[masovist]

There's something unique and rare about being a hypermasculine sub/masochist - it's hard to come about, but I'm very glad I am one.

I'm not your typical or common sub/masochist that has a stereotypical feminine presentation or has interests stereotypically defined as feminine. I have interests stereotypically defined as masculine. I dress very masculine. I like rap, which is stereotypically defined as a masculine taste in music. Society would expect someone like me to be dominant, but I'm the complete opposite.

[masovist]

I want to be isolated from the outside world... my partner/sadist the only one I see and know... I know nothing outside of them, my whole life turns into waiting for them to come back and being used for their pleasure... it becomes my purpose, and I anticipate and fear the hour of their return as I know what is to come... the whole day becomes a countdown to this hour and I wait in fear...

[masovist]

Dominate and control me in all aspects of my life. Do taboo and extreme things that the average person would be against. Let's fall deeper and deeper into an unhealthy, painful world with I as your forever victim and you as my forever perpetrator. Take pleasure in the expressions of genuine pain and suffering on my face and its sounds on my tongue. Smile when I cry, make my chest tighten in fear.

[tendercherie]

you can get off to the thought of hurting me if you wanna :3

[hpdnikolai]

please beat me and then hold me while telling me how much you love me

[masovist]

It scares me that I seem to be what the typical sadist looks for, it makes me want to hide and run away. But then a regrettable shameful part of me hopes they catch up to me.

[masovist]

I want to be observed, the other noticing when I am most vulnerable and weakest. Or they trigger it by doing or saying things they know would weaken me and put me in that vulnerable state. They take advantage of me in that state, whether they induced it or it was naturally occurring.

[masovist]

I want to be beaten or drugged until I pass out, and return back to consciousness getting raped. I wake up, and the first thing I see is someone on top of me violating me

[masovist]

There are times I think of a painful situation and I feel genuinely scared and I think, "No... That hurts..." A masochist is supposed to enjoy this. But I enjoy that it scares me, that I don't want it, and that it will be done against my will anyway. I need it that way. I want things forced onto me. When I try to escape, I want to be forced back into it. "Where do you think you're going? We're not finished yet." I want to be dragged back by the ankle as I try to crawl away while they ridicule me

[masovist]

I like the idea that everyone sees me as stoic and emotionless, but the sadist sees through that. They see my interior, what I'm like inside, and they don't let me hide. They see what I am like in pain, how I sound in pain, they turn what was once quite a stoic man into a begging and crying mess. They break him

[masovist]

I extremely love it when things are done against my will/without me asking for it. Suddenly thrown to the floor when I least expect it. Hit when I least expect it. I don't want to ask for it, I don't want them to care about what I want or when I want it. Whatever they say goes, I don't have the privilege of deciding or giving permission.

[masovist]

I don't actually like pain, and that's what makes it so enjoyable. It's a genuine suffering, not an act. I take pleasure in my own real misery and real agony. I take pleasure in my real and genuine fear.

[masovist]

I would want a sadist that can barely control their urges around me, that the mere sight of how pathetic I look gives them all sorts of ideas. A sadist that will take any small opportunity to destroy any pride or dignity I build up and watch me fall into greater depression.

[sundered-sadist]

Body inspections but it’s focused on your response to pain.

You’ll be on an exam table, on your hands and knees. I’ll inspect and exam your body and holes, seeing what changed from our last exam. All in all, a fairly standard inspection, and one that you’re used to since I regularly inspect my objects.

However, things will change when I start bringing out impact toys, clamps, or a cattle prod.

We’ll go through your whole body again. I’ll shock you up and down with the prod, or cane you in different areas. After each burst of pain, you’ll be required to rate your pain from 1-10. I’ll take detailed notes of each response, and graph them to a map of your body.

At the end, once you’re sobbing and begging for it to stop, we’ll go through the notes, looking for any ratings I don’t agree with.

“Oh doll, you rated a cattle prod on your inner thigh as an 8. That’s pretty high, I think you’re being a bit dramatic. We both can agree a little shock on your thigh is a 5, at most.”

If you protest, I’ll shock your thigh over and over and over, until you eventually agree I had the right rating from the start. You won’t even have ownership over your response to pain. I’ll rewire you to accept and feel pain as it pleases me best, because that’s what stupid, owned creatures need.

[masovist]

I would like everything about me to be controlled, even against my will. I would like my food intake to be controlled, the other starving me just so I could be weaker and more obedient. My water intake controlled. My finances controlled and in the power of someone else. Even the temperature I am to shower at controlled. Very cold or very hot to see the pain reflected in my face. That way, I suffer in every little thing. My basic necessities become privileges I need to fight for and earn for the pleasure of someone else. Pain and misery becomes a constant. I don't want suffering to be merely episodic during "pleasure times", I want pain to be my lifestyle.

I would want my partner to take advantage of me, sedate me or get me drunk or sneaking something into my food/drink that would make me weaker and unable to fight back. Taking videos of my drugged/drunk, barely conscious and obedient state and showing them to me when I recover to watch the discomfort on my face.

I would want to be beaten up, desperately trying to hold onto my remaining strength before being dragged and dunked into water to "wake me up" and prepare me for more. I want to fear that other person, but be manipulated enough to believe I need them and this is all I'm good for.

[naturalbornsatanist]

[m3at-dood]

to have someone struggle as i drown their face in the bathroom sink full of water then lifting their head back up in the mirror to view their wet pathetic crying face, while desperate for air i dunk their head back in the water just for fun