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!previously ponybutchautism! hy/hym, he/him. aromantic stone butch lesbian. adult. germany. severely disabled. sappho butch flag by lupis-templar. bellusromantic dragon by explosions-are-funny 💜🩷💛💚

[st0ne-butch]

About me [Under construction, parts may be outdated]

-> I'm currently on a semi-hiatus for physical health reasons: Blog runs on a queue, I struggle heavily with replying to DMs and asks. I hope I will get around to it, when my health is better. Sorry everyone! My ask box also rarely gives me notifications and I don't regularly check my ask box.

+++ Disclaimer: If you don't want me following you or I missed your DNI, just block me. Making posts to publicly shame me for being an evil Zionist or whatever is not efficient. Click here to read my explanation of why I'm a Zionist and what that means before sending me death threats. Thank you. +++

🍏 Name: None (As in, I don't have a name)

🍏 Pronouns: hy/hym or he/him, never they/them. Please pick one of them and stick with it. Don't feminise me and don't degender me, please. Thank you.

🍏 Age: 20s

🍏 Location: Germany

🍏 Religion: prospective convert to Judaism with the ultimate goal of converting modern orthodox, together with our Femme. (Conversion process unfortunately currently halted due to health)

🍏 Disability: We are legally recognised as severely disabled and care dependant. On here, we sometimes talk about our autism (MSN), addiction (in a substitution program) and Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD). We also sometimes talk about being a survivor of domestic violence, CSA, religious abuse and violence in prostitution.

We are diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID, likely polyfragmented). I use I/We interchangably, prefer parts language and don't identify as plural. Please don't refer to me that way, I find it stigmatising. Please call me a person with CDD/DID. We don't have a host but revolving groups of 'daily living teams', as we call them. This is the reason why gender, names and other stuff changes over time. Due to our DID and trauma, we have a dissociative movement disorder that is currently being assessed and struggle with frequent loss of movement, as well as chronic pain and lots of other somatic issues. We're physically disabled and use a walker. We also have high amnesia, which makes it quite difficult to keep in touch with us, which we apologise for.

We are very happy to answer questions about structural Dissociation, DID, effects of trauma, etc. though! Structural Dissociation is a very big interest of ours and it's a topic we are much better at talking/answering questions about, compared to other topics.

🍏 Queer stuff: First and foremost, I'm a stone butch lesbian. More specifically, I'm a MOC (masculine of center) androgyne. We don't identify as non-binary and instead use genderqueer as an umbrella term. We're aromantic/bellusromantic and aplatonic. We are more invested in community building, rather than traditional individual friendships.

The header is the Butch Flag based on the Sappho Lesbian flag.

We started transitioning as a pre-teen and have been passing and/or stealth for quite a few years. We are in a straight presenting T4T, OFOS Butch-Femme relationship with a breathtaking disabled intersex trans woman. Our Femme is aromantic/bellusromantic too and we are in a long-term alterous & queerplatonic relationship (QPR) with and engaged to her. We are working towards Relationship Anarchy (not polyamorous) while being exclusive. We are Butch4Femme & Butch4Both

Many parts are more or less OS, though not exclusively.

We're happy to answer questions about our identity but we won't argue the validity of it.

🍏 Interests and things I like (in no particular order):

➴ Judaism, Jewish history (especially medieval and local), theology, music, ...

➴ Ukrainian history, contemporary politics and culture, particularly Vyšyvanka and music

➴ Butch-Fem/me, lesbian and trans history

➴ Cheburashka, Sesame Street, Sendung mit der Maus

➴ Urbanism and trains, especially trams and ICE (German high-speed rail)

➴ household appliances, analogue technology, stuffed animals

➴ My special interest is disability and inclusion and I'm passionate about practically anything relating to it. My main interests is trauma (therapy) and structural dissociation, especially relating to down syndrome, intellectual Disability, Autism and personality and dissociative disorders, as well as organised abuse and prevention of sexual violence against intellectually disabled people. Other specific interests are visual and hearing impairments, accessibility and aids and medication safety.

➴ my pets

🍏 Other Socials:

➴ Goodreads: /ponybutchautism

🍏 Political affiliations/Opinions:

➴ Zionist, in favour of a 2-State solution

➴ Social Democrat (regarding German/European politics, not affiliated with any US-American party)

➴ I've always been fascinated by anarchism but don't believe that it's actually a viable option, currently and probably ever. However, I'm learning about applying anarchist principles on a community or inter-personal level

➴ Anti-Fascist

➴ Anti-Authoritarian

🍏 Anti-Racist

🍏 Intersectional feminist

🍏 Pro-Ukraine

🍏 Pro-Legalisation of illegal substances, Pro-Harm Reduction/Safer Use, Pro-Substitution and on methadone myself but Anti-Abstinence Only approaches to recovery

🍏 Strongly against pre-natal testing for Disability and Intersex Conditions but Pro-Choice

🍏 Unapologetically queer, accepting of complex and "contradictory" identities, all pronouns, microlabels, macrolabels, objectum orientation, etc. Asexual/Aromantic spectrum, polyamory and kink/fetish inclusionist.

🍏 Anti-AGAB-, anti-TMA/TME-, anti- transfem/transmasc etc. binaries

🍏 In favour of evidence based, no-pearl-clutching discussions regarding paraphilia, (sexual) abuse and other "uncomfy" topics, that actually aim to understand the phenomena and the people affected by them to prevent (sexual) abuse, as well as focussing on the well-being of survivors and affected people, instead of appealing to a 3rd party's punitive desires.

🍏 High(er) support needs autistic/disabled people need to be at the forefront of autistic/disabled activism. HSN autistic people may have different opinions on autism, disability, language, etc. than what is popular in the online low-support needs autistic community and that is okay. Listen to them.

🍏 The puzzle piece is not an inherently bad symbol as there are many autistic people who like it and feel represented by it. I am one of those people.

🍏 Caretakers of disabled people are a vital part of the extended disabled community and should be welcomed (this includes "autism moms"). Excluding caretakers means excluding disabled people.

🍏 Calling traumatised sex work survivors SWERFS/bigots for being critical of sex work or hating people who benefit from it (customers, pimps) is NOT radical. Sex Work that traumatises, exploits poverty, oppression or addiction needs to be abolished asap. Personally, I don't give a shit about Johns or their opinions and they certainly felt the same regarding me. I center (Ex-) sex workers, their/our wellbeing and their/our voices. While I know that there are (independent) sex workers who choose sex work freely, genuinely like and may even find it empowering, it's important to remember that the kind of sex work people generally talk about on this app only reflects the experience of tiny, privileged minority compared to sex workers globally.

➴ Communication:

• Blog runs primarily on a queue

• Please reach out to me if something I posted is inaccurate or if you have suggestions for making my blog more accessible.

• I'm always down for asks, dms, irl contacts and especially penpals. In fact, I would love to interact with you! Don't hesitate to just tag me in something or slide into my DMs to ask for advice, talk about your (special) interests or hyperfixation, vent, etc. or tag me in stuff you think I'll like! Edit: Unfortunately, I cannot reply usually currently but I read messages and are happy about them. However, my ask box seems to be continuously broken as I usually don't get notifications and oftentimes forget to check.

• Unfortunately, I sometimes and currently have a hard time with remembering/being able to reply right away and may not answer for an extended time if I am in a bad spot or have forgotten. I'm working on it but I will probably always struggle with it. Please don't hesitate to text me again.

➴ Content Notes for this blog:

• Educational/artistic/queer nudity, sexual health and other forms of NSFW, though rare

• Medical imagery

• Discussions of sexual, domestic, medical and other abuse, incl. Intersex genital mutilation (IGM) and trauma related to sex work

• Discussions of drug usage, safer use and addiction

• Discussion and examples of antisemitism, racism, queerphobia, intersexism, ableism and other forms of bigotry, oppression, etc.

I typically tag things as what they are both for content note and organising reasons. Let me know if you need anything specific tagged.

🧸 You are loved. You are valuable. You are welcome here. 🧸

Last edit: 17 - June - 2026

[thebelfry]

I just learned that the Russian word for “ladybug” translates to “God’s Little Cow”

[vampireapologist-archive-deacti]

It’s the same in Irish! bóín Dé!

[peniswizard69]

in hebrew it’s “our rabbi moses’s cow”

[vampireapologist-archive-deacti]

Oh I love this news!!!!

[pulmonary-poultry]

Multiple cultures upon seeing a ladybug for the first time: “Who’s cow is this????”

[thejonymyster]

[thejonymyster]

[thejonymyster]

[postilionstruckbylightning]

It feels like some early humans were naming things and one of them ran out of ideas.

Human 1: (points at animal) What’s that?

Human 2: Cow.

Human 1: (points at bug) What’s that?

Human 2: … little cow.

Human 1: But it’s so much smaller. Who would have use for such a small cow?

Human 2: (panicking but in too deep to stop now) God.

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

The “Lady” in the name “ladybug” is the virgin Mary. People just cannot stop giving religious names to this bug.

The reason for this was that if you lived in an agrarian society then your survival was a throw of the dice every year, depending on the success of the crops. A failed crop year is a very hard year where deaths are expected. And if you grew a cereal like wheat, there were several things that could cause your crops to fail, but one of the big ones was if you happened to get a fuckton of aphids. You know what eats aphids? Ladybugs! If there are lots and lots of ladybugs around, there was a good chance that it’d be a good crop year! They were little crop protectors! When your family lives or dies on the success of that crop, of course they’d be seen as a blessing and given an appropriate name!

[magical-bear-dubin]

That is such an interesting etymology!!!!

And entomology too i guess

[asparklethatisblue]

in German they’re Marienkäfer which also pretty much means “Mary’s Beetle”

[istadris]

In French it’s “Good Lord’s Beast”

Not even a cow, it’s just a little Creature but we know for sure God loves it.

[dent-de-l1on]

In Dutch it’s “Lieveheersbeestje”, the Good Lord’s Little Beast

A liddol creeture

[tesria]

In the UK they’re ladybirds, which I believe is the older term that ladybug took over from, but with a somewhat more fanciful suffix.

[labelma]

Something I think that a lot of leftists and progressives fail to understand, is that the push against normalization with Israel and for the complete dissolution of the state, actively makes the situation worse for Palestinians. It actively makes the conflict worse, and I would argue is one of the direct causes for the war getting as bad as it did.

You are directly harming your own cause.

Refusing to acknowledge the existence of the State of Israel doesn’t materially change the reality that Israel is a sovereign nation with over ten million citizens. When leftists in the west chant “from the river to the sea” and “we don’t want no two states”, regardless of the intention, what do you think Israelis hear? What do you think a people that has faced genocide in living memory, from which our population still has not recovered, gets from that? We don’t hear it and consider your points, we hear it and remember all of the times Israel has been attacked with genocidal intent, and only survived through our own defense.

And what does this ultimately result it? It results in Israelis who no longer believe in the peace process. It results in Israelis who feel a visceral sense of fear which leads to doubling down on national security. It leads to diaspora Jews feeling unsafe in their communities and immigrating to Israel.

It leads to the total dissolution of the peace process, and what happens if there is no chance for peace? If there’s no hope for any type of solution then the only answer is endless war, and this war doesn’t just hurt Israelis, you know that.

[imyourbadjew]

They're not harming their own cause, because their cause is not about helping Palestinians, it's about destroying Israel

[folklorespring]

Rugs from Zhytomyr and Poltava region, Ukraine, 19th century.

[sonyaheaneyauthor]

Ukrainian theatre group in Sydney, Australia in the early 1950s.

Many Ukrainians taken for slave labour in the 1940s ended up in Australia as refugees.

[pettycentral]

[bats-online]

Ideas in the 1890s: What if cocaine was a health drink

Ideas in the 1920s: We should make a new kind of plastic you can eat

Ideas in the 1960s: We should invent a new and more civil racism

Ideas in the 1980s: What if you could have sex with Hello World

Ideas in the 1990s: What if cars had TVs in them

Ideas in the 2000s: Is it gay to wash your hair?

Ideas in the 2010s: What if a refrigerator was made of goo

Ideas in the 2020s: What if there was a website where you could talk to Pepsi

[balaclava-trismegistus]

if i dont respond to a message from you i can basically guarantee its not because i dislike you. im just getting attacked by imps and shit all the time genuinely.

[knight-of-skyloft]

What makes me really, really angry is how people on the left completely dismissed Lyndsey Fifield (Republican ex, was physically abused and held against her will) but are taking Jenny Racicot seriously (Democrat ex, was raped). Because there are two implications here: 1. Domestic violence is not a big deal as long as there's no sexual abuse, and 2. Domestic violence is not a big deal if it happens to The Enemy. And both are equally horrific.

[shamebats]

Since there is a wave of anti-birth control propaganda, this is your reminder that the birth coontrol pill was responsible for 30% more women graduating with college degrees between 1970-1990

[cwicseolfor]

Also a whole lot of people need it to hold down a job or stay in school regardless of reproductive risk: it offers menstrual control. It can be the difference between debilitating, bedbound periods and normal function. It’s medicine. It’s also very cheap to produce and returns soooo many thousands of dollars to the economy for every dollar it costs, so don’t let anyone make a false financial argument about it.

[chutzpahchesed]

French Jewish Tourists Chased Through Barcelona Streets in Antisemitic Harassment Incident

Anti-Israel demonstrators release smoke in the colors of the Palestinian flag as they protest to condemn the Israeli forces’ interception …

A group of French Jewish tourists was reportedly chased and harassed by a crowd shouting antisemitic insults after leaving a synagogue in Barcelona — the latest incident amid a broader surge of anti-Jewish hostility and targeted violence across Spain.

The tourists, who were wearing kippahs, were walking back to their hotel through the city’s beachfront Olympic Village area following Shabbat services on Friday when a woman wearing a Palestinian keffiyeh allegedly shouted antisemitic slurs at them and repeatedly spat in their direction, according to the Federation of Jewish Communities in Spain (FCJE), the country’s main Jewish umbrella organization.

The harassment reportedly escalated as dozens of others gradually joined in, some arriving on bicycles, scooters, and motorcycles, surrounding the group and cutting off its path forward. Members of the crowd shouted, “Jews are not welcome in Barcelona,” “Baby killers,” and “Israeli genocide,” according to the victims.

The tourists said they feared an imminent physical attack, but security staff at their hotel, the Hotel Arts, reportedly prevented the group from entering.

The FCJE is now collecting evidence and urging anyone who witnessed the incident or has photos or video footage to come forward, as it reviews the possibility of filing criminal complaints.

“If confirmed, this would be one of the most serious episodes of antisemitic harassment recorded in Barcelona in recent years,” the federation said in a statement, adding that the incident “comes amid a broader escalation of antisemitic acts reported in recent months, including the desecration of the Montjuïc Jewish cemetery, graffiti and vandalism, intimidating demonstrations, and threats directed at members of the community.”

“We call on the authorities to take a firm stance against this trend,” the statement continued. “Antisemitism is not only a concern for the Jewish community, but a threat to democracy as a whole.”

Like most countries across Europe and the broader Western world, Spain has seen a rise in antisemitic incidents over the past two years, following the invasion of and massacre across southern Israel by the Palestinian terrorist group Hamas on Oct. 7, 2023.

Spain stands out as one of the most extreme cases, however, with experts warning that antisemitic violence and anti-Zionist rhetoric have moved beyond a social phenomenon to being, in many instances, state-promoted and legitimized as a political tool. Spanish Prime Minister Pedro Sánchez and several members of his Socialist Party have come under mounting criticism from some of the country’s political and Jewish leaders, who accuse them of fueling antisemitic hostility.

Last month, Spanish authorities launched an investigation into a public school in Madrid’s Puente de Vallecas district after 10-year-old students performed a pro-Palestinian play dressed in military-style uniforms resembling those of Hamas terrorists, wearing balaclavas and carrying toy rifles. Footage of the performance spread widely on social media, sparking outrage among the local Jewish community and political leaders.

During the play, the children could be heard chanting phrases such as “With strength and courage, we will not surrender,” while some girls wearing keffiyehs chanted lines including “Resistance and freedom.”

Education authorities in Madrid initiated an inspection into the school over allegations that it may have violated the political neutrality required in Spain’s public education system.

they’ll then insist things like this aren’t related to, and don’t stoke the flames of, chasing and threatening Jews through the streets.

‘Destroy Israel’ Banner at Spain’s San Fermín Festival Sparks Outrage From Jewish Leaders and Officials

A banner reading “Destroy Israel” was displayed above a crowd during the opening celebrations of Spain’s San Fermín festival in …

Spain has never reconciled with its centuries’ worth of antisemitism, genocide, and complicity with the Nazi regime.

[blackguyventing]

I keep seeing this shit during pride month and honestly im starting to feel like it’s hopeless. it’s hard to feel empathy from others as a male SA survivor already and now im realizing that no one gives a fuck if we do get harmed edit: sorry i tend to post vents without context, poster uses they/them and is transfem from what i can see on the acc, not a cis woman as some comments are stating

[covid-safer-hotties]

Severe COVID-19 and flu can facilitate lung cancer months or years later

Severe COVID-19 and influenza infections prime the lungs for cancer and can accelerate the disease's development, but vaccination heads off

Also preserved in our archive

Me @ all the people who've ever yelled at me for saying covid is carcinogenic (and also that the flu is no big deal)

[transmaschottakes]

“omg men trying period pain somulators omg!!”

“men trying pregnancy for a day!!”

“omg what if men could get pregnant hahaha”

“men would suffer if they had female/woman problems!!”

trans and intersex men with endometriosis

trans and intersex men with uteruses

pre-testosterone and pre surgery trans/intersex men

trans and intersex men who gave or can give birth or have gone through pregnancy

trans and intersex men who are still seen as “wrong women” or social experiments by society

trans and intersex men who are excluded when the topic of periods, hygienic and medical care that mainly involve people who are born with female attributes

need i say more

[victusinveritas]

Polish folks LARPing as Americans, some photographs of (by Maciej Margielski)

More phots here.

More info on the LARP (4th of July) here. (You can join this year's, there are still spots left.)

[biblically-accurate-bird]

Another Missing My Hooves Hour

[girlactionfigure]

250 years of American history. Jewish Americans were there for all of it, as immigrants, soldiers, artists, and activists. Here's a small piece of that story.

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