* 𝑳𝑰𝑻𝑻𝑳𝑬 ／ 𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐆𝐔𝐄

[cassoliver]

     &* //  𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐞  +  𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲  𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐝  (  @mattyfm  )      !

[mattyfm]

[detective-peraltiago]

you have no faith in my scientific abilities! because you fall asleep in my hand!

[tfrory]

╰ ◦  ✩ . @mattyfm !

[mattyfm]

ROXANNE & MATTY:

𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 to her life, in any way or form at the end of the dark tunnel, there was him.  ❛that’s just because you have talent and I wanted the world to know!, also that was just me giving you a little push❜ she says proud of him. roxanne had never doubted matthew’s talent, he had a lot to share.  ❛shit, me too. what about hm❜ she bites her lesser lip thinking for a second.  ❛well the album is almost complete, i hope I get a release date by august❜ she was excited about her come back as a musician, it had been a while.  ❛other than that I’ve had a few interviews here and there, paparazzi on my face still asking about my hospital experience and—i’ve been dating here and there but…❜ she shrugs.  ❛i don’t know❜ she says keeping quiet about how she had been thinking about a certain someone for a while. 

he and roxanne had known each other longer than he could remember, the predetermination of their friendship not enough to show everyone how close they’d be. “and now you have a talent and the world will know! i’m so proud of you roxie.” he beams, they were always the biggest support system each of them had, cheering on whatever endeavor they decided to take on. “and i better be able to listen early.” he says teasing, although there was a slight truth to his words. “no no no, you’re holding something back.” he says plainly, “i know that look, that tone of voice, that was the same way you acted in middle school when i asked if you had a crush on austin carter, which you did.” he maintains eye contact with his next words, “out with it.”

[mattyfm]

ALEX & MATTY​:

‘i don’t think you were that good’ ouch. that stung. even if alex knew matty didn’t mean it… even if his memory tells him that he and matty both had possibly the best time together, and he was just attempting to bounce of alex’s coldness. he knows he can’t blame him; alex was practically doing the same thing. he stopped in his tracks — he was known for being a witty guy; always being able to come up with a comeback on the spot. but right now? he couldn’t respond, completely caught off guard. however, practically saved by the bell, it was time for them to finish their scene, and alex wasn’t so sure he could do this anymore. his agent was so sure that he’d be perfect for the role, but could he really go on for months pretending to be matty’s love interest on set? is that really a good idea? he let this train of thought go on and on as the scene started, and matty kept going with his lines. and then there was a pause. he knew this was his cue to move in closer, and kiss matty – but he froze. seriously? alex morgan fucking freezing? matty really did a number on him, so it seems. but before he even knew what was happening, matty was closing the distance between them, and his lips were on alex’s. and where were they? and who was around? nowhere and no one that alex cared about at the moment; this is all that mattered to him this time. he didn’t really expect to be pushed back into a pool of vivid memories that he shared with him when matty kissed him – it was overwhelming, and it pushed alex to pull him closer, kiss him harder, and make him feel all those months he went missing him and regretting what he did and what he had ruined. and he could feel that from matty, as well — and then, too soon, it was over, and alex was left looking at matty, while the casting director said something in the background (whatever, alex didn’t really care). quickly, he pulls himself out of his stupor and clears his throat, looking down at his feet before looking back up at matty. “well, i hope that fit your standards, matty. you might be getting a lot more of that.” 

alex pulls him closer, kisses him harder, and all of this feels like a daydream. the kind of thing he’d imagine in rehab during group, hoping when he was released there alex would be, professing his undying love. how foolish he was to think alexander morgan would have ever waited for him. matty’s eyelids felt heavy, like the only thing destined to happen in that moment was kissing alex. he’s suddenly forced to see a supercut of all the times they had kissed in the living room, the bedroom, the kitchen, and that opens the floodgates for everything he had felt for alex crashing over him like a tidal wave. if matty were more poetic he might say kissing alex tasted like a bandaid drench in lonely and regret. but with rose colored glasses the only way he can describe it was breathtaking. quite literally. the kind of kiss you pull away from being unable to speak, matty couldn’t even think straight. he even managed to miss the yelling of cut! cut! from the casting director, it seemed even if she’d seen enough, they hadn’t made it up to one another yet. finally matty come to his senses and he pulls away, somehow a kiss that lasted less than a minute felt like hours, and each second he didn’t kiss alex again felt like days, month, years if he yearned long enough. his lips felt numb, in the best way possible. a high that he could only get when he was using. this gave him a similar rush, where he felt nothing and everything all at once, so much so that he has to touch his hands to his lips, making sure that what happened wasn’t a figment of his imagination. a fantasy come to life. the kiss he wished alex would’ve gave him before he left, or before he decided to stay. why didn’t he stay? matty’s mind is racing, or maybe it’s his heart, or maybe both are simultaneously while alex looks at him, and he musters up the courage to look back. “if you think they’re not going to choose you after that, you couldn’t be more wrong.” he comments still trying to wrap his head around everything. “i guess my memory was wrong that was....wow.” he’s finally caught his breath, now he sounds like the weak one. “next time though you might not want to miss your cue, and actually kiss me.” 

[mattyfm]

ROXANNE & MATTY​:

her smile grows big as matt embraces her in a long hug. matty was one of her best friends, they knew each other since they were kids and she couldn’t imagine her life without him being in it.  ❛you don’t have to apologize baby, im so glad you’re back❜ roxanne rests her head on his chest looking up to see his face.  ❛for me?❜ she gasps.  ❛I feel so honored, thank you for being my biggest fan❜ she says chuckling. they pull away and she immediately nods.  ❛there’s so much we need to talk about. you know mi casa es tu casa❜          

“are you kidding? of course i do. the world needed a roxanne and matty comeback.”  he laughs and looks down at her, “all for you,” he says bursting into a smile, he couldn’t help that around her things just seemed so much better, the sun shined a little brighter, life just felt more complete. “why are you thanking me? if i remember correctly it was you that pushed me to pursue my acting dream, and look at me now. i will support you in anything you do, so write that down.” he smiles, “good because i’m starving, i’ll make some snacks, you dish, tell me everything, don’t leave out any small detail.”

[mattyfm]

ALEX & MATTY​:

walking into an audition and seeing an ex (and it had to be fucking matty, of all his exes — the one that he wasn’t sure he would ever get over) was enough to get alex shaken up for the day. he was truly speechless as he walked into the room; and he could tell matty was shocked as well. although, he seemed to be a little better at keeping his cool than alex was (that little bastard – was alex going to look like the only weak one here?). ‘ — no shit’ were the only words that alex could muster up right now after matty had said he wasn’t expecting to see him any time soon. alex was so fucking clammy and taken aback, he thought he was going to bomb this audition – he just needed a minute to process all the emotions that were crashing over him like a wave right now. and then the scene started, and alex didn’t really have to act… he was in love with him once before (still is? was it even love if it was only two weeks? he wasn’t so sure), and he’s argued with him plenty of times before. it was easy to go back and forth on this scene with him, yet one of the most difficult things that alex has ever gone through. he wasn’t even sure he wanted to get this part anymore. to reiterate, walking into an audition and seeing an ex was enough to get alex shaken up, and saying ‘i love you’ to him all in one day was earth-shattering for him – even if it was an audition, and they were merely acting. “how is that sad? i love you”. in a quick moment, alex was taken back to his apartment, months ago, laying in a bed with matty – maybe they were high at the time, it was hard to tell when they were high or not whenever they were together (he always felt high around him). and he said those words to him, merely after two weeks of meeting him – alex, the boy who could barely say i love you in his long-term relationships, and it didn’t even matter whether he truly did or not — he felt something so strong with matty that he was still trying to find in other people. and suddenly, the scene was over, and matty was speaking to him normally again, as if there was never anything between them  — and alex couldn’t tell if he was just confused or getting angrier by each passing second (at least give me a reaction). well, maybe two can play at this game. “i think i’ve nailed it, too. i’m not too worried about the chemistry behind our kiss… i think we’ve got that down, too. no?” alex grins at him, cocking his head to the side slightly. when he felt like his emotions were taking over, alex could not help but be a dick. 

it was easy to remember the good in alex, that pure heart which always managed to do the wrong thing. or maybe alex did the right thing by leaving him, it had made him sober up ( not that matty would ever come off the high that was alexander morgan ), but a selfish part of him couldn’t help but wonder if they could have stayed together through it all. no one ever tells you that you can drown in brown eyes until it’s too late, and every time matty thought he gained his footing, that he had finally learned to float, there he comes in again pulling him right back down into a place that matty had fought tooth and nail to get out of. when the scene started, and the words had to flow out of his mouth like silk, the set had faded away in matty’s mind, and there they were in alex’s kitchen arguing about something, maybe a variation of this argument, the familiar ‘i love you’ and a kiss that was sickeningly sweet despite the fact all they had eaten for the past few days was take out. it was something they didn’t have to fake, the natural chemistry that burned so brightly between them, maybe that’s how they were blinded. two weeks of a flame that caused a forest fire, one that matty still felt the affects of too this day, swearing he had put out every spark until they meet eyes again, and suddenly it feels like the fire never stopped in the first place. i love you. i love you. i love you. the words feel so familiar and yet so foreign coming from alex. he remembers in a queen sized bed they were snuggled together as if they were on a twin. passing a joint between the two of them as if they needed drugs to get the same rush they felt from simply being around each other. “i don’t know last i remember, i don’t think you were that good.” he’s trying to keep his cool, trying to act like being near him wasn’t ripping the very fiber of his being apart, that this wasn’t aching. he hears a familiar sound signaling the end of their break, “that’s five alex, let’s see if you can prove me wrong.” he slips back into his acting persona, he already had the part, and secretly working with alex seemed as good of an excuse to see him as any. his eyes are watering, “i just don’t know who i am anymore! i think it would be better for me if i went through it alone.” he braces himself for fireworks, for a kiss that would put all others to shame. but for once in his life alex seems to be frozen, struggling to think of something to do. and in response, matty goes off instinct. closing the space between them as he grabs alex by the back of the neck and kisses him peppering kisses, as if he were thirsty, desperate for more. his fingertips gently touch alex’s hair, ending with a final kiss, a goodbye kiss matty never truly got in the first place.

[mattyfm]

╰ ♡ ✧ ˖  closed starter for @tfroxanne​ !

“pop rox!” he giggles calling her by the childhood nickname he’d never let go of. “i missed you so much!” he exclaims wrapping her into a tight hug. “sorry if it seems like i haven’t been around much, between filming, auditions, and flying back home to meet my little sister’s future husband, i haven’t had time for myself.” he still hasn’t let go of her, the tight embrace hopefully conveying how much he had truly missed getting to see his best friend. “but i freed up an entire week of my schedule just for us, and i have been streaming cosmic love day and night, i am so proud of you.” he beams, finally releasing her from his grasp. “roxanne, if we don’t have a week long sleepover i might spontaneously combust.”

[mattyfm]

matty’s least favorite part about auditions were cold reads, he always froze up, and the chemistry between him and his onscreen counterpart always seemed fake. now he’s on the opposite end of the cold read, a steady stream of guys flowing in and out of the set, all with the hopes of landing the part. truly at this point the search was becoming hopeless. next! the casting director shouts, calling out a string of numbers followed by a name he never thought he’d have to hear again, alexander morgan. once upon a time, the current pit in his stomach would have been replaced by the flapping of butterflies wings, but there was a stillness now. “you know you’re the last person i expected to see here,” his voice softens to a mutter, and there is a subtle trace of hurt. but this wasn’t the place to mope over what could have been, this was strictly professional, he’d read the lines on the paper, and alex would be on his way. ‘and we’re starting from scene 32, the argument scene, matthew i want to see tears, alex i want to the forgiveness, and go!’ matty was already off book, a prerequisite for the audition, and so the opportunity arises to look alex in his face, and tell him things he’d always been too afraid of saying. “you’re sorry?” he questions walking a few paces from him, “this isn’t okay, you get to be angry.” he leaves a pause for alex to say his lines. “but you should be!” he shuffles forward yet again, purpose in his strides. “anybody who hears this story! i stole an amazing opportunity from you this isn’t okay, you should be pissed off, and yelling! the fact that you’re not...maybe we’re just both messed up, but this is not what a healthy relationship looks like.” matty swallows roughly the argument becoming to real, he can see alex’s apartment they once shared, how they crashed together like planets, a beautiful collision they couldn’t help but gawk at. “well then that’s really sad.” he knows the next lines are...i love you...what he doesn’t know if is alex is willing to say it. “seriously that’s your response to you finding out i lied?” another brief pause for alex to say his line, “i don’t! or at least i don’t want to be somebody who does so...” a trail off wasn’t in the script, but a montage of their time together is playing in matty’s head, the line between fiction and their reality fading. “i love you, i love you so much. you’ve been so good to me, you stayed with me when most guys would have run, and you didn’t even bat an eye you just love me.” cut! he hears called out behind them. take five we’re going to resume with scene 34 the kissing scene. he wipes the tears from his eyes, looking over towards alex, “you did a really good job. i can tell from their body language, they just want to make sure we have chemistry you can ‘feel through the screen’ as my agent would say.” rather than looking at him, he looks past alex to the door, searching for any way out of what seemed like a nightmare come to life. @xandermrgn​

[mattyfm]

MATTY & CASS & EAST​:

“it’s like when someone asks you a lot of questions ,” she clarified with a sweet smile . it was funny to her that he liked her boring old american accent , which didn’t sound half as appealing in comparison to his cheeky british tone . so she just laughed and shook her head . cass couldn’t help but smile through the soft peck . his excitement made her excited . letting out a deep breath as the driver stopped the car and came around to open the door for the couple , she spoke up , “ready as i’ll ever be . let’s do this .” she gave a determined nod before gently dragging east out of the car . the driver was also kind enough to retrieve their bags out of the trunk , to which cass gave him a large smile and a small thank you in return . she assured the man that they wouldn’t need help carrying everything inside . and with that , she was unlocking the front door and stepping into the threshold of the large home . she never let go of east’s hand . “helloooooo ,” she called out in hopes that her parents or brothers would hear and welcome them with open arms , “we’re here !” @mattyfm​

matty took the first flight home when he’d found out about his new engagement. if anybody was going to be the rational one in the family it’d be him, usually, but the stir of an engagement set off his protective nature to where mason’s vague threats sound appealing. at the bare minimum he knew he had to be nice. they only wanted to scare the guy a little, not run him off. originally they had been peaking out the window, trying to sneak a glimpse of the two before they stepped inside, but by the time the sound of a lock turning echoes through the estate, they’re huddled up trying to think of a game plan. cassie’s voice carries all the way to where they stand in the kitchen, and you can hear the hurried rush of footsteps as they all make their way to the foyer. “cassie!” he exclaims scooping her up in his arms, during the exchange he looks east up and down, slightly glaring, letting him know he means business. “you both have a lot of explaining to do,” he says finally releasing her from his grip so the rest of their family could get a turn, “especially you.” matty states frigidly pointing an accusatory finger at east.

[mattyfm]

⁇ ✉ ♀ whoops mY HAND SLIPPED

jeeda here’s your dose of angst please don’t talk to me or my son EVER AGAIN after this thank you.

𝑫𝑹𝑼𝑵𝑲 𝑻𝑬𝑿𝑻 

𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : maybe i’ve had one too many shots 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i think i’m in love with you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : honestly i don’t think part of me ever got over you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : god i feel like shit 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i keep sleeping with people and i can’t get you’re god damn brown eyes out of my head, and they don’t even make you special 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : a majority of the population has brown eyes bitch 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : they’re just not you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : no one is ever going to be you.

𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑩𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑻𝑬𝑿𝑻 

𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : please don’t do this 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : stay for me. 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i can fix this 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : we can fix this 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i know i can be better for you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : am i really that bad?

𝑨 𝑻𝑬𝑿𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑨𝑻 𝑾𝑨𝑺 𝑵𝑶𝑻 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻 

𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i just got out of rehab 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i thought it would be so hard to live without drugs or alcohol, difficult to get that rush again 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : really it’s just hard living without you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i know you probably don’t think about me anymore 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : but i don’t think i’ve ever stopped thinking about you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : holy shit i don’t think i’ve ever stopped thinking about you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : and i know i’m never going to compete 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : but just know i would have done anything for you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i think i even got clean for you, more so to get rid of you, can’t fall in love with a drug dealer if you have to stay sober right? 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i heard horror stories about you before we met 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i thought none of them could be true that somehow i could outsmart you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : but all it took was a smile, that damn smile that hasn’t left my head from the minute i laid eyes on you, and i was hooked 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : if i never get an opportunity to tell you this 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i forgive you. 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : because this is the last time i ever want to say these words to you 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i love you. 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : and because i need to keep you out of my life 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : goodbye.

[suisicedsquad]

#these parallels kill me #the more the show goes on #the more you see how both jake and gina #have made influences in each other #since their childhood

[mattyfm]

╰ ♡ ✧ ˖ feat. @tfroxanne .

[mattyfm]

⁇ & ☎

𝑫𝑹𝑼𝑵𝑲 𝑻𝑬𝑿𝑻

𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : roxie 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i don’t know where i am again 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i think you need to come pick me up

𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑻𝑬𝑿𝑻

𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : roxieeeeeeee 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : why did you not answer the phone? 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : it was important!!! i needed to tell you that i love you  𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : you’re literally one of the best people i’ve ever met, i’m so happy you exist 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : i’m gonna be over in a little while for movie night <3  

𝑹𝑼𝑺𝑯𝑬𝑫 𝑻𝑬𝑿𝑻

𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : import 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : 2 busy 2 type 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐲 : x emergency!!!!  

[jvsmincs]

rpmememaker​:

Send “✆” for a MORNING text. Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT. Send “☎” for a RUSHED text. Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text. Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text. Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text. Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text. Send “#” for a RANDOM text. Send “@” for a SCARED text. Send “&” for a LOVING text. Send “%” for a CURIOUS text. Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text. Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text. Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.

[mattyfm]

what's your proudest achievement? what's your biggest regret?

“my proudest achievement is being cassie’s big brother, and my biggest regret is becoming one of those siblings.”

[mattyfm]

what do u think of ur sister's fiance?

“am i allowed to say no comment? okay no wait, that was really mean, he seems nice. but i have to get to know him more.”

[mattyfm]