liberating, isn't it?

ind. murphy macmanus. by noah.

[mayflourish]

HIATUS UPDATE.   i know i haven’t been around a lot, and i know i’ve made a few posts sort of explaining the deal with that    ----    but i have a few little updates in case anyone is wondering/interested.  i’ve been pretty down lately, depressed and anxious as hell, and i really haven’t been able to find the energy to grab my laptop and actually do things.  part of that has to do with the fact that i think i’m beginning to get a little overwhelmed by my blogs.  i’ve gotten so much attention and love from you guys, so many threads and whatnot and while i love every single interaction i have, sometimes it does get to be too much for me.  this, of course, has nothing to do with any of you guys or my feelings for you guys.  it’s just something i need to work on for myself.

in the intermediate, i’ve been working on revamping an original character i had back in 2013.  this oc is very special to me, and i think having a character that isn’t canon but still means as much to me as some canon characters would be a nice sort of break for me.  i’m in no way abandoning this blog nor michonne  ( @bloodiedblade )  but i do feel like i need a bit longer of a break from these blogs while i gather myself, so i’m going to keep them on hiatus.  michonne will probably be a bit less used than murphy, and i’m hoping once the show returns that i’ll be able to go back on her blog

the url for my new blog is  @boldspirit  and while the blog is still under massive construction, i think i’m at a point where i can make him active and start using him.  if you’re interested in interacting with me still, you’re absolutely free to follow me over on that blog    ----    if not, no worries  !!  i just wanted to let everyone know that that’s where i’ve been.

i also would like to thank everyone on both my accounts for their understanding and patience in my time of fluctuating moods.  it really means a lot to me to hear the constant support from the few people i do talk to ooc.  i hope you’ve all had wonderful holidays and are taking care of yourselves and staying hydrated.  i love you guys a lot.  xoxo, noah.

[mayflourish]

.

[eni-eichhorn]

[mayflourish]

destroy all that which is evil.     est.  december 2016.

[iincendiu-archive-deactivated20]

💤 reverse (gasps)

SEND “💤” FOR MY MUSE TO FALL ASLEEP WHILE RESTING AGAINST YOURS.  (  accepting  )

he’d allowed for it, the caress of beast to man, without complaint or hesitance — if only to fuel that inextinguishable ego, to affirm the face of love and tenderness had not a crack upon it. such is why it hardly came as a surprise when relian realized murphy had not only taken moment’s refuge atop his breast, but now rest alongside it. a hand settled softly over his back, the opposite to his head. 

the serpent’s smile slowly faded, and so too did his eyes flutter closed. amidst that blind quiet he imagined it to be another with pulse of mortal heart in his arms, defenseless and tame and pale, and a single tear fell from his chin.

[mayflourish]

merry xmas eve uwu

[bloodiedblade]

i’m crying for you.   i think about all the things i’m going to do to you and it makes me cry.   it scares me.     //     est. 11/24/16.

[userboxer]

[userboxer]

[whichisevil]

31) things you said while I cried in your arms :)))

Meme || accepting

i. ❝He’s in heaven now.❞ You’re SEVEN the first time he grieves, & you learn what cruelty is. You don’t have the heart to tell Murph. To SAY you saw the neighbor feed his mangy black dog, green pellets for doing away with his morning paper for the umpteenth time. Hands raw—You BOTH dig up a peaceful grave in a field of clovers. As a propercatholic.YOU can forgive. But you DON’T forget.The hiding your mam gives you for breaking the rat bastard’s front windows, is well worth it. ii. ❝It’s alrigh’.—❞ You don’t know what else to say & big baby blues are welling with tears as he holds the broken remains of your father’s keepsake.An old medal— Saint Nicholas. At ten years old? You aren’t afraid to LASH out at others. To bare your teeth in a snarl. Raised by wolves!, the teachers huff at you as you pass in the school hallways. & you are PROUD. Your mother forged you with FIRE in her belly.Yet? You can’t bring yourself to turn your anger on Murphy. To strike, like only you know how. His fingers are wrung raw from how hard he’s been worrying his hands—DRIED tear tracks on his cheeks.He knows what it means to— you.But all YOU do is pull him close, and hold him tight. Somehow? It only makes him cry HARDER. iii. ❝I understand—❞ You’re sprawled on the floor. Mouth tasting like a shiny new copper penny.SIXTEEN? Ain’t that sweet.Murphy is sorry the instant it leaves your mouth. SORRY for the split in your lip— The way you’ve taken these lashes meant for an absentee father. You feel older than your bones. Feel the sorrow creeping through your veins like thistle & weed.WHY? WHY does your mother drink herself to sleep? WHY does your brother cry in his? WHY are you not ENOUGH to keep your fractured little family together? You are NOT Atlas. But for ONCE. The weight of the question threatens to crush you where you lay. Murphy crumples on top of you. Head tucked underneath your chin— Your eyes remain DRY. iiii. ❝Do you love ye’ self?❞ She’s finally left him— & though his eyes are wet with tears. You are PRESENT and accounted for despite your relief on the matter. It takes time to heal. & perhaps he will bear the scars a bit longer than you’d like. But—There WILL be a person out there. A gentle heart with easy smiles & laughter. You make a mental note to pray for them. So that their journey to HIM will be short, as you make an uncouth joke & he snorts a snot bubble out in unexpected mirth. ❝Love ye’ self like I do—❞ You huff obnoxiously, and ruffle his hair as he rolls his eyes. What you DON’T say? Is that HE’S the only part of you—You love FIERCELY. v. ❝I’ll come back from tha’ dead for ye.❞ His panic is acrid on your tongue—You can TASTE it on your palate after you’ve killed the eighth man that’s threatened your lives. Your breaths come short.With eyes true blue, and fathomless you are ENOUGH to calm him as your hold tightens around his nape. You would cross HELL itself barefoot if he needed you. So what if you’ve had your own close calls? A life WITHOUT your brother would be a shadow of existence. HE tames the demons licking at your soul. The dark that looms to swallow you whole, every time you draw your gun and fire in the name of righteousness. ❝I promise.❞ you murmur, and press your lips against his temple as he crumbles with a sob. He believes you.IN you. Despite all the fantastical stories & idiotic things you’ve said? Your flesh & blood would follow blindly. But then?You’ve never lied to HIM, consistency is key. And though your lungs burn with effort? You WILL fight. Perhaps even GOD himself someday—To return to him if you are ever felled.

[guardiansuggestion]

I don’t care if I get hurt, I will protect you with all of my might no matter the cost.

[mayflourish]

im tired af and my brother is taking forever to bring me my stuff so im gonna lay down and pray i dont fall asleep

[mayflourish]

whichisevil.

He SETTLES down. Waits patiently for thirty two fockin’ minutes— Before poking the bear. ❝When I was your age—❞ Connor assumes correctly, he won’t be able to finish.

Doesn’t matter, he’s already cackling.

          ‘   ---   i fuckin’ warned ‘ya  !!   ’     it takes all of two seconds, but murphy  LUNGES,  tackling connor onto the floor of their beat-up apartment, not a single regret running through his mind.

[mayflourish]

whichisevil.

❝Now, now…❞ He pauses gaze sharp. ❝Respect your elders. ❞

          ‘   i’m fuckin’  WARNIN’  ‘ya, connor  !   ’

[mayflourish]

you really think im fallin for this shit microsoft

[genshimada]

the boondock saints challenge

[two tattoos 2/2] ➞ Saint Mary

[mayflourish]

whichisevil.

❝Ye just admitted my dick’s bigger—❞ He brings their mother’s taunting words to the forefront, before shrugging.

          ‘   i’m gonna punch ‘ye in the fuckin’ face.   ’