You are at that point in life where everything appears pointless and absolutely senseless. You have detached yourself from everyone you were ever close to, because faking excitement and happiness is exhausting. You isolate yourself because it has become hard to fake your laughter. Nobody needs to know that you have lost all emotion and empathy; what once made you you, your ability to feel empathy for others, is lost. Now everything you once looked forward to seems stupid and unrealistic. The confidence that made you strive for more is long gone and all that is left is the doubt, the doubt that you will ever achieve anything in life, the doubt that anything truly matters, the doubt that anyone will ever accept you for who you are. You realize that the truth is the person you are is the type of person nobody wants around. You have tried to get out of this hole, but the times you tried to speak to someone you were ridiculed and ignored. How can anyone ever care about you, what is there to care for or love about you? Nothing, really. You want someone to come around and help you and understand that you just want to be loved, you want to find someone who will see the good in you and help you see it. But all you have found is rejection when you tried to get involved in anything emotional; what good are emotions if in the end everyone just leaves. You give them a great chunk of your life, and they just leave. You missed the times when you would laugh till your stomach would hurt, you miss crying over silly stuff, the joy of daydreaming is now nonexistent. What is the point of being alive, what is the purpose of it all? To be alive and then die, when inside you, you had being dead for longer than anyone could imagine. Now, at this point in your life there's no one to talk to about anything. There's not much in your life worth mentioning, life has become an overwhelming routine. And plus, why mention anything at all? You understand that there are worse things people have to go through, you should be happy.... but you're most certainly not. On the bright side, though, there's no sadness, or joy, or disappointment. You are a living zombie.
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