lost astronaut

madison; 19; she/her. i’m back but with a personal account now

[jim-kirk]

Kirk & Uhura + Relationship Development

[agentromanof-deactivated2018062]

Chris Pine photographed by Tomo Brejc for Elle UK, 2014

Fear runs our lives. It doesn’t matter who you are. You have to understand your relationship with fear. Whether you’re scared of getting into a relationship; or taking the new job; or a confrontation- you have to size fear up.

[mccoysbi]

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[mccoysbi]

every time I think about that kiss, I feel so many emotions and I'm suffering

[valtsv]

👀💋☄

[mccoysbi]

Aw! Madi, I'm so happy for you! That all sounds pretty good and I wish you all the best 💕

Thank you, babe <3

[mccoysbi]

Aww Maddi I’m so happy for you!

thank you (:

[mccoysbi]

Maddi that's so cute!!!!! I'm glad you're so happy!!!!!

thank you! <3

[mccoysbi]

OMG! I ship you guys! ♥ So cute. Keep us updated!

another important detail from last night: i mentioned that someone i thought was my friend from work has been acting differently since i told him i’m bisexual, and jayce, the guy i was out with last night, just pulled me closer and said “other people’s opinions don’t matter” and i just felt accepted 

[mccoysbi]

ME! ME! Tell us EVERYTHING!

YES okay. so, important details: he is Fine, he has a cat named Pumpkin, he is respectful and sweet. i asked him to go to the beach with me today after i got off work and it was sunset time when we got there. it was fucking cold too like idk why i make these decisions. anyway we went in the water for a bit and sat on my towel together and he just kind of kept his arm around me while we sat and talked. also he pulled up his shirt to show me his tattoo and !! hoo !! okay but anyway it’s getting colder and the second time we come out of the water, our clothes were wet and we were freezing. we just sat back down on the towel and cuddled a bit cause it was cold (get your head outta the gutter) and eventually it was dark and i was watching the stars and i just said “is it weird that I kind of wanna lay down?” and he says no and just like goes for it bro. he just lays down and puts his hand on my arm to encourage me to lie down like half on his chest. and let me tell you, I have never been cuddley in my life until yesterday with him but this was just like idk it gave me a warm feeling despite it all being new. and so I have my head on his chest and his hand is on my hip and his thumb is rubbing in circles and my hand is on his chest messing with the buttons on his sweater. and I’m chilling right? watching the stars? occasionally talking to him bc the silence is comfortable too. and idk really how it happened but I looked up at him to say something and he just kissed me. the first few seconds were p awkward bc like I didn’t know how to kiss him back really (bc wtf even is kissing honestly) but I kinda just went with it and when I started to kiss him back, he kind of rolled us onto our sides and he put his arms around me and he just kissed me for a bit. he pulled away first and we just smiled at each other then we kissed shortly a couple more times. (and i don’t have anything to compare it to but,, he was good. like nice suction and just the right amount of teeth and tongue and tbh his scruff felt nice and I still kind of feel it). we don’t say anything though and I kinda just duck my head back into his chest. we just lie there until I feel him shivering and i’m like “wtf you’re cold, we can go whenever” and he just laughed and said “soon”. after a bit we do head back to his apartment bc that’s where I left my car and it’s p quiet. i tell a couple stories and he does too. we get outta his car though and we walk around to meet each other and he says “I had a good time tonight” and I just hug him bc I’m definitely for positive a blushing mess and I agree. he kisses my head and pulls away. another important detail: he’s decently taller than me (a good height tbh). he kinda ducks down and he’s got this goofy sorta grin and i just straighten up to meet him. I think it’s going to be a short goodnight kiss right? well when I pull away he follows and i’m trash so I just step forward again to kiss him. he puts his hand on the small of my back and soon straightens up to hold me against him. this was the best kiss mkay. he pulls away though and he says “see ya later” and kisses my cheek and like I feel some feelings in that moment okay and I just hug him again (y'all he is Solid) and say goodbye and like,, that was that. but we laid on the beach for over 2 hours and i’m real happy. (i got carried away i’m sorry)

[mccoysbi]

who wants to hear about my first date/kiss bc if i don't talk about it i may explode

[moonmccoy-deactivated20190131]

—   And who has been bold and true? for I would be the boldest and truest being of the universe. (insp.)

[sunchosens]

Hey, farm-boy, maybe you can’t count, but there are four of us and one of you. So go get some more guys and then it’ll be an even fight.

↳for @bottomkirk

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[boldly-trekkin-deactivated20180]

“You will die of suffocation, in the icy cold of space.”

[damnitfili]

url graphic:   captainvkirk

[mccoysbi]

i should be doing homework but,, i’m thinking about girls instead