My Life

My name is Thalia Leyva. I created a tumblr to express myself, jot down my thoughts, and to never forget simple words that made me smile. [[Almost all the pictures I upload on here I've taken with my brother's amazing camera]]

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New Year

So far this new year has been great. I promised myself half a year ago to always smile and be happy even though I may be going through some tough times. Also, I’ve become confident both in the way I look and what I bring to the table. I couldn’t be more proud of myself. I’ve met many awesome people these past years. As I become more mature and wise I am able to understand the concept that everyone has a purpose in my life.

I am nice and honest and pretty laid back. Although all these traits may seem positive, they sure do take a toll when it comes to finding that special someone. I’ve met several guys that seem like a good match, but being nice gives guys the wrong impression and whatever type of relationship we had never progressed. However, there is a guy that’s been in my life for over three years. We’ve had our ups and downs and have been in and out of each other’s life throughout the course of time. When we’re together I feel safe, secure, and comfortable. It sucks that the feelings aren’t mutual but hey, what can I do besides be myself? Everyone has a purpose in your life...I’m still trying to figure why we crossed paths.

Maybe one day I’ll meet the right the person. 

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And there I go, thinking I'm not good enough.

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Thoughts

Today I felt like jotting my thoughts down so here I am in front of my laptop as I reflect on my accomplishments and tribulations. I have always been a deep thinker. It is not a good or bad thing; however, at times I get too consumed with my thoughts that I forget to live in the moment. I figured if I can get everything out of my head and onto paper or in this case, onto tumblr I will be able to concentrate on other things such as my homework.

As I reminisce on my childhood and adolescence, I can’t help but be proud of myself. Although I wasn’t a straight A student and was on the verge of not graduating high school, I ended up becoming a great person. Fast forward several years, and I’m about to graduate this upcoming December. Yeah, I won’t be graduating with the major I had initially chose but hey, I am very happy with where I am. I was suppose to graduate from my university a year ago, but due to my personality and my way of working I wasn’t able to complete my education internship. We all are different. We tackle tasks in different ways. My experience with my internship did not allot me sufficient time to fail and succeed on my own pace. What was expected from me was solely to succeed and I totally get it, but there are people like myself that need to try various methods to reach their own success at their own rate. I don’t believe I was given the opportunity to experiment. There were times where I would think that I simply could not become a teacher because I did not meet pedagogical deadlines. I had conflicted thoughts because teachers would watch me teach and say I did really well and other things alike. I ended up dropping out of my internship because I lost my motivation. I let a few  people that I highly respected tell me that I wasn’t cut out to be a teacher. They say don’t give up on your students, but at the moment I was told I wasn’t good enough to become a teacher I felt as if I was given up on. Obviously I was distraught. My dream of becoming a teacher slowly diminished.

My family did not want me to give up, but I did. The summer after my internship I decided to go study abroad in Spain. The best decision I ever made. Being alone in a country you do not know anything about really teaches you a lot about yourself. I grew the most as a person during this period of time. I learned to become more self-sufficient and disciplined. I decided to give the education internship another shot thinking that I will do better according to their standards. After I came back to the states I started teaching and the same situation unrolled. I didn’t meet their requirements. This time around I was more frustrated than distraught. The reason why I was frustrated was because I was not fitting this mold unlike my classmates. I dropped out of this internship too. I don’t blame anyone for not completing my internship. I don’t even blame myself. That’s how life works. If you don’t score well on a test you won’t move on. You can be the most passionate person about a particular subject but perhaps you’re a bad test taker; if the score does not meet the requirements you simply don’t move on. Through it all I was thankful for the opportunity given to me to work with such wonderful kids.

Something in my heart told me that wasn’t the end. Soon after I was able to get a job taking care of children. This opened a new realm of passion. I was dealing with a different age group of children. The more I work with kids the more motivation I get to continue my dream of becoming a teacher. 

I’m about to graduate and I plan on taking the test necessary to become a Kindergarten teacher. I know I will do great. Yeah, I won’t be the teacher of the year my first few years but I can work towards that. It’s all about progress and passion. Everything happens for a reason.

So my take home message is do not let others stop you from reaching your dreams. Go big or go home.

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Daily blog: Day 1

I leave in 14 days. How exciting. There are times I feel as if I’m living in a dream. In a sense I am.. Well I’m in the process of living my dream. Crazy how I came from doing horrible in high school to taking my first masters class at the age of 21. Nonetheless, I am proud of my academic achievements.

Lately I’ve been asking myself what the purpose was in meeting you. I never thought it would turn out this way. I’m kind of glad the cycle ended.

The other day at work a customer told me I belonged on the catwalk. Although I would never go on that route, I gladly took the compliment.

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Sopes Mexicanos.:) yumm!

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Work .__.

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I deal with your shit because I care.

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If I didn’t, I would of walked out of your life. You need to start realizing the people who actually care to stay around & deal with you. Seriously, appreciate everything. Even if it’s little.

its so easy to just walk away… but to stay makes it that much more fulfilling

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Beautifully said.

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An apple I drew.

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Slight double rainbow.:)

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The end of a gratifying day.

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Lol:)

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Tamale de dulce.

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<3

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I haven't written in hiragana in awhile so that's why it looks somewhat sloppy, but if you can read it you're amazingly awesome.:)