Whatever Forever

As an artist you try to experience everything as intense as possible, you have to. It's the only way that you can create something. I think there's a beauty in destroying yourself. Maybe I don't do that enough. That's the hard thing you know, because you don't want to destroy yourself you want to live your life. But that's very much the opposite what you want to reach as an Artist. Artists and criminals are very much alike. We do what nobody dares to. We flirt with the underworld and they flirt with the art.

[guysofeurovision]

[madkeating]

madkeating: fact: baby goats may very well be the cutest things ever madkeating: also fact: goats are illegal to own in toronto :( madkeating: probably a good thing considering he wouldn’t have fit in my apartment 

[mattpeterssings]

mattyp92: are goats illegal to own in Toronto? mattyp92: I’m actually very curious. Is it like in the centre only?  mattyp92: Because why wouldn’t you be able to have a goat in the suburbs?

[rydertho-deactivated20190202]

“So, I’ve been researching this place Scarborough Bluffs I think it is, and I’m amazed by how perfect it would be for a scene. Do you think I’d have to get permission to film up there?” He chewed his lip in thought. “I’d need help for it… Someone to be my actor.” Remus was trying to hint at the other to help him with that.

[mattpeterssings]

“Probably, I think maybe the city wants to sponser your movie if you ask them, like they did with Jasper, Alberta on The Amazing race Canada. I’ll have to dissapoint you on the actor part though. I can act a little but unless you wanna make me a music video, I’m not willing to participate.” Matt said to the stranger that came up to talk to him while he was waiting in line to get himself a coffee before work. 

[fckncharlie]

“Kingston took it upon himself to create his own little masterpiece when I walked away from the canvas— I mean, I love the little guy but tiny Dalmatian feet all over the project I’ve spent days working on… it kinda blows.” She groaned loudly and let her head fall gently onto the table in front of her, “So much work down the tubes, man, I’m so bummed.”

[mattpeterssings]

“Dogs are amazing creatures, I’m sure I love them more than humans sometimes.” 

[dianhq]

“I’m actually so angry, right now. Pick a side, pick a side. The amount of bisexual shaming out in the media is unbelievable.”

[mattpeterssings]

“As if that a thing and you know what’s worse like half of the gay men and women are biphobic so like we just have to deal with it.”

[fightingsaner-deactivated201612]

I hope the best for you.” Jensen commented as he leaned back with his half drank smoothie. Politely, he shook his head. “No, But thank you for the offer.”

[mattpeterssings]

“Thank you. That’s kind.” Matt said getting up and taking his notebook with him. “It was nice meeting you, Jensen.” He said, even though Matt feels like Jensen was still a stranger.

[mattpeterssings]

(madisyn)

[madkeating]

Madisyn couldn’t help but grin, a full smile that was rare for her. It had been so long since they’d seen each other, and she genuinely missed his company. “Well, thank you.” She nodded in agreement. “I traveled for a bit after high school, just to get away, you know, and…” her voice trailed off momentarily while she thought over her next words. “I could’ve done it forever. Not very financially stable, though, I’ll tell you that.” She chuckled a little. “Wow. That’s very cool.” She took the notebook from him hesitantly. “Are you sure you don’t mind?” she asked, looking down at it and then back up to him. 

[mattpeterssings]

“Where did you go? The US or Europe?” He asked. Taking a sip of his coffee. Black because he wanted to concentrate and caffeïne. He’s happy to see her again. “I’ve I would win the lottery and got like a million or 6. You wouldn’t see me for 5 years.” Matt said a hint of a laugh in his voice, but it’s true. He looked at Madisyn when she was holding his lyrics notebook. Well one of his many, but this one is the one that he was proud of. “Yeah sure, it’s just songs. I mean lyrics are a big thing but without the music they’re nothing.”

[hesgotnojams]

“Well, not the sole reason… kind of. Sort of. The other half is made up of hatching my Pokemon Go eggs,” she smiled sheepishly at the guy. He looked like he barely broke a sweat whereas Erin felt as though she were sweating for two. “Okay that sounds like solid advice,” she breathed out, pushing her hands off her knees to stand up straight again. “How are you not dying right now? You don’t look like you’ve even been running.”

[mattpeterssings]

“Ah pokemon go, I shouldn’t be against it as much as I am. It clearly gets people out of their houses.” He said. “It’s how I started and I have been doing this for like a year now. I run 5km 3 times a week and if I would ever concider stopping with smoking I would be much better at it.” Matt said. He should probably stop that before his voice is ruined but until this moment he hasn’t found the courage to do it.

[averynav-blog]

Avery was looking through his designs again while he waited. He had narrowed it down to two that he really liked, but he told himself he was only getting one this time. It wasn’t much longer before he spotted Matt and waved back. He grabbed his keys from the ignition and left his car to meet up with him. 

“Hey, man!” Avery greeted with a bright smile. “How’re you feeling?” 

He was sure Matt was chill about it all, and he was too for the most part. He was thinking a little too much about it and worked himself up because of that, but he told himself the feeling in his stomach was just excitement.

[mattpeterssings]

“Hey, I’m fine. What about you? You’re not too stressed out about this right?” Matt asked. He was excited to ink up his body a little bit more. Avery has seen Matt enough in his bathingsuit to know that he has been through this more than once. 3/4th of his tattoos he’s got here. The others in Amsterdam. 

On his walk there Matt had decided which tattoo he is going to get. A map of the world. On the inside of his left forearm. He knew he  was going to get something that had to do with traveling because that’s what his life is all about. But in the end it was between the map of the world or a bike which would refer to his time in Amsterdam. He can always get the bike another time. 

[beyondthebones-deactivated20220]

i should find a place to go and rest

[hesgotnojams]

“Oh my God, how do people do this regularly?” she panted, bending over from complete exhaustion and clutching at her stomach. Her knees were practically shaking as they looked ready to give in on her and she’d barely crossed the park entrance. “If there were ever a zombie apocalypse, you can bet your arse I’d be the first to die. Go on without me, it’s too late for me.”

[mattpeterssings]

“Is that the sole reason why you run? Because beating a zombie apocalypse is in my eyes not a good enough reason” Matt said. He was streching against a tree and just finished his 5 km run and he wasn’t feeling that exhausted. “You also gotta start slow, if you don’t run often don’t expect to run a marathon. Try a round around the park first.” 

[linamcall-blog]

( matthew. )

Lina hummed in approval as he spoke, nodding her head lightly. “You got me at chocolate cake, dude. I’ll go for a toffee mocha if that’s alright? I’ve been meaning to try it for the longest time now!”

[mattpeterssings]

“Great!” Matt turned around to the barista that was waiting for their order. “Can I have a toffee mocha, a caramel latte and a slice of chocolate cake, please?” After he told the barista his order he took out his wallet to pay for it. “It’s brave that you try new things you know, I always take my save orders because I’m afraid that I won’t like it if I try something new.”

[willorcs]

douwe bob & amir - hey jude

[jamesandrewcrosby]

[linamcall-blog]

( matthew. )

“Shush, I like to believe we live in a smallest town ever. Okay, I don’t but that’s how it feels like whenever I cross someone I’m not fond of on the street.” Lina shook her head. “So, what are we having Matt?”

[mattpeterssings]

“It’s a little bigger than the smallest town of Canada but it can pass.” Matt said laughing with her. He straightned his back a little “Well, I think we should share a slice of that delicious chocolate cake that I will buy right now and you will drink your drink of choice that I will get you.” 

[helicphilic]

“Almost six years,” she grinned. “Well next time you can call me and I won’t judge you and I’ll pull out google translate so you don’t have to worry about your pride.”

[mattpeterssings]

“Wow, that’s a while. You’ve always lived in Toronto?” Matt was intrested in her story. Maybe because there sort of in the same situation. “You have no idea how big of a gesture that is. How can I thank you?” He asked her.

[mattpeterssings]

(madisyn)

[madkeating]

Madisyn chuckled, shrugging a shoulder. “Well, you know. I try,” she joked. She almost hadn’t gone to college. She’d loved traveling too much and didn’t want to settle down. But she was glad she had decided to come back home. She’d missed Toronto, and - as much as she complained about it - she loved working at the hospital. She glanced at his notebook when he held it up. “What are you writing?” she asked, curiously. “If you don’t mind my asking,” she added, not wanting to pry. 

[mattpeterssings]

“No, I’m very proud of you! It’s very easy to stop learning after high school but the cons don’t weigh up to the pros.” Matt wished someone had been there to tell him to go to college anyway. At least 1 person that didn’t think he was the coolest guy ever that his parents didn’t want him to get a higher education. I mean his girlfriend at that time was just happy that he earnt quite a lot of money for his age. Now he’s 23 and he still earns the minimum wage. “I write songs. My father got me a guitar for my 15th birthday and I started writing songs soon after. I hope to get my songs out there one day.” Matt said passing over the notebook.