Betrayal II. Steve Rogers #3
I owe you explanation. Some of you are not happy because of cheating Pietro. But I had to use him as a cheater, even if I don't like thought about Pietro cheating on his girlfriend. I needed someone I'm attached to, so that description of emotions(especially it this part) will be credible. I thought about random cheating guy, who you could equate with your ex-boyfriend, but I think it wouldn't be trustworthy. Please forgive me this choice, because it broke my heart.
There's smut in this part, but it's short and shitty, because this post is so long :o
Oh my God, this one is very dramatic.
I dedicate it for Nonny, who sent me lot of nice messages <3Â
Hope you all will like it.
When you woke up you couldn't remember why you weren't in your room. But the truth hit you with all its power quickly. Despite tears in your eyes you noticed that someone had to move you from couch on the bed. Steve's room was empty and you felt awful that he had to sleep somewhere else. You looked around and saw sandwiches, glass of water and a piece of paper on bedside table.
I thought that you wouldn't like to go and see others so I prepared breakfast for you. I had to go out, but if you will need something, call me. I will try to come back as soon sa possible.
You smiled at Steve's motion. He was always so kind and caring. And he always knew what you needed the most.
You took one sandwich and bit it. You were wondering what you should do right now. You didn't want to leave Steve's safe room, but you couldn't spend here all your life. Seeing Maximoff and Romanoff was unavoidable and you should prepare for it. But you just didn't know how. You loved him so much and you were sure he loved you too. And now you couldn't even say his name.
One thing couldn't leave you.
Maximoff, don't stop. You know what I like the most.
That meant it didn't happen once or even twice. It was regular. And it was the worst. You would probably forgive them if it'd happened for the first time. You could understand, emotions are sometimes pernicious. But they were doing it regulary. Since when?
You cried out when Steve entered room.
"Y/N" he whispered and came to you. He pulled you firmly to his chest."Don't cry, please. It's broking my heart"
"I-I'm so sorry, Steve" you sobbed."I don't want to bother you"
"You never bother me, Y/N. But you have to be strong. I know it's strong, but you must show them that they can't broke you"
"But they already did" you siniffled and crumpled Steve's shirt."I need to know when it started, before I'll kill him"
"Maybe it was the only time it happened" he suggested.
"No, Steve. She said 'Maximoff, don't stop. You know what I like the most'. It happened many times" you claimed hardly.
"Oh, Y/N. I'm so sorry" he pulled you closer."I didn't knew. Nobody knew"
"Where's Clint? I supposed that he'll like to spend some time with me right now" you changed subject.
"He's probably doing something stupid. Like killing one bleach-blonde guy or something" he said playfully with gentle smile on his face.
"I don't think it's stupid" you smiled back, but your smile was sad.
"I'll tell him he has your agreement"
You spent all day in Steve's room. Clint, Wanda, Tony and Bruce came to visit you and they tried to comfort you. Tony caused you to laugh and Wanda devised the most offensive abused for her brother. She thought it'll help you, but all you wanted was to forget about him.
Next morning when you woke up, Steve was already gone, and he didn't leave you anything to eat, so you was forced to left his room and go to kitchen. You didn't have any clean clothes, so you put on your shorts and you let yourself took one of Cap's t-shirts.
You headed to kitched. You didn't meet anyone, and you were glad because of that. Kitchen was empty too, so you opened the fridge and took tomato and cucumber. You were preparing your breakfast, as you heard this familiar voice.
"Y/N?" you turned back and saw Pietro. He had dark purple bruise on his eye.
"Was it Clint?" you asked gesturing at his face.
"Yes...And Stark a little" he grimaced.
"You deserved all of that" you shrugged and turned back to him.
"Y?N, I'm so so sorry. I love you" he zoomed to you and took your arm.
"Don't touch me!" you growled."How can I forgive you?! You cheated on me. Not once. Not twice. You were cheating on me for a long time. With my friend, Maximoff. I can't forgive you. I hate you."
"I'm really sorry. I was an asshole. A fool, but I love you, Y/N" he cried and looked at you.
"When had it started?" you asked quietly.
"It's not important...Y/N.."
"When?!" you shouted and waved with knife around his face.
"The day before I proposed to you" he whispered and looked at his shoes.
You cried out and dropped a knife.
"What's going on?" Steve walked into the kitchen and saw you in tears and Pietro trying to catch your hand. "Leave her alone, Maximoff. You have already hurt her enough"
"It's not your buisness, Rogers" Pietro growled at him with rage in eyes."You were always jealous, weren't you? When she chose me, not you. You wanted to be me, didn't you? And now you hope you'll have her. You took her to your room and gave your clothes. You have hope, that she'll choose you "
"Don't treat Y/N like a thing. You wasted your chance. You had such a great girl and you have been cheating on her? You're not a man. You're a coward" you have never seen Steve like this. He looked powerful and his eyes shooted lighting. He came to Quicksilver and threw him out of the kitchen.
You slumped on the floor and cried.
"Hey, Y/N. It's alright, I'm here" Steve took you in his arms and carried you upstairs."Tony have a new room for you. You can go there anytime you want"
"Thanks. And sorry for bothering you. I'll take my stuff and moved out from your room"
"No, no, Y/N. I didn't want it to seem like that. I'm glad that you stayed with me. Honestly... It was nice not being alone as always" he whispered trying not to look at you. You blushed and didn't know what to say.
The same day you moved into your new room. It was in other corridor, near Wanda's and Bruce's rooms. You used a chance to take your stuff from old room, when most of team was on mission. Steve joined you.
"Ok, so these things are mine, these are Maximoff's and this dress is Widow's" you gestured and three piles. "They are gone right now, so I'm going to put it in their rooms"
"I'll help you. I'll take Maximoff's thing to him" Steve offered.
"Thanks, Cap" you smiled to him.
After an hour your new room was decorated. Your books were in showcases, clothes in wardrobe and cosmetics in bathroom.
"You know, I have to make housewarming" you grinned at Steve, when you hang new curtains."Or rather roomwarming"
"That's good idea. Tony'll be in seven heaven" Steve nodded and laid on your new sheets.
"I'm going to text him so that he'll remember about alcohol" you claimed and took your cell.
"You're going to do this party right now?" Cap raised an eyebrow in suprise.
"Yes, why not?" you frowned at him."All we need is good company and alcohol. We're in Avenger's base so good company is assured, and Tony will take care of rest"
"Ok, so I'll go change my clothes" he giggled. He was wearing sweatpants and tight t-shirt and he was looking sexy.
"Of course. You should find your best tux" you rolled your eyes with smile."Come on, Stev. It's spontaneous party. I'm not going to change my clothes. I hope everyone will have their home outfit"
Roomwarming now. Take good company and alcohol. Dress code: sweatpants and t-shirts.
You texted Tony. After five minutes he entered your room without knocking with Bruce, Wanda, Clint, Vision and Falcon. They all had old baggy clothes.
"Thor has a date, but he wish us good fun" claimed Tony and sat on your bed."Nice design"
"Thanks. What took you so much time?" you giggled.
"Finding alcohol. Believe me or not, but someone has found almost all my secret stashes" he complained and opened stood bottle of whiskey, vodka and rum on the floor.
"It was probably Pietro" frowned Bruce."When I came next to him few hours ago he smelt like a distillery."
"We had a luck we didn't meet him or Romanoff. It let us avoid awkwar questions, like where are you going? Why can't we go with you?" Tony tried to joke, but nobody laughed.
"Guys, I invited you for a party, not for a funeral meal" you finally said and Tony grinned.
"Perfect! But we don't have glasses so we are forced to drink from bottles"
He opened bottles and you turned on music. Everyone started chatting. You talked with Wanda, but you knew she'd rather spent some time with Vision, so you sipped last time from her bottle and left her. You sat on the floor next to Steve who was strangely silent.
"Something wrong, Steve?" Â you asked him pinking his arm with yours.
"No...I just pondered" he sighed.
"I see. You had better mood earlier" you noticed and stroked his arm."Tell me what's going on"
"Can we go out? It's too loud in here and I can't take all my thoughts together" he sighed and rippled hair on the back of his head.
"Sure" you answered and stood up. Steve looked at you, miffed.
"I could help you" he stood up too. You rolled your eyes.
"Come on. We can take the air on the terrace" you left the room without attracting attention.
You headed to the patio in silence. As you sat on the bench, Steve started to talk.
"It's all because of him. This son of a bitch. I should've kill him. How he could do someting like that? He is...he is..." Steve embraced his head in palms.
"Steve, who are you talking about" you asked and your eyes widened, but you have already knew.
"This little bastard, Maximoff" he looked at you and you noticed that he is probably quite tipsy.
"I think Clint took care of him. You saw his face" you didn't know what to say at Steve's confession.
"That's not enough" he gainsaid." Can I ask you something?"
"No offence, but you don't look really...worried or something about this...incident."he claimed."So I want to ask is everything okey? It's not good to hide emotions inside, because they can... blow"
"Oh" you sighed."I try to to think about all of it. Like today, when we were dectorating. I had such a great time. And I don't want to cry all the time. I grew up in screwed up family and I cried a lot. Clint taught me how to be strong person. I went through worse things in my life. I loved him and he hurt me in the worst possible way, so I'm not going to waste my tears on him. I was devastated at the beginning and I don't wat to feel like this anymore."
"You are very strong, Y/N" Steve whispered looking at you with admiration in eyes.
"Sometimes I feel so weak, Steve" you suddenly cried and nestled in his arm.
"Steve, he said earlier something about you, do you remember? In the kitchen" you asked Cap after few moments.
"Yes..I do" he sighed. "I thought you don't remember"
"What did he mean?" you whispered looking at his strong jaw.
"I probably shouldn't tell you that, but keeping it is..to exhausting" Steve wriggled awkwardly an the bench. "When I saw you for the first time I thought you're beautiful. I wanted to know you better, to talk to you, that's why I offered my help with bags. But of course, Maximoff was faster. I spoke with you only few minutes and I decided to spend time with you the next day, but you've already with him. So I gave up. He knew that he anticipated me, he's not stupid"
"But after that you were almost rude to me, sometimes. You've been always avoiding me. When I entered room you've always left it. I was wondering what did I do to you"
"It's stupid, but I couldn't stand that I lost you. During our trainings, I noticed that you're not only beautiful, but also smart and kind. I-I... hated myslef that I couldn't talk even few minutes with you"
"Steve, I don't know what to say" you breathed.
"You don't have to say anything. I just need you to know that I had to said that. Otherwise I'd explode, Y/N. I can't hid it anymore" Steve hid his face in hands. You were shocked. You've always thought he was rude for you, because he didn't like you. His confession suprised you so much.
"Shh" he leant on you and dabbed your lips with his. He stroked your cheek slightly and you blushed under his touch. He slid with his thumb along your bottom lip. You were froze. His touch made you shiver and you couldn't look away from his blue eyes. He dabbed your mouth again and you parted your lips with sigh of pleasure.
Steve pressed his lips to yours and kissed you firmly wrapping arms around your waist. You armed his neck and poked hand in his hair.
You were hit with thought that it was cheating on Pietro, but you realised that he ended your relationship. You owe him nothig. You were free woman, who could kiss anyone you wanted.
Steve moaned quietly as you bit his lip. Your hand roamed at his muscular chest, stroking his biceps and torso.
"I was right, huh?" you heard Sokovian accent nearby. You jumped back and saw Pietro leaning against terrace's fence. "You've been only waiting for opportunity to get her"
You knew he was drunk. He had blurred gaze and he spoke unclearly.
"You don't deserve her" Steve growled standing up. You tried to stop him, but he didn't see that. "You were cheating on her and now you're treating her like a thing. Someone should give you a lesson"
Steve rolled up his sleeves and headed to Pietro.
"Steve, please. Stop!" you cried hauled off and hit Pietro in stomach. And then in face.
"Why? Why should I stop, Y/N?" Steve growled looking at you. And when he saw your face he understood and approache you. "God, Y/N. I'm so sorry"
You cringed as he wanted to hug you. You saw pain in his eyes.
"Y/N, I'm sorry. I didn't think that...Oh my God, your parents...Did they really hit you?" he wrapped arms around you and cradled you. Pietro disappeard.
"We should go back" you finally claimed and stood up.
Next to your room's doors he caught your wrist and pulled you to the wall and kissed lovingly. You weren't sure if you should do it, but you knew that he'd do anything for you. He protected you. And he suffered a lot, so you kissed him back.
As you entered your room you noticed that everyone were drunk.
"Oh! Finally! We are playing truth or dare. Sit down!" Tony gibbered and patted piece of floor next to him. You sat there and Cap sat between Clint and Wanda. "Fantastic. So it's my turn now. I choose...Capsicle! Truth or dare?"
"Truth" Steve sighed disclaimerly.
"Ok, so who is the last person you kissed?" Tony had big grin on his face, and you hoped nobody would saw your flush. Steve looked at you and you shrugged.
"Y/N" he said quietly and everyone froze.
"Oh... I thought it'll be fun, because he's an old man and his last kiss took place seventy years ago, but now...It's just awkward" Tony was shocked. His gaze ambulated from you to Steve. "When was that?"
"Three minutes ago" you snorted with laughter.
"That was...Unexpected" Clint looked at you curiously."Maximoff is going to go mad"
"He already did" Steve frowned."He saw us"
"Oh" Wanda covered her mouth with hand and stood up. She smiled to you apologetically "Sorry, Y/N. I know he's an asshole, but he's still my brother"
"Sure" you shrugged. "We don't want him to to anything stupid"
"He already did something stupid" interrupted Tony."Ok, kids. It's late and some of us have responsibilities. Goodnight everyone"
Tony, Vision, Bruce, Wanda and Clint drifted away.
"Steve" you whispered very shy, suddenly.
"Yes, love?" he stroked your face gently.
"Could you stay with me? I-I'm afraid of nightmares" you looked at your feet.
"Of course" he cuddled you and nestled you into his chest. "I'm not going to leave you. Never"
He went to the bathroom first. When you left shower you saw him sitting on your bed only in boxers. You wore your favourite pyjamas with blue tshirt and red shorts.
"I like those colours" he smiled nervously. You laid on the bed so that Steve could be bigger spoon. He put one arm beneath you head and the other and gripped yours and you fell asleep.
The next day you and Steve started dating. It was differend relationship than with Pietro. Your days with Steve were routine. Everyday trainings, watching films on the couch together and sometimes dates in fancy restaurants. But you weren't bored. Life with Pietro was full of suprises and you liked it, but his last...suprise put you on the edge of mental breakdown, so you were thankful for your routine.
Steve was cute. He often gave you flowers or small presents, which imaged his feelings for you. He slept with you and treated like a lady. You felt special by his side. He always made you feel special. He kissed you tenderly when he met you in common room or kitchen and you loved it.
But you also tried to avoid Pietro. You couldn't look at him, but you also didn't want him to see you with Cap. Even if Maximoff hurt you, you didn't want to hurt him too. You knew that he suffered.
You had serious talk with Clint, who thought that you were with Steve only to upset Pietro, but you explained him that he's wrong.
You even talked with Nat. She apologized you and you forgive her, but you both knew she couldn't be your friend anymore.
That day was your and Steve's free day. You were spending evening laying on your bed and reading books. Suddenly, Steve leant on you and started kissing your neck. You shivered and looked at him curiously, because he've never done anything like this before. He only kissed you and mouth or cheek and his kisses were cute. And this one made your skin burn.
"Shh" he whispered and you turned to him. He sat you on his lap and kissed you passionatelly pressing your body against his.
You stopped withstanding and kissed him back with this same passion. Â His arm slipped under your tshirt and started stroking your back. You put you hand in Steve's hair, because you knew he loved it. And you weren't wrong. Steve moaned against your lips and laid you on the bed.
His hand roamed at your front and started massagging your breast which made you whimpig Steve's name in pleasure. You stripped Cap's tight shirt and kissed his muscled shoulder. Steve too off your shirt too and kissed yiur ear, cheek, chin, neck and roamed down kissing you slowly. When he approached you waistband the took of your jeans. You reached to his trousers, so he took of them too. You used your chance and overturned him, so you could sat at his body.
You smirked and rubbed your crotch against his.
"Y/N" he moaned and you kissed him slowly scratching his chest. Steve unclipped your bra and used his strenght to laid you on your back again. He reached between you legs and started to massaged you through fabric to made a friction which felt so good so you needed more. You moved your hips in this same rythm so his hand.
"So, you are dominate, Steve?" you whispered into his ear licking it and bitting. He didn't answear, but kissed your stomach and ripped off your panties. Steve was kissing your inner thights and his warm breath on your sensitive skin turned you on. He finally embraced your legs and kissed your softest part of body. His tounge slipped inside you and you moaned slowly feeling his warm lips and tounge. His cheek stroked your inner thingt what drove you crazy in need and desire. You grabbed your sheets and moaned loudly his name. Through your head went a thought that someone heard you, but you didn't care feeling Steve's kisses and fingers on your entrance and legs.
When you were close to you climax and your voice became higher Steve pulled away and ripped of his boxers.
"You're sure, sweetheart?" he asked, but you just wrapped arms around his neck and kissed him with all your desire and lust. He smiled and adjusted against your entrance. You wrapped one leg around his waist and he thrusted kissing you deeply.
You moaned against his lips and he started to thrust faster and harder.
"Steve!"you whimped loudly which made him move faster and faster so you felt you climax coming again. You were repeating his name and cursing sometimes in pleasure. And then you felt your world collapsed around you. Your inner walls tightened around Steves member and you yelled his name last time. He thrusted one more time and came with you kissing your neck.
"I love you, Y/N" he sighed lying next to you. His chest was covered with sweat and it looked pretty damn sexy.
"I love you too, Steve" you said and kissed him gently before falling asleep.
The next day Tony held a party. You put on your favourite blue dress and high-heels. Steve wore black trousers and blue elegant shirt. You walked into full of people common room together.
You danced together almost an hour, before Steve headed to Sam to chat about a mission and you headed to bar. You ordered a fourth glass of tequilla when Pietro sat next to you. You ignored him. You took your glass and went out on the balcony. You popped pack of cigarettes from your purse. You lighted one and puffed deeply.
"I didn't know that you smoke" you heard Pietro's voice. You turned to him.
"Because I started when we stopped talking to each other" you smirked and sipped from your glass. "What do you want?"
"I heard you yesterday. I was in Wanda's room when..." he messed up his hair and you grimaced.
"Sorry, I didn't think..."
"No, you don't have to be sorry, Y/N" he sighed. "It's all my fault and I know it. I fucked up. But I need to know if there is any chance that you'll forgive me"
"Pietro... You did to me the worst thing you could do. I loved you and you were cheating on me with my friend... How can I forgive you?" your eyes welled up with tears. You have barely unscrambled your life and now he was going to ruin it again."You were everything to me!" you yelled.
"Y/N, I know..." he whimped, but you interrupted him.
"No. You don't know. You were happily fucking my friend, when I was choosing my wedding dress, Pietro." you were drunk and furious. You knew that whole party heard your yells, but you didn't care. "And when I finally managed I forgot about you, you had to ruin it! I hate you, Maximoff and I want you to stop apologizing"
He was looking at you with fear in eyes. He never saw you in mood like this before. You saw Steve in balcony's doors. His gaze wasn't scared, but caring. He approached you and hugged.
"Steve, I want to be alone right now" you whispered and you knew that it hurt him, but he let you go. You slipped between Tony's guests and went to your room. You found bottle of whiskey, which Tony gave you as birthday gift and you took a deep sip from it. You sat on the floor and cried.
You hated yourself. You still cared about this little prick and you hurt person who helped you walk through mess in your life. You pushed away Steve, who always was with you even in worst days.
You took another sip. All your life was a mess and he was the only person who cared about you and you hurt him. You were fucked up.
Tears fell down your face, smudging your make-up. You stood up. You were mad at yourself. You accidentally looked in the mirror and hated face you saw. All covered in eyeliner and tears. You threw bottle in your reflection and that gave you a relief you needed. You started to devastate your room. You dismembered all your books, toppled shelves and shatter ornaments.
After all of this you slumped on your knees and sat in the middle of this mess. You wiped your face with your forearm and you noticed it's covered in blood. You cut your arm with one of glass pieces. You felt very weak.
"Y/N? What the fuck?" you heard Wanda's scared voice. You looked at her and she yelled. You knew how you looked like. All in blood tears and mascara. Picture of disaster.
"Wanda... Where's Steve?" you cried and she sat next to you.
"He's probably punching Pietro. I heard your thoughts. I'll contact Pietro. Helen Cho is on this party, so she can stitch your forearm in infirmary. We need to clean your face" she took tissues from her black handbag and started to wipe you. You were still sobbing when Steve, Helen and Pietro entered your room.
"Oh, God. Darling" Steve kneeled next to you and took your cut arm.
"Steve, can you carry her to infirmary? I need stitches" Helen watched your wound precisely.
"Sure" he claimed and took you in his arms.
"I could do it faster" offered Pietro concerned tone.
"You are not going to touch her" Steve growled at him and left the room.