today?

I guess I am looking forward to getting the clothes done finally with the new washer and having time to chill and play with the kids :D

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🌑 PM 9:00

Fill this section in the evening to reflect on your day.

💭 Thoughts from the day

Share anything that stuck in your mind today—a conversation, a new idea, an observation, or anything else!

Well Mark messaged me we talked about our fights and how I go off, then he said I generally don't think you would like being my gf because rn its fine but he is going to be super busy and will be working spring til winter and only be home on weekends.. So it's not that he doesn't like me it's that we just wouldn't workout.

😌 Mindfulness

Share three things you're grateful for—they can be big or small!

I am grateful for my daughters, Marks consistency and being stress free without Fiz around.

What's one thing you'd like to do differently tomorrow?

Rest and then just finish it all..

💡Inspiration

What inspired you today? It can be a quote, a photo, an article, or anything else!

Nothing really..

[marune]

Daily Journal

☀️ AM 7:30

Fill this section first thing in the morning to set yourself up for success!

🎯 Goals

What are the top things you want to achieve today?

Finish the dishes

Put the ones I don't want in the box

Wipe the side of the dishes cupboard

Start on the 2 other drawers

💚 Feelings

How do you want to feel today? What kind of support do you need from others?

Today, I just want to have the energy and motivation to finish the goals.. I would like my kids to help with things around the house but I know they wont..

🌟 Expectations

What are you looking forward to most today?

I guess I am looking forward to feeling better today and the kitchen showing my effort..

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🌑 PM 9:00

Fill this section in the evening to reflect on your day.

💭 Thoughts from the day

Share anything that stuck in your mind today—a conversation, a new idea, an observation, or anything else!

I been feeling sad again today probably gonna start my period soon.

😌 Mindfulness

Share three things you're grateful for—they can be big or small!

1. Glad I got the main part of the kitchen done. 2. It was fun having Selina talk to me a lot today. 3. I'm grateful my kids love me..

What's one thing you're proud of? It can be something big or small!

I'm glad I got the kitchen done and can start slowly on round two..

What's one thing you'd like to do differently tomorrow?

Stick to tasks longer..

💡Inspiration

What inspired you today? It can be a quote, a photo, an article, or anything else!

Believe in yourself!

[marune]

Daily Journal

☀️ AM 7:30

Fill this section first thing in the morning to set yourself up for success!

🎯 Goals

What are the top things you want to achieve today?

Finish the dishes

Put the ones I don't want in the box

Wipe the side of the dishes cupboard

Clean the spoon drawer

Put tape at the back

Wipe all of the counters to get rid of mouse poo

💚 Feelings

How do you want to feel today? What kind of support do you need from others?

Today, I want to feel calm, focused, and inspired. I will need so much motivation to stay on task!

🌟 Expectations

What are you looking forward to most today? Hint: don't hesitate to insert an image to add some visual inspiration. It will help set the mood for a new day.

I guess I am looking forward to a tidy kitchen I can cook and work in properly and not feel overwhelmed and grossed out by it.

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🌑 PM 9:00

Fill this section in the evening to reflect on your day.

💭 Thoughts from the day

Share anything that stuck in your mind today—a conversation, a new idea, an observation, or anything else!

I feel like I love Mark but I sometimes feel so distant from him too. Also Fiz bought us Subway today which was nice..

😌 Mindfulness

Share three things you're grateful for—they can be big or small!

1. Glad I got half the list done today. 2. Hanging out with my kids is always fulfilling. 3. I'm grateful my kids love me..

What's one thing you're proud of? It can be something big or small!

I'm glad I got 3 of the tasks done and will finish tomorrow.

What's one thing you'd like to do differently tomorrow?

Work harder..

💡Inspiration

What inspired you today? It can be a quote, a photo, an article, or anything else!

Nothing much..

[marune]

Weekly Diary

Let's note the memories and events on a weekly basis! 10/06 ~ 10/12

☺️ 🙂 (😢) 😠

Degree of effort: 70%

★Energy★ Low [//////// 50% ] Full

★News★ This week I talked to Fiz on Tuesday he still is treating me bad and brushing everything I said off, I just wanted him to care about me but he is so different since he left me here and went back home and "married" that whore. Sophia talked to me a bit more this week and called me on Wednesday but she was at the whores house so she had to let me go. She messaged me all week but Selina couldn't because they were banned from their electronics but it seemed like only Selina was banned. Sophia showed me a Gatcha clip she made which was really good too. Then I went to NerdCon on the weekend but I been feeling sad because of how lonely I am and how I have nothing here, and it just isn't the same as it was 15 years ago. It feels like I don't have a home anymore.

[rafesbabybunny777]

𓊆ྀི miss him ♡ ⠀𓊇ྀི

[marune]

#PartnerInCrime #PureLove I want this..

[marune]

Weekly Diary

Let's note the memories and events on a weekly basis! 09/29 ~ 10/05

☺️ (🙂) 😢 😠

Degree of effort: 60%

★Energy★ Low [//////////// 80% ] Full

★News★ This week was kind of uneventful.. I walked with my sister Tuesday. On Wednesday I played sumikko gurashi farm with Selina and talked. On Thursday I looked around for Need for speed 2 and picked up my tickets at Vintage games 'N Junque for Steel City NerdCon. I also bought a pink yoshi amiibo there for $50 and we also went to the library to check it out. Saturday I played Donkey Kong Bananza and got to the final boss but I wasn't in the mood to beat him, Sophia also called me from their house. I drove the first time on the road to my house I was very nervous lol. Other then that things were fine.

[marune]

Weekly Diary

Let's note the memories and events on a weekly basis! 09/22 ~ 09/28

☺️ 🙂 (😢) 😠

Degree of effort: 30%

★Energy★ Low [//////////// 70% ] Full

★News★ So the last week has been good and bad I have times where I am fine and other days where I just hate being alone and will cry. I am trying to get rest and not cry because it is not helping my skin at all and I am aging from it. Mark still talks with me often but I guess I just really want to meet someone I like who lives here and likes me too. I hate being alone but I also know I have to go back to the UK so I can't really date anyone yet. I kind of think I am done grieving fiz and the relationship, but now it is gonna take some time to get over the ego bruising and being left behind for someone else and him liking her more. It hurts a lot when I wasted my whole 20s and was treated like shit by him for all these years. Anyways I got the friendship bracelets for Sophia and Selina done and they look cute it took me like a whole month to start Sophias and then like 2 or 3 days to finish it but once I did it I realized it super easy to do and it only took like an hour or 2 to do Selina's one lol. I also been cross the river two times with my sister just looking around the shops and grocery store..

[marune]

Weekly Diary

Let's note the memories and events on a weekly basis! 08/18 ~ 08/24

☺️ 🙂 (😢) 😠

Degree of effort: 10%

★Energy★ Low [/// 20% ] Full

★News★ I have been depressed for like 6 weeks since Fiz told me the night before he went home that I probably shouldn't go back because it isn't gonna be what you(me) thought it was gonna be. What I thought is that he was gonna marry her as like a helper, to get groceries and work and I would take care of the kids and house he would see her a few times a week. But when he went home he told me he didn't love me anymore and said if I go back he will be staying with her at her place and he will only be around to fix up the house and see the kids on the weekends. I have been crushed by those words ever since July 20th.. It's really hard but I am trying to accept that it's really over now. I miss the kids a lot too but I am trying to let that go as well since they said they don't want to live here so they are choosing their dad. I have stopped talking to most people online because I'm just sick of craving attention and love from people that don't actually care about me. Mark has still been consistent with me and talking to me once a week sometimes twice a week. I have told him the truth finally that I have kids, about my husband, and that he remarried on the 23rd. Luckily for me he talked to me on the 23rd and stayed talking until we went to sleep which really helped. Saturday, me and my sister painted the kitchen counters and the back hallway and it looks so much better. We are supposed to do a second coat of paint in the hallway this week to finish up. Hopefully I can start getting proper sleep, stop having bad dreams and get over this pain soon because it's getting annoying.

[marune]

Well he is married today and lied to me about it.. That shows he never loved me.. I guess I really am alone in this world. Edit: It might have been a 3 day marriage thing so maybe not a lie..

[marune]

I guess I really did break his heart too considering he is getting married this week but is listening to heart break songs.. I really do regret the mistakes I have made.. I thought he didn't love me and was happy to move on and leave me behind but I guess he has pain too. I suppose everything is my fault but he will probably fall in love with her and get over it, and forget about me.. It hurts me to let him go but I don't think I can get him back. It's really stupid that it took for him to actually dump me to grow up a bit and realize what I lost and know that I don't want anyone else. Edit July 25th: I thought I broke his heart so felt at least we are both sad right now but he was happy on the 22nd when I talked to him so clearly not.. I don't know if I can be his friend anymore, I might just stop talking to him now.

[dyingfad]

Takopi's Original Sin (2025) Ep. 6

[bulletg1rl]

you will be missed, takopi